AN: Nope, still don't own Teen Titans… yes, I know, let's cry together.
Chapter 9: Broken Hearted
"Alright," said Raven in a soft voice. "Now let's leave our centers… leave our minds… and come back to the room." She let out a long sigh as did everyone else in the room. She opened her eyes and watched as her class did the same, each looking very serene. "And that's our time for today. I'll see everyone next week."
Raven slowly stood up and watched as her class slowly filed out of the room. She sighed and began to clean up. She had been living with Starfire and Robin for the past month and wasn't about to go back home. She hadn't spoken to Beast Boy once since she left and she didn't plan on talking to him any time soon.
She arrived back home, or what she was calling her home for now, and found Robin at work on a case and Starfire on the phone talking to her manager. They both gave her a kind smile and she proceeded to her room. She found Bijou passed out on her bed, on his back with his white stomach pointed up towards the ceiling. She smiled, gave him a good stroke down his long belly, and sat down on her bed.
A few minutes later there came a soft knock at her door.
"Yes?" she answered.
"It is Kori, may I please come in?" asked Starfire.
"Of course," said Raven. Starfire pushed the door open and saw Raven sitting on her bed, the newspaper spread out before her. "Do you need anything?"
"Oh, no," said Starfire, smiling. "May I ask what you are doing?"
"Oh, I'm looking for an apartment," said Raven.
"You do not wish to stay with us?" asked Starfire, shocked.
"It's not that," said Raven. "It's just that you're going to have to turn this room into a nursery soon and I don't want to be a bother to you two any longer."
"But you are not a bother," said Starfire, shaking her head. "We like having you here with us. I have missed our girl times together since we left the tower. So I enjoy having you here very much."
"I know, but I can't stay here forever," said Raven. "I need to get out on my own eventually."
"Well, if that is how you feel," sighed Starfire.
"Did you want something?" asked Raven.
"Oh, yes, I was wondering if we could have a girls night tonight," said Starfire with a smile. "Rich has said that he will be out late tonight, so it will only be the two of us!"
"I don't know," said Raven.
"Please!" Starfire pleaded. "This may be the last time we can do the hanging out together before my bumgorf comes."
Raven looked at the hope in Starfire's eyes and sighed. "Alright, let's have a girls night," said Raven with a slight smile. Starfire squealed and wrapped her arms around Raven.
"Thank you!" said Starfire. "I promise, we shall have fun."
"I'm sure we will," said Raven, slightly being sarcastic. She knew she owed it to Starfire to spend some time with her, since she was living in her home.
That evening Robin left, leaving the two girls all alone. What Raven didn't know was why Robin was leaving. He and Cyborg were going to see Beast Boy so they could talk some sense into him. And Starfire was going to try and do the same with Raven.
Beast Boy couldn't wait to spend some time with the guys. The three of them had barely gotten together over the past few months, so he was really looking forward to it. He had all of their favorite action movies ready and plenty to eat and drink. Finally he heard a knock on the door and knew one of them had arrived.
"Hey man," said Cyborg and Robin with a smile.
"Hey, come on in," said Beast Boy, who hadn't expected them to come together.
The two entered and saw the spread Beast Boy had planned for them. They knew he wasn't going to be happy when he found out the real reason they were there.
"So, what do you guys wanna do first?" asked Beast Boy with a smile. "Have you guys seen my wreck room, yet? We could play a few games, or we could get right to the movies."
"Actually, let's just sit down for a sec," said Robin.
"Uh, okay," said Beast Boy, finding this odd. All three went over to the living room and took a seat. "How was traffic?"
"Not too bad," said Cyborg. He saw Timber lying on the floor looking sad. "What's up with your dog?"
"I don't know," sighed Beast Boy. "He's been like that for a while now. I think he may be sick."
The dog slowly got up and ran upstairs. Beast Boy knew where he was going, the same place he went every day. He was going to lie in front of Ravens meditation room and hope that she emerged from it.
It grew quiet between all three of them. "Is everything okay?" asked Beast Boy. "You two are never quiet like this. Did something happen?"
"No, it's just that," started Robin. "Well, we didn't exactly come here to hang out."
"You didn't?" asked a confused Beast Boy.
"No, we came here to talk to you about Raven," said Cyborg.
The feeling in the room seemed to change as soon as Cyborg had uttered her name. Beast Boy's pleasant grin immediately turned to one of anger and disgust. "Well, I don't wanna talk about her," he said in a growl.
"Too bad," said Robin. "Because that's why we came here."
"Then you can both get out," said Beast Boy, looking away from them.
Robin and Cyborg knew this was going to hard.
