AN: Nope, still don't own Teen Titans… yes, I know, let's cry together.

Chapter 6: Babies; The Positives and Negatives

Raven sat at the table with various wedding magazines and clippings. She wasn't doing any real serious work, just getting started. She knew she had to at some point. She had a highlighter and would circle anything that appealed to her. She wasn't going to have a large wedding, as she had said before. She planned on having the ceremony in their backyard and then having a cookout afterwards. It was going to be more like a party than a wedding. And Beast Boy was just fine with that. He was just happy she wanted to marry him.

She had just found the perfect table cloths she wanted when their phone rang. She casually reached up and grabbed it. "Hello?"

Beast Boy was in the basement playing his favorite videogame. He knew that Raven would want it quiet while she did 'wedding' work, so he happily took refuge in his beloved wreck room.

He suddenly heard the basement door open and someone coming down the stairs. He looked up and saw her, a small smile on her face. "Guess what," she said, stopping half way down the stairs.

"What?" asked Beast Boy curiously.

"Kori just called," said Raven.

"Oh yeah?" he said. "What's up?"

"Well," said Raven, crossing her arms. "She's pregnant."

Beast Boy's jaw dropped and a smile spread across his face. "Really?"

"Yes," said Raven, nodding. "One month married and she's pregnant."

"But, they got married three months ago," said Beast Boy.

"Yes, and she's two months pregnant," said Raven. "So, do the math."

"I'd rather not," said Beast Boy with a smile. "Besides, you already did it for me."

"Anyway, she wanted me to tell you and everyone else I know," said Raven.

"I'm guessing she's excited," said Beast Boy.

"Let's just say I didn't know her voice could go that high and that loud," said Raven, rubbing her right ear.

"Is Rich excited?" asked Beast Boy.

"Probably," said Raven. "She didn't really tell me, but he's got to be."

"I bet he wasn't expecting kids this soon," Beast Boy chuckled. "Mister fear of commitment probably wasn't expecting children for like ten years."

"That does sound like him," said Raven.

"Well, that sure isn't gonna be me," said Beast Boy. "You'll be lucky if you get one week after our wedding before I knock you up."

"Excuse me?" asked Raven.

"Oh, sorry, 'impregnate' you," said Beast Boy rolling his eyes.

"Gar, let's just live one day at a time," said Raven, looking a little uneasy.

"Uh, okay," said Beast Boy. "But you can't blame me for getting excited, right?"

"Let's just focus on keeping our pets alive," said Raven heading back up the stairs.

She decided to give the whole wedding planning thing a rest for a little while. She sat down on the couch and picked her book up. Bijou saw her and quickly jumped up into her lap. Raven smiled and softly pet him, causing him to purr and knead her leg.

"I really hope he lets go of this whole children thing," she said softly to her cat. "But somehow I know he won't. I don't know what I'm going to do. Oh well, I'll just have to wait and see what happens."

Beast Boy came up a few minutes later and sat down next to her. She gave him a smile, but as soon as his gaze left her she looked uneasy. He turned the television on and found a good movie to watch. Raven kept to her book.

Just then a commercial came on that said, "Having a baby changes everything." Raven couldn't help squirming a little bit. Beast Boy smiled and rubbed her thigh.

"I can't wait until that's us," he said. Raven didn't really respond; she just let out an odd, nervous sigh. "Hey, how many kids do you want?"

"Huh?" she asked, caught off guard.

"Cuz I'm not really sure," said Beast Boy. "I think four might be too many, but I want more than two. That would leave three, but people always say three's a crowd, so that means one of our kids might get left out when they're playing. So what do you think?"

"I… really don't know," she said and quickly buried her face back into her book.

"Come on, you've gotta have some sort of an idea," said Beast Boy.

"Gar… I don't know how to tell you this," said Raven uneasily. "But… I don't really want to have children."

Beast Boy's smile faded away and he looked at her silently, his mind racing with thoughts. "You… you don't?" he asked.

"Well, no," said Raven.

"But… why not?" asked Beast Boy.

