The Best Man

A kiss

Tainted

Never to be normal again

Never wanting to

What happens now?

We can never be just friends again

But we must

You and I have our own lovers to return to

A pang in my heart

I look at you

Guiltily

This wasn't supposed to happen

But id did

And nothing can change that

You have this look in your eyes

You look glazed

Did I do that to you?

I suddenly feel

Weak

Because of you

For you

I tentatively reach out to touch your face

Silky smooth

Burning my skin

You lick your lips

Pull me in

It happens again

I don't want it to end

But I want to break free and run

My mind and body are no longer one

Separate beings

Out of tune

They don't listen to each other

As you draw me closer

And I savor the sweet heat of your mouth

My body wins this round

Soon clothes are flying

Hands are roaming

We fall on the bed

As one

I forget why we came to the room at all

I try to remember

But you kiss me again

And all logical thinking ceases

We know

We can never go back

And you hastily lock the door

And pounce on me once more

For that night

I was in my own world of bliss

Morning has come

And I awake in your arms

Content to stay like that

Forever

Last night ruches back to me

Every hot memory flooding my brain

What have I done?

I slowly get out of bed

So I don't awaken you

I quickly dress up

Smoothen out my clothes and hair

Grab my purse

And leave

No longer sure

Now here I stand

In my white dress

Next to him:

The one I truly love

Right?

I dare to glance at you

And I see the sadness in your eyes

Did I do that to you?

You never let go of my gaze

And nor do I

The man in front speaks

Everyone claps

And I'm woken out of my reverie

I turn to him

The other him

And feel…

Hollow

"You may now kiss the bride."

And he kisses me

But things don't feel right

I should be happy

But I walk down the aisle

Feigning a smile

Look at you once more

As I walk out the door

And realize

I left the best man behind.