Broken Expectations

Hold me tight
Hold me tight
Hold me tight, I miss your love.

Why is it that you don't love me? Why not?
I can't think what you give up,
We'll make out,
But you get out.

Why is it that you don't give me a chance?
I want to take back my shape,
shake my mind up, and get back.

There is no satisfying me.
I just know, yeah.
You tell me that my life is long.
Many miles, long.
I feel so alone.
Why don't you believe me?
I don't know.
I'm just missing you, 'cause you're not right here.

Hold me tight
Hold me tight
Hold me tight, I miss your love.

Tell me why just going up and down.
Look at the way you grow love.
If you love me, throw me a kiss now.
Hold me hold me...now.

Tell me why just going up and down.
Look at the way you grow love.
If you love me, throw me a kiss now.
Hold me hold me...Hold me hold me...
Hold me hold me...now.

Let's go!

Hold me tight
Hold me tight
Hold me tight, I miss your love.

kimi ga inaku natte kara to iumono
boku wa koko ni tatazumi
omoide o kono mune ni
nanika o motomete ikite iru

Ah, kimi o omoi utaundayo
Ah, kimi o omotteiru

So yeah, I love you!
Just miss your love!

Hold me tight
Hold me tight
Hold me tight, I miss your love.

Tsume and Kiba fiddled with their instruments a little, barely destroying the silence. Hige looked at them then at her. "Well… Uh… It's a Filipino song." Hige finally replied. Blue could still here the last few verses in her head and somehow, she felt something click in her head. "Was it a love song?" Hige looked up at Blue in surprise. SHE KNEW? He smoothed out his hair while trying to think of something to say.

"I'm going to get myself something to drink." Toboe headed for the stairs. "Uh… Me too. You coming Kiba?" "Sure."

Hige and Blue nervously looked at each other then looked around. "Is this what you do every Friday?" "Well… Yea…" "You never played this song before." "You hear us? From where?" "I live across from this house." Hige stopped a little. He lived in this neighborhood as well, how is it that he never noticed that she lived here? "So…um… Why are you here?" Hige looked at Blue for a little bit when he asked her that question then looked away. "I wanted to see why your band played a sad song. A love song as it seems." Hige laughed. "You're probably wondering why it sounded sad, right?" Blue moved near the mic. "Yea. I wanted to know why something that sad could be a love song. Do you know what the lyrics mean?" "Yes… I do…"

"Hey Hige, do ya want something to drink? Or what?" Toboe yelled out his question from above. "Gimme a Dr. Pepper!" Hige sat down and rested his body against the wall. "The English translation of the song is at my house. If you like I could –" "No, that's okay." Hige tried not to look a little bit disappointed. But he was still excited over the fact that she was actually HERE.

"Why is it that you don't love me? Why not?"

"Listen… Hige?" Hige looked up at Blue expectantly. "I… have to go… See you at school?" Hige previously lit up eyes dulled. "Oh… Yea… Sure… At school. Right." Hige tried not to sigh. "I'll see you at school then!" Hige faked a smile. DAMMIT. Why does everything have to mess up? His eyes followed her form as she walked up the stairs.

Toboe came downstairs with a Dr. Pepper and a Coke, along with some Snickers. "So, did you do something wrong?" Hige roughly grabbed the Dr. Pepper. "NO. She just left. Just like that." "Unrequited love. Once again." Kiba smirked. "Remember Hige, we only have about 95 of our Paradise project done. We need to finish the 5." "And you bring this up NOW?" Kiba drank down his Coke and played some chords on his Gibson Les Paul. "It's rather appropriate is it not? She left. So it's better that your mind is concentrated on something else. Wouldn't want your brain to melt too." Kiba smirked again. "SHUT UP WILL YOU?" Hige frowned and just sulked.

BEEP! BEEP! Hige slammed the alarm clock again. "Why do I still keep the alarm clock on during the weekend?" Hige muttered as he woke up. The Paradise project was finished last night, but it took some doing. Now all they have to do is wait till it's due. The song Hold Me Tight was playing as he took a shower. "I'm holding myself down with these songs…" As he ate breakfast, he wondered what to do. Something slammed on the door. Or rather, someone. "Who is it at this time?" Hige muttered as he opened the door. "Kiba? What are you doing?" "You better get in Tsume's car. Everyone's inside come on!" Hige was pulled towards the car and was barely able to swallow down his food. "What's going on? What happened?" "We'll explain to you later. Just sit tight." Tsume revved the car and sped off.