"I'm not very good with children," said Raven. "And I don't think I'd be a very suitable mother. Not to mention the fact I'm scared of having children that will be one half changeling and one quarter demon."

"Well, motherhood will come to you naturally," said Beast Boy. "I mean, once you're pregnant…"

"That's another thing," sighed Raven. "Pregnancy. I'm not really looking forward to that at all. Morning sickness, stretch marks, going into labor, I really don't want to go through any of it."

"Then we can adopt," said Beast Boy.

"Adoptions can get really messy," said Raven. "Many people's lives are ruined when they find out they're adopted."

"But most people are thankful to the people who adopted them," said Beast Boy.

"Still, I don't want to take that chance," said Raven.

"Then what are we gonna do?" Beast Boy snapped at her.

"Gar, please," Raven said, sighing. "Don't get upset."

"You tell me that you don't wanna have children with me and I'm not supposed to get upset?" he asked angrily.

"It's not that I don't want to have children with you," said Raven. "I don't want to have children at all. Even if I was with someone else I still wouldn't be fond of the idea."

"Rae, you knew I wanted children," he said, still upset. "I told you that from the beginning!"

"I know," said Raven, growing upset as well. But her upset was more about being close to tears more than anger. "And if I had known that we were going to fall in love I would have told you that I didn't want children. But I didn't know that and until recently I wasn't even thinking about the whole children issue."

Beast Boy sighed and leaned forward, placing his face in his hands. He couldn't believe this. He had wanted children for so long; ever since he had known that he wanted Raven to be his one and only. It was going to be the next big step in his life, after marrying Raven. Now what was he going to do?

"Are you absolutely positive?" he asked after a long silence. "I mean, do you think there's anyway you could change your mind?"

"Is there anyway you can change yours?" asked Raven.

Beast Boy sighed and thought about it. "Okay, let's try something," said Beast Boy. "I'll write down all of the positive reasons for having children and you write down all of the negative reasons. Then we'll give each other our reasons and think it over for a week. Maybe then we can come to a decision. Sound fair?"

"Okay," said Raven softly, nodding.

The two split up and went to write down their lists. Beast Boy went down to the wreck room while Raven went up to her meditation room. They really wanted the other to see their point of view; to agree with them and put this foolishness aside.

Beast Boy calmed himself and began to jot down all of the positive things about having children:

Watching them grow

Knowing that they're a little bit of both of us

Playing with them

Teaching them new things

Being their hero

Reading them stories at night

Telling them that it's alright when they're scared or hurt…

Raven looked at the piece of paper and the pen that lay in front of her. She spent a little while organizing her thoughts and was now ready to write down all of the negative things about having children:

The cost

Not knowing if they'll love you or hate you when they grow up

Tantrums

Unstable powers

Possibility of my father trying to reach them

Them hating us for making them look so odd

What if they don't get along…

When the two were finished they met back in the living room. They silently exchanged their lists and took a look at them. They both read them down and then sighed.

"Okay, so let's not talk about this for a week," said Beast Boy folding the paper Raven had given him and putting it in his pocket.

"Agreed," said Raven doing the same.

They stood there silently for a few seconds.

"Well, I'm gonna go back downstairs," said Beast Boy lowly.

"I'm going to meditate for a little while," said Raven in a similar tone.

They stood there for a few more silent, awkward seconds before finally the two left. Beast Boy went downstairs and decided to take his mind off of the whole situation. He knew Raven was going to do the same thing, but this was his form of meditation. He took the paper out of his pocket and stuck it to the dart board, using one of the darts as a pin. He sighed and decided to play some more videogames.

Raven returned to her meditation room with a bad feeling in her stomach. She didn't know why, but something was telling her that things weren't going to get better. Not for a long time. She took the paper out of her pocket and taped it to the wall she faced when she meditated. She then got in her sitting position and began to meditate.

That evening when it was time for bed the two weren't as close as they usually were. There was a horrible tense feeling lying between them and neither wanted to call attention to it. They fell asleep back to back for the first time in their whole relationship.