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Prepare for major fluffiness! And the T-rated thing kicks in once more!

Rated T for- Violence, language, difficult situations, and Romance scenes later on.

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Chapter 13. Save me

Raven couldn't take it anymore she wished she could just rip the door open and slap Terra right in the face. She hated this prison she was held in. She felt like she was going crazy. She forgot how it was to be outside, how it felt, how it was to feel freedom. All she could feel was pain.

Terra's words had hit her hard. It was like receiving a slap and it hurt especially if you got it from your worst enemy. She couldn't help but let tears spill when Terra had told her things she didn't want to hear.

Flashback-

"Not until I tell you this…Beastboy loves me and nothing you can do or say will change his mind. He told me he only feels pity for you, he doesn't care for you. It's pathetic how you rely on him when he doesn't even give a shit about you!"

"No, he does care for me, stop lying!"

"I'm not lying Raven, you're lying to yourself. He told me this morning that he loved me! Get it through your head; he loves me! Not you!"

Her violet eyes began to water once more she hated crying it was a sign of weakness and she hated being weak. But it hurt to know that Beastboy still loved Terra.

No, he doesn't feel pity for here right? No! He said she was his best friend! He said he loved her! Even if it was only in a friendship way, he still cared for her. She couldn't let Terra's fake words break her down.

Her pale fingers went up to her violet eyes and wiped the last tears she would ever cry at least she hoped they were.

It was still night and the hour of midnight coming close. She sat on her bed her head in her hands, her eyes closed, her breathing steady. She could still remember that horrid nightmare she had. The pain she felt was almost real. It felt like a stab to her body, she felt like she was losing something, she felt like something was being taken away from her.

All she could remember was laying in the backset of the T-car. Beastboy by her side with a worried look and Starfire by him crying tears from her emerald eyes. She could remember the pain in her lower abdomen like somehow had stabbed her there. She could remember hearing voices in the background almost unclear. Robin's voice screaming at Cyborg something she couldn't make out. Cyborg cursing loudly and Starfire sobbing like there was no end. And then she could remember her conversation with Beastboy.

She remembered the last words she was saying…

Nightmare-

"Beastboy…I love you…forever…" her last words were a delicate whisper. Her hand dropped from his cheek on her abdomen her eyes closed and her heart stopped. A cold silence filled the air…

"Raven?…Raven!" he screamed then held her body close to him and cried into her hair. "No… don't leave me…Raven…"

She could feel herself begin to let tears flow. Her shoulders now heaving up and down as she tried to control her sobs. She couldn't believe she had confessed her true love to him, only for it to end like that. Dead and empty.

"Why can't I ever live in peace? Why do I always have to suffer! What did I do to deserve this pain!" she shouted at herself. She was now looking at her reflection in the mirror as if she was having an argument with herself.

"It's all because of your stupid love for Beastboy!" she continued to yell at herself. Her face expression showed anger her eyes narrowed in hatred, tears falling off her chin and falling onto her hand.

She closed her eyes for a moment trying to keep her breathing steady and when she opened them again someone stood behind her in the mirror. Beastboy.

She whirled around to see him look concerned, worry and fear making up his expression. He just stood there silent then looked down his face changing to one of sadness. Raven couldn't say anything to him, she couldn't talk, she couldn't breath.

Here was the man that brought so much pain to her. Here was the man that made her suffer more than life itself. Yet he was the one her heart loved and desired. It was him that was making her die a slow and painful death.

"Raven…" he managed to say in a quiet voice his emerald green eyes now looking into her almost dead violet ones. She looked at him, her anger had left moments ago and was now replaced by a different emotion, sorrow.

"Please Beastboy, I don't want to talk to you…" she said and turned away form him so that he could only see her back. She wanted so much for him to leave and forget she ever existed. But then the other part of her wanted him to stay and show her love. But she knew that would never happen, not in this lifetime.

"Ra—"

"Leave."

"But I need to talk to you," he said now taking a step towards her. Raven could feel him coming closer and she couldn't will herself to more away.

"Beastboy, I need you to forget me, this is my decision. I can't go on like this," she whispered.

"What do you mean you can't go on like this?" he questioned and that was the moment that she turned around so quickly it made him step back and almost fall.

"This!" she shouted at him pointing to her tears that she despised. He looked at her with shock he had never seen her cry with such anger. "You did this to me!" she screamed at him taking a step forward to him and all he could do was stand still in shock. "You brought me so much pain! You made me suffer! You caused me my tears!" she cried.

He was speechless. All he could do was stare at her. Raven, the girl who was supposed to be strong was breaking down harder than ever before. That's when her words hit him. He caused her tears?