"Can you guys tell me why we're at the school?" Hige asked as he looked around. "It's 6 in the morning, and it's a Saturday no less!" "Just shut up for once will you?" Kiba looked out the car window. "Tsume was doing some volunteer work REAL early this morning and saw something that might derail our band." Hige groaned. "So it's about the band now, huh Kiba?"

"It's a little worse than that." Tsume quickly said as he got out of the car after he parked it. Hige grew curious as they all went out. Toboe looked around nervously. "I don't think I should be in this." Hige just looked at Toboe. "Can you drive?" "No…" "Point taken. You're staying with us then." Hige replied to Toboe quickly as they headed inside the school. "The 'problem', as Kiba calls it, is in the music room." "Okay, so what are we going to do about it?" Hige peaked into the music room. "I don't see anything wrong…"

"Why is it that you don't give me a chance?"

"So, Blue… Will you be our lead vocal for our band?" "I…I don't know…" Blue looked distraught. She remembered Hige's band and how they played with such passion, as if they were each looking for or vying for someone. But this band, this band was different. They played with a different passion. They played as if for vengeance. They wanted to lash out. She didn't feel right with this band. "Well Blue?" A handsome young man with shoulder length straight black hair that pretty much covered his left eye asked the question. "Ichihara-san… I really… don't…" "No formalities, please… Just call me Yuki." Yuki smiled almost menacingly. "You're band is good and all, but… Ichihara-san, I really don't want to be in it…" Yuki gently put down his guitar and slowly went up to her. The other band members looked away. "Ah, but Blue… Don't you care?" He caressed her face. "Don't you care?…. About me?" He put his face so close to hers she can kiss him without moving.

"I feel so alone.
Why don't you believe me?"

Hige froze. Was he seeing what he thought he was seeing? "This.. This can't be happening…" Kiba and the others looked at him. "So, Tsume, you're telling me-" Toboe looked at Kiba expectantly. "… okay, so you're telling us that there's another band?" "Yea… They call themselves HellHolic. Strange name for a band." Kiba smirked. "I heard worse." Hige slid down onto the ground, holding his head. "Hige? Are you okay?" "Hige? HIGE!" Everything went black.

Blue heard a shout from outside the music room, despite the room being soundproofed. "I'm sorry, but… I can't…" She pushed him away and ran towards the door.

"Oh don't worry… You won't be able to run far." Yuki smirked. "Come on boys, we'll clean up after ourselves and head for home."

Blue opened the door and looked out. No one was there. She ran towards the front entrance of the school. She barely made out the shape of a black Nissan 350Z. She stopped. "Hige…" She couldn't explain these feelings. She never really felt anything like this before. She headed for home. The sun was going up over the horizon slowly. "Why?" She didn't understand anything that's going on. She felt her forehead. It was hot. REALLY hot. She noticed that her vision has gotten blurry. "I'm… crying?" As soon as she saw her house, she ran all the way to her room. "I'm…crying… and I don't… I don't even know why…" She hid her face in her pillow and cried till she fell asleep, exhausted from the tears.

"Hi..ge.." "Hige…" "Hige." Hige opened his eyes. "What happened to me?" Then the memories of what he saw came back to him. "Hige, why did you pass out?" Kiba just looked at Hige. They were in Hige's room. Everyone was sitting down somewhere. Except Tsume, he was looking at his cds. "Nice set of albums Hige…" Hige sighed. "Whatever…" Hige got up a bit. "I saw something… I saw something I didn't like." "You saw the band?" Hige stared at Kiba. "Band? Looked more like someone trying to rape Blue!" Tsume smiled a bit. "That's what I meant when I said it's a little worse than that. They're trying to get her to be the lead vocal. I have to admit, she's a better singer than you Hige." Hige frowned. "So?" "So… We'll need her. If she doesn't join HellHolic first." "And what am I supposed to do?" "Play guitar Hige…" Hige sighed. "FINE." "Alright, we'll see ya tonight for the gig." Hige completely forgot about the gig. "Oh shit…" "You forgot…" Hige smiled nervously. "Yea, what do ya know." "Just practice it alright Hige?" They left. "Dammit… Blue…"