"Look, man, we're just trying to help you two out," said Cyborg.
"Yeah, we're sick of seeing the two of you so miserable," said Robin.
"Miserable? Who's miserable?" asked Beast Boy. "I'm perfectly happy. In fact, I've never been so happy in my whole life."
"Oh, would you stop the bull shit already!" said Cyborg. "You bitch and moan about her every day, and I know because you call me every day. It's obvious that you're still upset about her, but it's also obvious that you still care about her."
"And she still cares about you," said Robin.
"Well I don't care!" said Beast Boy hotly. "What she's done to me is unforgivable."
"What the hell did she do to you?" asked Cyborg. "It's not like she tried to kill you or anythin. So she doesn't wanna have kids, so what? I mean, what the hell's the big deal? If you really loved her it shouldn't matter."
"The big deal is that she knew I did," said Beast Boy. "The big deal is that she waited until we were engaged to tell me that she didn't want children. Who does that? It's underhanded and… and…"
"Don't you dare say it," warned Robin. "Don't you even think about calling her evil. And, speaking of being engaged…" Robin reached into his pocket and pulled out a beautiful ring that Beast Boy knew all too well. "… Raven gave this to me to give back to you." He held it out and Beast Boy gently took it.
"So… I guess it really is over," said Beast Boy, looking at the ring.
"Only because you're lettin it be," said Cyborg. "If you had any sense you'd beg for forgiveness and try to get her back."
"Forgiveness?" Beast Boy practically shouted. "For what? What the hell did I do wrong?"
"You basically told her that you only loved her because you thought she would bare you children," said Robin. "Do you have any idea how horrible that sounds?"
"Yeah, man, what do you think we live in the seventeen hundreds or somethin?" asked Cyborg.
"Okay, maybe I shouldn't have said that," said Beast Boy. "But she still should have said something sooner."
"Do you know that she cries every night?" said Robin.
"She does?" asked Beast Boy.
"Yes," said Robin. "Every night. When she thinks we're asleep she locks herself in her room and cries for hours and hours. She thinks you never loved her and she feels stupid for thinking that anyone ever could."
"You broke her heart, man," said Cyborg. "She was willin to give you anythin you wanted, except one thing. And that one thing was enough for you to break her heart and make her think that she wasn't worth anything to you."
Beast Boy sat there quietly, pondering all of this information. Robin and Cyborg could see that he was carefully thinking about everything they had said. They could also see that he still wasn't about to budge on the issue. But maybe he would give this a little more thought before he gave up on Raven completely.
Raven and Starfire sat in the living room, each with a tub of ice cream. Starfire had been craving it and Raven was so depressed she could eat anything. Bijou sat next to Raven and every once in a while Raven would put a little ice cream on his paws and watch him enjoy his little treat. She knew giving cats dairy was a no no, but it was only going to be this once.
"Raven, I must confess something to you," said Starfire.
"What?" asked Raven as she popped a spoonful of ice cream into her mouth.
"Truthfully, I did not want to have a girls night with you," said Starfire.
"Then why are we having one?" asked Raven.
"Actually, we are having a talking night," said Starfire.
"Isn't that the same thing?" asked Raven.
"No, what I mean is, I wish to talk to you about Garfield," said Starfire.
Raven sighed and looked deep down into the tub of ice cream before her. "No offense, but I really don't want to talk about him," said Raven.
"I know, but we must," said Starfire. "It upsets me that you do the weeping every night."
"I don't weep," said Raven.
"Please, Raven, Rich and I hear you," said Starfire. "Do you not think that perhaps you can talk to Garfield and make things well again?"
"He doesn't want me, so why should I try to repair our relationship?" asked Raven. "He just wants a woman who'll love him and have his children."
"But you do love him, correct?" asked Starfire.
Raven was quiet for a moment. "Yes, I do love him," she said at last. "Or, at least, I did. But because I won't have his children, he doesn't see me as anything more than a woman who wasted his time." She could feel a lump growing in her throat and she knew if she didn't calm down she would start crying.
"You did not waste his time," said Starfire. "And I know he still loves you."
"Then why hasn't he tried once to contact me?" she asked, tears pouring from her violet eyes. "Why hasn't he come here and told me that he's sorry and that he loves me? If he truly did love me then he would have done something by now."
"Raven, please do not cry," said Starfire, taking Raven into her arms.
"How could he have done this to me?" she cried. "I hate him! I loved him with all of my heart and he told me he loved me. He lied to me! He lied!" Starfire held Raven close and tried to calm her down. It was apparent that Beast Boy had truly broken her heart and she would never be the same because of it.