"I caused your tears?" he said before he could stop himself. Raven came closer to him pure fury on her beautiful features.

"Yes! It was you! Only you!" she shouted. She felt herself going crazy. But she felt she had to say it before she went officially crazy… before she died. She needed to pour out her true feelings to him whether he wanted to hear it or not. Whether he accepted it or not.

"Raven, I never hurt you!" he heard himself exclaim.

"Yes, you did, and more than you will ever know!" she continued to accuse. Her violet eyes looking deep into his confused green ones. "You broke me! You ripped me apart and you didn't even know it!"

"Raven, stop telling lies!" he shouted now taking a step closer to her. What was she taking about? He didn't break her? It was the complete opposite! He helped her, he embraced her, wiped her tears way. Did she forget all about of that?

"I'm not telling lies! I'm tired of lying to myself and to you!" she said. They were now a couple inches apart their faces dangerously close as they shouted in this heat of anger.

"Did you forget all those times I showed you care? Did you forget all those times I wiped your tears away!" he shouted at her. His hands were now gripping her shoulders almost shaking her. How could she say he made her suffer!

"No! And that's exactly what made me suffer!" she spat back. She couldn't believe they were arguing but this was meant to happen…somehow…

A cold silence drifted between them, only their heavy breathing was heard. Their body's only inches apart, their lips only inches apart. Her eyes bore into his and his stared deep into her own.

Suddenly without warning their lips collided against each other. A shock spread throughout both their bodies at this touch. Before she knew it their lips were moving together in a passionate kiss almost desperate for one another. Raven's arms had wrapped around his neck and his around her back bringing her close to his body.

She couldn't believe what was happening. Beastboy and her were kissing. And it wasn't some innocent kiss. It was a passionate one. Almost as if all they were holding inside had escaped in that kiss. But that's when she realized he didn't love her. He was probably only feeling passion and lust not love. This caused her eyes to let tears fall.

Raven then pushed him away and slapped him very hard. He looked at her with shock. Did she just slap him? God that hurt!

"Don't kiss me if you don't mean it!" she shouted. "Don't use me, I don't want to feel that again…" she trailed off. She wasn't going to let her dignity go. She knew he loved Terra and that kiss was only in the heat of the moment. He only looked at her as a best friend not someone he could truly love.

"No, Raven it wasn't like that. I'm not going to use you," he tried to say hoping she would accept it. Because it was true…

"Don't lie to me!" she shouted. "Don't you understand!" her voice cracking as she spoke due to her trying to keep in her cries. She paused and looked deep into his eyes almost as if daring him to speak. But he didn't.

Raven sat on her bed and turned away from him, not wanting to see him anymore. She closed her eyes and whispered. "I love you…" before she could stop herself, they had already come out. Now what was going to happen? He probably hated her right now.

Beastboy's eyes widened at her words. He had heard them no matter how softly she said them he had heard them. Raven love him? His best friend! … Yet he couldn't deny something inside him.

"Get out," he heard her say. But he didn't leave; no, instead he stepped closer.

Raven could feel his presence still in the room making her angry. She turned around "I said—" She trailed off his face was right in front of hers. She was still she couldn't move.

Beastboy placed a hand on her cheek and wiped the last tear to ever fall away. His emerald green eyes looking deep into her violet ones. "…I love you too…" his voice was low and soft.

Raven couldn't believe it. Did she hear right? Did he say, "I love you"? Did he mean it?

"You don't mean that…" she whispered her breath tickling his lips.

"I do," he whispered back, truthfully. She looked at him for a moment.

"Prove it…" she said. And he did that.

He caught her lips in a kiss making her heart jump. Deep inside she felt her heart was healing… was this kiss the kiss that saved her? Was it because they both meant what they said? It was because they both loved each other. True love. Not friendship anymore…

She felt him kiss her lips and she kissed back with love. Her arms encircled his neck and soon she felt her body being lowered onto the bed; her long violet hair pooled around her making her look more beautiful. He kissed her cheek trailing gentle kisses down her neck making her sigh. His lips found hers once more and they continued to show their affection. Her fingers laced in his hair as she kissed him, their lips moving together not so innocent anymore.

Soon their kisses turned passionate and they both knew what was going to happen. This thought sent shivers down Raven's spine. She loved him enough to let this continue. He loved her and it was all that mattered. Slowly her pain was going away making her feel bliss and free. Her emotions had finally got out. No longer were they under her skin. She knew his touch was what could save her.

Raven opened her violet eyes and stared into his emerald green eyes. She lovingly cupped his face with her hands and spoke softly. "Save me…" And he did.

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