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Rated T or PG- 13 for- Violence, language, difficult situations, and Romance scenes later on.

Genre: Drama/Angst/Romance

Chapter 6. Dreams and Pain

Robin was sitting at the table eating, rather playing with his food. He had much on his mind, mainly concerns for his team. He twirled his silver fork in the piece of chocolate cake not really wanting to eat. His mind began to drift into dreamland and there he saw a figure who had her back turned to him; but he could recognize that long red hair and beautiful tan skin. The purple uniform so familiar to him, slowly the figure turned but instead of the happy expression she always held it was filled with sorrow. He instantly felt a pang of guilt for some reason, he didn't know why but he felt like he caused it. He placed a hand on her cheek but she only turned away leaving tears on his fingers.

"Starfire? What's wrong? What happened?"

She looked up at him with those emerald eyes filled with tears, it broke his heart to see her suffering like this.

"You will never know..." she replied softly then turned away from him and disappeared.

"Robin? Robin...Robin!" the voice shouted his name and quickly woke him up from his dream better named nightmare.

"Wh-- Yeah, I'm awake!" he mumbled causing her to giggle. This made him smile glad to know that she was feeling nowhere near like she had in his dream.

"Robin, you have chocolate all over your cheek," she laughed.

"I do?" Robin touched his cheeks and indeed found the substance.

"Here, let me assist," she then pulled a napkin from the table and wiped his face. This was so embarrassing! She probably thought he couldn't eat! Oh, the humiliation!

"Uh...thanks..."

"It is no problem...now would you care to tell me what you were dreaming about?" Starfire questioned. Robin's face flushed, she knew about it? Oh God, he can't tell her, she would think badly of him.

"Oh, it's, uh, nothing..." he quickly responded and didn't look her in the face. She just arched an eyebrow but shrugged it off. "Anyway...did you talk to Raven?" now it was Starfire's turn to flush.

"I, uh, um...I have..." she said nervously. Robin immediately noticed her nervousness.

"What did she say?" he asked as he eyed her every move.

"She said she is sick but she will come down shortly."

"There's more..."

"No there is not...that is all she said!" she retorted as she fiddled with her fingers. Robin observed her movements and knew there was something she was hiding.

"I know you Starfire; you're hiding something from me."

"I am not...that is all she said."

"Star---" he was interrupted by Raven, she walked in silently trying not to be noticed but she was.

"Raven, how come you weren't at training?" he questioned. Raven had finished filling the pot with water when she heard this. She turned to him then said.

"Why would that be of sudden importance to you?" she questioned in a cold manner. Then went back to boiling the water she was setting for tea.

"Because we're your friends and we're worried, and the fact that Beastboy said you had a high fever doesn't calm us down," Robin responded folding his arms across his chest and looking directly at her.

"Then that answer's your question, as Beastboy said, I have a fever, happy?"

"Of course I'm not happy! We're worried. I know there's something more," he said making Raven turn back around. She saw Starfire over his shoulder gesturing that she hadn't said a word.

"No there isn't," she responded then began to fill her cup with herbal tea. She saw the steam rise and calm her down, she needed this more than ever now.

"Robin, please, stop the interrogating of Raven," Starfire pleaded. Robin looked at her then gave a sigh; he was weak, weak for her.

"Fine...but you'll go back to training next week, you'll be better by then," he stated. Raven looked down at her cup she knew she would probably be dead by then, the very thought sent a chill up her spine.

Robin would find out...he promised himself that. He then retired to the couch and switched on the TV. Starfire accompanied him and sat next to him watching whatever shows he chose.

Suddenly the living room door's swished open once again and Cyborg had appeared, who was looking around for someone apparently.

"Any ya'll seen BB?" he asked, it looked like he had come out of the garage, probably working on the T-car. "He asked for the T-car but it needed repairs, now that I got it fixed he left!"

"I have not seen him friend," Starfire stated but there was worry in her voice. She looked at Raven who had her back to them and was slowly sipping her tea.

Raven heard his name and something inside burned but she tried to ignore it. She felt the grip on her cup tighten as she took deep breaths, not knowing that what was to come would bring her immense pain. "Beastboy..."

"You seen him Robin?" Cyborg questioned.

"He went out with Terra, for a "romantic date" just a couple minutes ago," Robin explained not really paying attention to anything but the TV. He didn't know that what he had said was a terrible mistake.

A sudden cracking sound erupted throughout the Tower followed by a gasp. Starfire immediately jumped from her seat and turned towards Raven who remained with her back to them.

"Raven?" she questioned meekly almost afraid.

Raven remained quiet but cold only wince in pain. The cup had exploded in her hands causing pieces of the cup to dig deep under her skin. Her whole palm showed long open gashes with blood spilling down to her wrists. Her fingers coated in red blood and trembling from the impact.

Everyone remained silent listening for something that would escape Raven's mouth but she hadn't spoke. She hid her hand in her cloak and stepped away from the broken pieces with fear in her eye. Although no one had seen her injured hand a certain green-eyed girl saw it.

"Awe man, Rae did you do that?" Cyborg whined as he stared at the broken pieces that lay on the ground with a brown liquid underneath, he was guessing it was the herbal tea.

"Are you okay Raven?" Robin questioned now worried and confused as he got up.

Raven's eyes showed fear; she can't stay here any longer. She then quickly walked away leaving the three heroes' in confusion, well only two...

