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Rated T or PG- 13 for- Violence, language, difficult situations, and Romance scenes later on.

Genre: Drama/Angst/Romance

Chapter 4. Choices

Early morning Robin called everyone down for training. They all knew not to argue with him because he wouldn't be convinced so why bother. Robin, Starfire and Cyborg were in the living room waiting for the others.

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Raven had finished putting her uniform on, her hair was brushed; it fell slightly over framing her face. She could really do anything with her hair and still look beautiful. Sighing, she looked at her meditation mirror she was going to use it later on. Placing the mirror back down on her dresser she exited the room.

Yesterday was terrible, that man had almost taken advantage of her. She felt like staying in her room and not going out to face the world, she was thankful Beastboy arrived in time; he was her savior. She knew she could count on him he was a true friend.

"A friend…that's all he will ever be…" she thought to herself, a frown formed on her lips as she bowed her head. " Don't think about it Raven…your only bring yourself down," she told herself. As long as Terra was there, she was to keep away from him and to not think such thoughts as to loving him. But she loved Beastboy with all her heart. That she couldn't deny, he had been there for her so many times…even now…he's remained by her side.

"I wish I could tell you…" she said softly as she stared at her hands that were lightly shaking. Her head hurt a little from the events that happened last night being pushed on the floor had its consequences, well that's what she thought caused it…yet she was feeling her forehead burning. She felt slight pain but she could live with it. Rubbing her head she heard a voice behind her.

"Are you okay?"

Raven turned around to see Beastboy standing there. He was worried she could tell, this made her smile but it quickly left when she thought it was only pity not anything else.

"I'm fine, … my head just hurts" Raven replied looking at the floor.

"Is there anything I can do to help…I mean after yesterday…" he asked as he stepped forward. She shook her head.

"Its not necessary," she whispered as she lifted her head his eyes searched her own.

"But you might have a fever…it was cold outside yesterday, and you took a shower too," he explained, Raven shrugged.

"I don't think so…" she responded, suddenly she felt pressure on her forehead. Beastboy had placed his hand on her forehead to feel if it was hot. He kept his hand there as he moved it a little to find any temperature changes. Raven remained still, slightly confused but happy that he actually cared. Beastboy's hand retreated back; he placed his other hand on his forehead as if he was looking for any difference. He nodded and looked back at Raven.

"You got a fever Rae, " he said as he placed his hand back to her head. She blushed at the touch he didn't seem to notice only concentrating on her temperature.

"A fever? I don't think so I feel perfectly fine…" she responded as her eyebrow rose.

"Feel it, here," he took her hand in his and placed it on her own forehead, his palm was on the back of her hand. Raven felt herself burn up…was it because of the touch or her fever…maybe both.

"There's nothing wrong," she replied calmly. Beastboy sighed. He moved her hand to his forehead.

"See the difference?" he questioned as he held her hand close to him. She was embarrassed at the situation they were in; feeling each other's forehead.

"I guess, maybe I do have a fever, I did feel pain this morning…" Raven answered as she thought back to this morning.

"See I'm right!" Beastboy exclaimed with a smile. Raven smiled a little and rolled her eyes. Even in the most terrible days he could always make her smile, that's what she loved about him he always took her out of the darkness…he brought her happiness; though sometimes she wouldn't show it but secretly she liked being told jokes by him.

"It must be the end of the world" Raven replied sarcastically showing a small smile of her own. Beastboy frowned but he took a look at her expression, she was playing around. He laughed.

"Still out to get me I see," he said with a grin.

"Like always," she answered.

"Beastboy!" an over excited squeal came from the end of the hallway. They turned to see Terra there, Raven's emotions whined inside, but she held an emotionless expression.

"Beastboy, how are you?" Terra greeted as she pecked his cheek.

"Um…fine I guess…I thought you were mad at me," he said not putting much thought into the question. Terra smiled.

"I was, but I knew I couldn't stay mad at you forever. You know I love you," Terra replied. Raven cringed at the word 'love', did Terra get some sort of pleasure bringing Raven pain? Terra then turned to Raven.

"Raven and how are you? Are you ok after what happened yesterday? Remember you almost got raped," Terra asked putting emphasis on the word rape. Why was she always out to get Raven? Did she enjoy torturing her? Beastboy had made her forget, his smile made her forgot the horrible event that occurred yesterday…now it was all back.

"Terra!" Beastboy shouted angrily at the way his girlfriend said it.

"What did Ido?" Terra asked innocently. As she pointed a finger to herself in shock.

"Can, you just give us a moment. I need to speak to Raven right now," Beastboy demanded as he approached Raven and grabbed her arm.

"But-"

"We'll talk later, right now Raven needs my help," Beastboy explained. Raven looked up not wanting to cause any more trouble she refused.

"No Beastboy…I don't want to cause trouble…I'll just be in my room…tell Robin I'm not going to training," she told him trying to keep her voice steady. Beastboy's expression turned to one of concern.

"It's no trouble," Beastboy assured her. Raven shook her head.

"No, I need to meditate anyway, I'm sure Terra would like your company."

"But—" Beastboy began, but Terra got furious.

"Beastboy!" Terra warned.

"All right, remember Raven when you need me don't hesitate to ask," Beastboy reminded her with a smile, Raven nodded and retreated into her room.

"Beastboy, Raven, Terra! Get down here now!" Robin shouted over the speakers.

Beastboy groaned as he slapped a hand on his face. He walked to the living room with Terra.

Robin was sitting on the couch with Starfire and Cyborg waiting for the three Titans.

"It's about time. What took you guys so long?" Robin asked as he crossed his arms in front of his chest. Robin had defiantly become more serious and strict; he wanted everyone to be on time no exceptions.

