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Disclaimer: I don't own the Teen Titans
Rated T or PG- 13 for- Violence, language, difficult situations, and Romance scenes later on.
Genre: Drama/Angst/Romance
Chapter 9. Saying Sorry
Night-
Night had arrived and Beastboy made plans to go see Raven. He just had to get there without being seen. He crept out of his room in his pajamas that consisted of shorts and a white wife beater, quietly walking down the hallways when metallic footsteps were heard. Immediately he changed form to one of a green spider and ran to the wall trying to keep hidden in the shadows. As he looked on he saw spiky hair in the shadows.
Robin.
He saw him walk up the flight of stairs heading to the roof. He was out of view now Beastboy could make a run for it. But then again he was interrupted by bright green light. Once again he transformed into a green spider and waited. How many people are going to be awake tonight! He shouted to himself in his mind. Starfire had come into view; she too was in her nightwear; pink shorts and a white tank top. But on top she wore a pink robe tied at her waist.
Starfire had now left going up the flight of stairs toward the roof. She was going to meet Robin there after he told her he wanted to talk. So with that in mind she opened the door to the roof and saw him standing with his back to her. Quietly she approached him and almost as if he sensed her presence he turned around.
"Robin…"
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He was now safely in the elevator and he let out a long breath he had been holding in.
"That was too close," he told himself. He felt the elevator start to slow down and then halt to a stop. "Must be the last floor," the last floor was at the bottom of the tower away from all the other rooms. He looked around once more before approaching the door.
That's when he saw that the door would only open if he knew the code. "What is the code!" he shouted to himself in annoyance. He began to randomly type in words, "…Batman…Starfire! That has to be it!…no!"
Nothing was working…come one Beastboy think what would Robin put as the code. "Well I already tried Starfire…I got it!" he quickly typed in two words and the doors opened. He smiled he just had to think like Robin to know it.
He quietly walked in but everything was dark inside, the lights were off and he could faintly see a figure sleeping on the bed. Slowly he got closer and saw Raven sleeping. This was the first time he saw her face look calm and peaceful. It seemed like for the first time everything was okay and all the drama had ended. He saw her long violet hair sprawled on the pillow and a few strands of hair on her pale face.
This was the first time he had actually looked at Raven without her turning away. He felt something inside him leap making a smile spread across his face. He couldn't deny what was next to appear in his mind. Raven was beautiful…it wasn't that he didn't know it already. I mean Terra was cute, Starfire was pretty, and Raven was beautiful. That's what he thought but suddenly he felt himself click back to realization. Beautiful! What is he thinking? I mean he can't deny that but Raven was his best friend!
He heard her groan in her sleep and her body began to move. He felt this wasn't a good time to be here. He took a few steps back then turned around and tried to quietly walk away when he heard his name.
"Beastboy?" Raven asked her voice soft and her eyes half open. Her eyes then fully opened and she saw it was Beastboy. "What are you doing here!" she panicked. She reached for her purple robe and tied it to her waist and stepped out of bed.
"Raven, I just couldn't help but come down here," he said as he approached her.
"But your not supposed to be here!" she exclaimed. The light in her room had turned on and now everything was visible. "I don't want anymore problems. You need to leave, if Terra finds out—"
"But she won't," he interrupted her. "Look I just wanted to say sorry, for what I said…I was stupid I know it hurt you and I'm really sorry…" he apologized. Beastboy was now in front of her and she could see genuineness in his emerald green eyes.
"…Look…I know you don't mean that…so just leave me alone," it hurt her to say that but she had too. She wanted all these problems to stop, she wanted to forget about him and live in peace.
"I do," he said firmly and he did mean it.
"Stop lying to me I'm tired of it!" she shouted.
"I do mean it believe it or not!" he argued back. Raven only stared at him with annoyed filled eyes.
"Well I for one don't believe it," she said coldly, her violet eyes stared deep at him with anger.
"What happened to you?" he exclaimed. She had totally changed to him. First she was quiet then depressed now angry.
Raven heard him shout that question and inside she felt herself scream You happened to me! But she couldn't say that he wouldn't understand; he'd want an explanation, which led to her love for him.
"Raven, you've changed…" he said softly, he took a step closer and she only took a step back. "Don't walk away from me," he said sadly. Raven only looked away, she felt like crying but she didn't want show weakness. She didn't want him to see that he made her feel this way. Besides wasn't he the one that went on Terra's side and broke his promise to her.
"You promised me…you said you'd be there for me…" she said as her violet eyes glazed over. She saw him look back into her eyes.
"I am here aren't I?" he asked.
"What about yesterday? Did you think I would forget?" she questioned her voice ringing louder.
"What do you expect me to say? You were choking my girlfriend, Raven!" he exclaimed.
"You didn't believe me!" she shouted back. "You believed her!"
"I believed what I saw…"
Raven was sick of it. She wasn't about to breakdown in front of him not after what he's down.
"You've changed too," she whispered. "Now get out, I don't want you here anymore!" she shouted her eyes threatening to let tears fall.
"I'm not going; I came here for you! I care about you yet you still can't get it through your head!" he exclaimed.
"It's you that can't get it through your head that I don't want to ever see you again!" she spat back. Their faces were so close as they argued. This seemed like another one of their little fights they had when they were younger. They were just trying to hide their true feelings. "You said you would be there for me! You said you'd be there no matter what…you promised me…and you betrayed me…you broke your promise…" she started at a scream and slowing went into a whisper.
"…I know you want me to stay…" he said.
"No I don't I want you to go and leave me alone!" she shouted back.
