Sleeping My Demise
The clock ticks to show it's three hours past.
I really should be asleep…
But I can't.
For in my dreams
Is where you haunt me.
Never alone,
But alone with you:
The most dangerous thing.
In my dreams
I am helplessly yours.
Only you.
I can't escape.
I want to run,
But I don't want to leave.
Afraid of losing you
Forever.
But also terrified of
Getting too close…
Too close for comfort,
So comfortably close.
With you I can't breathe.
But you're all I need
To live.
Just barely,
Just to be with you.
My dreams break the barriers,
All boundaries I cross,
And I find myself in blissful hell.
We can't go back.
We're at the point of no return
Ever.
Startled
I scream,
Break out in a cold sweat.
Yet feel unbearably warm
And I'm awake.
So here I am
Four hours past.
Not wanting to dream,
But aching so badly
To be with you.
If only for a moment.
In that moment I'm complete
Yet completely shattered.
So I'll stay awake tonight…