"Robin, were only 15 minutes late, can you lay off a bit?" Beastboy asked as he approached the Titans. Robin forced out a sigh.

"Fine. I'll let you guys of the hook this time…where's Raven?" he asked when he noticed only Terra and Beastboy there.

"Raven has a fever I don't think she should train with us today…" Beastboy explained. Robin raised an eyebrow in confusion.

"How? I mean she's been locked in her room almost all day and we hardly see her," Robin said. Starfire nodded in agreement.

"Yes, Raven has been absent many times, I do think something may be wrong," Starfire said after agreeing with Robin. Cyborg glanced at Beastboy, he and Beastboy were the only one's that knew what happened last night…or so they thought.

Terra knew she could get Raven in trouble right now if she wanted to. But the question here was should she tell or not?. If she told Raven would be in so much trouble maybe even get a punishment, she liked the idea of Raven being away from them especially Beastboy. But if she told, the Titans would ask why she hadn't said anything? And Beastboy may get suspicious. This was so frustrating! What should she do? "Come on Terra! What would be the best thing to do?" she shouted in her mind.

Beastboy glanced at Cyborg, should he tell them? I mean this is Raven's business he had no right to tell everyone about it. No, he couldn't not now if he told Robin, Raven might get in trouble for sneaking out of the tower at night. He would ask Raven if she was okay with telling them before making any decisions he had already told Cyborg. But he knew Cyborg was a trusted friend he was his best male friend, then came Raven. Raven…he wondered if she was all right.

"Beastboy?" Robin asked again when Beastboy wasn't responded.

"Umm, Robin I do not think he can hear you," Starfire informed.

"Beastboy!" Robin shouted angered that he was being ignored. Did it seem like Beastboy was ignoring everyone and only thinking of Raven?. Beastboy snapped out of his thoughts.

"Dude, you don't have to yell, and I don't know…I guess you should ask her," Beastboy responded calmly. Terra looked at her boyfriend. She knew, Beastboy knew about Raven and were she was, in fact he was there to rescue her. "So he's trying to keep this a secret" Terra thought.

"Starfire can you ask her after training?" Robin asked. The alien beauty smiled sweetly and nodded her head.

"Of course! I have not spoken to Raven in a long time, and I am feeling sad for not doing so," Starfire announced with some sadness in her voice.

"We all haven't," Cyborg spoke. Terra gritted her teeth, why was everyone caring about Raven now? Didn't they like her better then the dark girl!. She would not stand for this to happen.

"No, I will talk to her! Raven and I haven't bonded yet", Terra informed them with a smile. Beastboy stared at her for a moment he seemed hesitant.

"No, I think Starfire should, they haven't talked in a while, besides didn't you just talk to her a couple of minutes ago," Beastboy said.

"Uh…yes…your right Star should," The blonde girl stuttered nervously, scared that Beastboy might get mad at her…or already is.

"It's settled then. We need to talk to Raven, she is part of the team. She's our friend we can't let her drift away from us," Robin told them feeling guilty that he hadn't been paying attention to the half demon girl. Terra let out a disgusted grunt as she blew a strand of hair out of her tan face.

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Raven lay on her bed rubbing her temples. The fever she had was starting to hurt a lot. She felt herself burning up; she was starting to sweat.

"Ugh…I don't feel so well…my heart hurts too…" she muttered to herself. She tossed and turned in her bed trying to find a position where she could be comfortable.

"Raven?" an emotion asked in her mind.

"What…" Raven responded to what seemed to be knowledge.

"I think you should get help"

"I'm fine. It will go away in a day or two."

"I don't think this is any regular fever…"

"What are you trying to say…"

"What I'm trying to say is Love isn't feeling good as well…I do not think this is any regular fever."

"What? But how does Love feel my fever?"

"Love has been like this but yesterday she has received the most pain. Do you remember?"

"Nothing happened yesterday…except…for that. But I don't think that would affect love..."

"No, it would not affect her but what you saw afterwards. When Beastboy and Terra were kissing…"

There was a silence.

"I don't want to remember that…"

"It pains you just like it pains Love. Love had her hopes high when Beastboy rescued you from that bastard. She thought Beastboy may have some feelings for her, you did as well/"

"No, I have never thought that, he loves Terra…always has, always will."

"You realize that what your saying is only making you and Love worse."

It was true Raven's state was getting worse by the minute. Every time she would bring herself down or remember when Beastboy kissed Terra. It would pain her from the inside and out.

"What do I do then? I don't have control over whom Beastboy loves! He loves Terra and I cant change that even though I wish I could…"

"You have to do something before Love's state worsens if this continues you may be in critical danger."

"…What can I do?"

"Forget about him…"

"What?"

"You can forget about him. When you do Love will be gone she will not affect you anymore. But if you don't Love will die slowly taking you as well, because you are going through pain Love is feeling it to."

"But how do you expect me to stop loving the boy that takes me out of the darkness!"

"Don't you understand he is bringing you pain as well!"

"…I don't care… I love him…"

"Then you will die, along with all of us…"

"Isn't there another choice?"

"…There is…but it isn't a choice. It's a feeling, if Beastboy returns the feelings you have for him, Love will recover. But I highly doubt that he will. He's with Terra."

"Then there's nothing I can do…"

"You have many choices Raven…"

"…I wont do anything about it…"

"Then there's no hope…"

Knowledge left her. Raven laid on her bed her face pressed again her pillow as she wept. She could hear the rest of the team training outside. Robin cheering for Starfire. Cyborg gloating at his record time. And Terra rooting for Beastboy. What could she do now? Just hearing Beastboy pained her. How can she live here? Should she forget about Beastboy? Should she leave?. Should she tell anyone about her condition? Or should she die alone like she was supposed to…cold, unloved, with no one to care… Some many decisions but no clue what to do.

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