The Best Man
A kiss
Tainted
Never to be normal again
Never wanting to
What happens now?
We can never be just friends again
But we must
You and I have our own lovers to return to
A pang in my heart
I look at you
Guiltily
This wasn't supposed to happen
But id did
And nothing can change that
You have this look in your eyes
You look glazed
Did I do that to you?
I suddenly feel
Weak
Because of you
For you
I tentatively reach out to touch your face
Silky smooth
Burning my skin
You lick your lips
Pull me in
It happens again
I don't want it to end
But I want to break free and run
My mind and body are no longer one
Separate beings
Out of tune
They don't listen to each other
As you draw me closer
And I savor the sweet heat of your mouth
My body wins this round
Soon clothes are flying
Hands are roaming
We fall on the bed
As one
I forget why we came to the room at all
I try to remember
But you kiss me again
And all logical thinking ceases
We know
We can never go back
And you hastily lock the door
And pounce on me once more
For that night
I was in my own world of bliss
Morning has come
And I awake in your arms
Content to stay like that
Forever
Last night ruches back to me
Every hot memory flooding my brain
What have I done?
I slowly get out of bed
So I don't awaken you
I quickly dress up
Smoothen out my clothes and hair
Grab my purse
And leave
No longer sure
Now here I stand
In my white dress
Next to him:
The one I truly love
Right?
I dare to glance at you
And I see the sadness in your eyes
Did I do that to you?
You never let go of my gaze
And nor do I
The man in front speaks
Everyone claps
And I'm woken out of my reverie
I turn to him
The other him
And feel…
Hollow
"You may now kiss the bride."
And he kisses me
But things don't feel right
I should be happy
But I walk down the aisle
Feigning a smile
Look at you once more
As I walk out the door
And realize
I left the best man behind.
