Chapter Four---Move

Fujin sat along the wall, eyes closed, knees drawn up tightly around her chest. She tried to clear her mind least the shame and sadness well up in her again and choke her. A body sat down beside her and she turned to find Seifer's smiling face. If Squall told him where she was...

"...What's wrong?" Fujin didn't looked at him. If he knew...if he knew the kind of garbage he was talking too, he wouldn't be smiling.

"Please...just don't ask." Seifer drapped an arm around her, knowing full well she needed some sort of physical assurance right now. That he wasn't going to leave her. However, the silver-haired girl flinched as if he'd hit her.

"You know... my mother use to beat me. Every damn day. Her boyfriend too. I used to think...that it was normal. That that was how all families were. So, when I found out that it wasn't how all families were...I felt...so ashamed of myself. Like I shouldn't have let it happen and that I was some how inferior to everyone else because of it." Seifer laughed a little and Fujin dared to look at him.

"I was too afraid by then to do anything about it. It was just my rotten luck and it wouldn't change. But it did." Fujin felt relieved that Seifer had found a way out. That he was alright now because some one so beautiful shouldn't have to be ashamed.

"Vance..he..he started coming on to me...touching me...doing things that no one should have been doing. I never said anything while it happened. Just let him have his way. I was too proud to give him the satisfaction of hearing me beg for him to stop. I thought mom might have done something if I told her. And I was right." Fujin's stomach sank at the look on his face. So he hadn't found a way out.

"The next time he came into my room in the night, she was with him.She fucking helped him do those things to me. Got off on it like some sick fantasy." Fujin closed her eyes and lay her head on his shoulder. Why weren't things good for the people they should be good for?

"I've been everything from a whore to an anorexic to a cutter. Still trying to get off the cutting. I've been from foster family to foster family and I finally found a place where I'm...loved. I think. And I'm getting better everyday. When I look at you..." He paused and held her closer a moment.

"I look at you and I see that same dead, ashamed look in your eyes that I had and it breaks my heart in two. It's not fair. But...I wanted to be there for you because I know what its like to have no one. Kinda like a knight in shining armor." Fujin nodded and laughed a bit.

"...Thank you...I...I'm trying. It's not so easy...I just...not even Squall knows everything...and I'm afraid that if he knew...he'd leave me too." Seifer laughed.

"Squall would never leave you. And Quistis and I aren't going anywhere for a long time." Fujin smiled for the first time in a long time. Relief flooded through her and she felt...safe.

She should have known better. Nothing good lasts for long.


A.n: Woot!

Sorceress Fujin:Another chapter your Royal Muse-ness! -is delighted with her lollipop-

Verdanii:Thankies much! Hope to hear from you soon for the next few chapters! Yeah...the pov signals were identical I think but for now I haven't bothered with then anyways. hehe.

Becca:Yes the deepness! -glomps Edgar- He's soo cute! -laughs-

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