Sleeping My Demise

The clock ticks to show it's three hours past.

I really should be asleep…

But I can't.

For in my dreams

Is where you haunt me.

Never alone,

But alone with you:

The most dangerous thing.

In my dreams

I am helplessly yours.

Only you.

I can't escape.

I want to run,

But I don't want to leave.

Afraid of losing you

Forever.

But also terrified of

Getting too close…

Too close for comfort,

So comfortably close.

With you I can't breathe.

But you're all I need

To live.

Just barely,

Just to be with you.

My dreams break the barriers,

All boundaries I cross,

And I find myself in blissful hell.

We can't go back.

We're at the point of no return

Ever.

Startled

I scream,

Break out in a cold sweat.

Yet feel unbearably warm

And I'm awake.

So here I am

Four hours past.

Not wanting to dream,

But aching so badly

To be with you.

If only for a moment.

In that moment I'm complete

Yet completely shattered.

So I'll stay awake tonight…