"Don't lie to yourself Raven because I can see it in your eyes…" he said and it was true does violet eyes showed him everything.
"Don't," she said in agony.
"Raven…I came here because I care for you and I still do…I want to be here for you…"
"No you don't…please stop hurting me…" she whispered. Pain dripped in her words her face should so much sorrow. He felt bad for doing this but he wanted to show her that he was there for her and that she shouldn't push him away. He saw her look away and wrap her arms around her body. He took a step forward and softly took her chin and turned her face so that she was now looking into his eyes.
Beastboy stared into Raven's violet eyes as she stared back into his emerald green eyes. There was a silence between all you could hear was breathing. But then he saw something fall from the corner of Raven's eyes making its way down her pale cheek to her lips almost as if that was the button of activation for him he immediately took her in his arms letting her cry into his chest as he embraced her not wanting to let go of her fragile body.
It ripped his heart apart to see her like this so vulnerable and miserable. He hated himself for causing this much pain. He felt like the only thing he could do was hold her like this and try to make her feel better let her know he cared so much for her.
Raven couldn't help but give in to his embrace his warm strong arms protecting her from anything that wanted to cause her hurt. She always dreamed of this but not in this situation. Though she was embarrassed to be like this pressed up to his chest and feeling his own arms wrap around her she couldn't help but want it. She loved him so much and to have him hold her like this was what she always wished for.
"I'm sorry I hurt you…I was stupid! I don't want to lose your friendship…please forgive me," he said while still embracing her. Raven let her eyes look down for a moment then she looked up at him and saw that he was waiting for her reply.
"Beastboy…I…"
"Please Raven…" he repeated. There was a brief silent before she spoke again.
"…I… forgive you…" she whispered and closed her eyes. Raven then felt fingers slowly wipe away her tears. She had to admit she loved it when he did that, it felt as if he could wipe away her pain.
"You know I love you, right?" he asked as his eyes searched hers. This made Raven's eyes go wide, did she hear right?
"You love me?" she asked disbelievingly. No, he has to be lying! I mean, he can't, no…
"Of course, you're my best friend," he replied. That's when it hit her…he loved her as a best friend it was just strong friendship not romantic feelings. She was so stupid to believe he loved her for real! She hated herself at this moment she couldn't help but let more tears fall. She was beautifully broken…
"Don't cry …" he said softly and hugged her tighter. "Remember I'm your best friend…" he reminded her and only held her tighter. But he didn't know that inside the love he had for Raven wasn't only friendship… Time could only make him realize and hopefully when it wasn't too late…
"You need to go, now… I can't let you stay here any longer…" she said softly and detached herself from him, she could feel his disappointment.
"…I'll be back… I promise you that…" he said honestly as his emerald green eyes searched her beautiful violet ones.
"Don't promise things you won't keep…" she whispered and looked away from him.
"I swear on all that I love that I will keep this promise. I'll see you tomorrow morning," he took one last look at her and left her room leaving her alone once more. She instantly dropped on her bed and choked on her own tears. She tried to stop taking in deep breaths but this was the hardest thing she had to do. He said he loved her but it wasn't the love she wanted… and now she had to face him again tomorrow…
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Robin stared into her eyes at the sound of his name. He could sense her nervousness and worry radiating off her. He could see the fear and curiosity in her beautiful emerald eyes. He took a step closer to her and watched her stand still.
"…Robin…you are mad at me, yes?" she questioned with fear.
"Never, I just need to talk to you. Come here," Starfire walked up to him and she felt him take hold of her hand, she once again felt her heart leap at this.
"What is it you want to talk about?"
"This morning, with Terra…"
"Please do not tell me what I think you are going to say."
"Starfire, I don't want you in any trouble. Raven is already in problems because of her actions and I don't want you to follow in her footsteps," he explained. He could see her eyes narrow at this comment.
"I am not following in no one's footsteps, I am doing as I please!" she retorted with attitude.
"Starfire…"
"She is the one that needs to be punished not Raven!"
"We have no proof that Terra attacked her first," he commented but Starfire couldn't that for an answer.
"Raven's words should be proof enough for you Robin."
"Starfire, I know you believe Raven, and I do too. We just can't do anything right now… don't worry…she's okay. I checked her this afternoon and she was fine," he assured her.
"Does she have all the necessities she needs? Water, food—"
"Yes everything. I swear that nothing bad will happen to her, you have my word," Robin said with honesty. He then felt her leap onto him and hug him with all her willpower.
"Thank you Robin, you do not know how much this means to me!" she exclaimed with happiness; her green eyes glistening with so much positive emotions.
"Of course I do. Your friendship with Raven has grown since that talk you had with her."
"Yes…we share a connection, we have the same feelings and emotions towards people and problems. We have much in common and she has confided in me greatly and for that I will always value her friendship," she said and he felt her let go of him. He saw her eyes become sad almost as if they had their own expression.
"She's lucky to have you as a friend," he said with a smile and saw her smile back with a light blush.
"I am lucky to have her as a friend too, but I am also lucky to have you as a friend," she gave him a sweet smile.
"Best friend," he corrected with a small laugh.
"Best friends," they hugged once more and for a moment he felt like he was holding the hold world in his hands. Because Starfire was his world…
"Promise me you won't get into trouble," Robin whispered into her ear.
"…I promise…" she whispered back and then let go of him. Starfire at that moment did a daring thing; she gave him a kiss on the cheek then walked away leaving him to stand there in absolute shock. He reached up to his cheek and gently brushed the spot where she left her sweet kiss.
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