Starfire's expression was filled with concern and so she started to go after her when she suddenly felt a hand grab her own. She turned to see masked eyes that looked straight at her with determination.

"Tell me what's happening?" he asked softly as he stared into those emerald eyes that showed regret.

"You will never know..." she spoke those words that made his eyes widen, why? Because it strongly resemblanced his daydream. Slowly he let go of her arm and saw her walk away not knowing that there was a double meaning to her words...

He stayed silent thinking over her words. "You will never know..." What won't he ever know? This was so frustrating! He, who solved so many cases, yet could not riddle this out. Something was hurting Raven and Starfire knew about it... He promised himself to find out and a promise he always keeps.

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Raven was running down the hall when she caught two familiar figures walking hand in hand by her. The pain once again cursed through her, she had to ignore them.

"Hey Rav---" Beastboy only managed to say but Raven just ran past him ignoring anything he said. He looked confused when she entered her room shutting her in from anything outside.

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Raven quickly shut the door, not caring what they would say because she ignored them. Raven was now sitting on her bed slowly taking out the long narrow pieces of glass. She winced as she took a broken piece that had dug really far under her skin. Blood kept pouring staining her cloak and wrists. How could she be so stupid! Letting anger and jealousy out this way! She promised Starfire that Terra won't break her down, but she did.

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Meanwhile-

"She's so rude," Terra stated with annoyance after seeing her ignore them.

"Something's wrong...I need to talk to her," he said quietly as he continued to stare at her door. Terra frowned at this; he was more interested in Raven then her.

"Aren't you supposed to be my boyfriend," she said as jealousy ran through her veins.

Beastboy faced her know and looked at her with seriousness. "I am your boyfriend, but you have to understand that Raven's my friend and I care about her too," he stated.

"But..." she managed to say but then quit what she was going to say she didn't want to ruin what they had. She would take out her anger on Raven later. She smirked to herself, that witch is so easy to anger. I can say whatever I want and she'll keep quiet because she knows I'll reveal her deepest darkest secret...

"Terra?"

"You know what your right...you have your own friends," she said with a small smile. Beastboy seemed surprised at this. She was so understanding, maybe their relationship could actually last.

"Thanks, I'll see you later," he said his goodbye. Terra then gave him a kiss to show her love.

"Later," she then left the hallway.

Beastboy then reached her door when he was about to knock a shout stopped him. He turned to see Starfire running quickly to him and catching his arm.

"Please, you must not bother her at the moment," Starfire announced as she caught her breath.

"Why? What's wrong?" he asked but Starfire only shook her head.

"I cannot tell you, but you must not bother Raven," she repeated. She couldn't let Beastboy go in and make Raven feel more pain.

"But, she ran into her room looking scared, I want to know what's wrong with her!" he said now fully concerned.

"Exactly why I should talk to her!" Starfire shouted back. Somehow she felt a little anger towards him, probably because he and Terra had made Raven surface more then they will ever know.

Meanwhile-

Raven had heard all the arguing between Beastboy and Starfire. Actually they were still arguing, but it was only Starfire who was trying to buy her time. She would always be grateful to Starfire. She finished bandaging up her hand and then quickly teleported from the room.

"---But I'm her friend!" Beastboy continued to remind her. Starfire looked nervous he looked like he was about to push her aside, but she knew he wouldn't hurt her.

"I am sorry but I will talk to her, please leave. I will tell you what she tells me later okay?" Starfire offered him. Beastboy stayed silent for a moment eyeing her then he spoke.

"Fine...but you will tell me," he then left and disappeared down the stairs.

Starfire let out a big sigh. "That was...close," she tried to remember what Cyborg would say. She then looked around to make sure no one was around. Starfire quickly entered the code and stepped inside.

"Raven, you must go before Beas---" she stopped when she saw that Raven wasn't there. She walked across the room and stared out the window and saw a familiar figure standing outside facing the ocean, with her cloak blowing in the air. "Good luck..."

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Raven had managed to escape and was glad she wasn't found; she didn't want any more drama. It was still night and the sky was dark but a few stars were out. Her long violet hairs kept blowing the air and bothered her. Maybe she should cut it...no, this is the new Raven, with actual emotions, and a new Raven means a new look.

She suddenly remembered Robin's words. "He went out with Terra, for a "romantic date" just a couple minutes ago," she closed her eyes and bit her lip as a way to try and hold in her pain but she could still feel it. Her forehead wasn't as hot as before it was her heart that hurt. She guessed the fever was a temporary symptom.

Her thought's returned to Beastboy and Terra. Her eyes began to glaze over at the mere thought.

"He's so happy with her...why would I even try to interfere," she said to herself, when Starfire's words rang in her ear. "Hope..."

She felt her heart burn at this, she would never have him, never kiss him, never feel his love, like she felt for him. She hated this feeling! Why was she allowed to feel now more than ever before? Because her father's influence is gone forever...

Raven took of her cloak and laid on the sand then sat on it and brought her legs up to her chest and sat in silence.

"There's no hope..." she kept telling herself. Knowledge had told her that but then Starfire said the opposite. It was very confusing and frustrating, but she knew one thing for sure. She would try to forget him she wouldn't care anymore. She'll return to her cold, emotionless self. Maybe than she'll live in peace in quiet. As she thought this over she didn't know that someone was approaching her from behind.

A hand suddenly touched her shoulder making her scream and quickly chant her magic words when she then realized who it was.

"Beastboy?"

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