AN: Ok so I just went through my story on the website to make sure everything posted ok and I realized that I've never left you guys any AN's before. So I figured I'd leave one now. I pre-wrote this story and I just figured that I'd write in the AN's later, but I forgot. So what do you guys think of the story so far? Thanks sooooo much for all the AWSOME reviews! You guys are GREAT! I hope you like it so far! This chapter is going to be a little sad and confusing but it'll get MUCH better I promise! Oh and how things got graphic a few chapters back in Sean's bedroom…I hope none of you minded. But it'll get much more graphic later on. It's rated M after all. So I'll warn you ahead of time before the chapter so that you know if you want to read it or not. Well here it is.

I Can't, I Can't Give You a Reason…

Emma sighed as she tried on her third outfit that morning. Sean was supposed to be there around 1:00 as usual. She got ready and made sure she looked great. But she still hadn't chosen what she was going to wear and he was going to be there soon. She was so nervous about what his answer was going to be. Some where in Emma's heart she knew that Sean loved her…but she couldn't help the feeling of dread that was starting to swallow her. She had a feeling that something was going to go terribly wrong.

You've got to stop thinking this way! Nothing is going to go wrong! Sean will choose you and you'll be happy again. Soon your life will go back on track. You lost yourself so much this past year. But your life has to go back on track sometime.

She kept telling herself. She knew that her life couldn't remain to suck for so long. Or could it? Could Sean really break her heart so badly twice in one year?

-0-X-0-

How could you do this to her again Cameron? How could you tell her you loved her and then break her heart again the very next day? You love Emma. But Ellie…she needs someone stable…and you're far from stable but you're all the stable she has right now.

Sean thought as he looked at Ellie sleeping in his bed. He'd let her stay at his apartment the night before. He slept on the couch and let her have his bed. Sean didn't sleep at all though. All he could think about was Emma…and how she was going to handle this. Considering how she handled their last breakup…he was assuming she wouldn't handle it well.

-0-X-0-

Emma was sitting on her porch playing music like she usually did during the summer. She'd told Manny not to come over today. Although, Manny didn't know why. Emma was pretending to read a copy of her Seventeen Magazine but she kept looking at the street to see if Sean was there yet. She was just waiting for Jay's car radio to come blaring towards her house. Sean was twenty minutes late. But to Emma it seemed like he'd never get there. She'd been staring at her watch since she woke up. And it seemed like every time she looked at it, the time got slower.

"Where is he?" She said out loud to herself.

Like on cue Emma saw a black convertible with red stripes down the front driving towards her house.

"Who is that?" She said to herself.

She saw Marco in the front seat arguing with Paige's brother, Dylan, as the car stopped in front of her house.

That's strange. What is Marco doing here?

And then she saw them. She saw Sean and Ellie sitting in the back seat. And Ellie's head was rested on Sean's shoulder. Emma was in shock. She didn't know what to do. She knew she should probably leave…but she couldn't move. All she could feel was her heart beating rapidly in her chest. Sean hopped out of the car and turned to kiss Ellie on the cheek before he walked towards her porch. She watched as the car drove away. Her heart sank.

Guess he made his decision. He chose Ellie. He doesn't want me. He doesn't love me. How could I let him do this to me again?

She thought as Sean walked onto her porch and stood in front of her. He was looking at the ground…afraid of what he'd see if he looked in her eyes. Emma felt numb. Her already half broken heart was now almost completely broken. All she needed was to hear him say it…she needed to hear him say he loved Ellie. A silent tear rolled down her cheek, but Sean noticed it.

"Oh, Em I'm so sorry. Oh God I'm sorry." Sean whispered his voice cracking.

"How…how could you Sean?" Emma whispered now finding her voice.

"I'm sorry Em. That's all I know how to say…is that I'm sorry." He said so much just wanting to hold her and tell her everything was going to be ok.

"Do you love her? Do you love her the way you love me?" She said standing up. Her legs felt like jello. But she needed to be face to face with him to hear it. She needed to look him in the eyes.

Sean looked up…for the first time her looked her straight in the eyes.

"I could never love anyone the way I love you Em." He said trying not to break down.

Emma stifled a sob.

"But if you…why? Why would you still be with her if you love me so much?"

Sean opened his mouth to explain but he froze. He didn't know how to explain this to her.

"Fine don't answer me. Be a coward then." She said her anger rising.

"I'm not a coward Emma." He said pathetically attempting to save his pride.

"You're running away from the only love you've ever felt! The only real love! I know you love me more than Ellie. So if you're staying with her you're just running away from me…from us. And that makes you a coward Sean! You're a fucking coward!" She yelled at him tears now streaming down her face.

"Em…" He said as he reached out for her.

"Don't you Em me!" She yelled as she slapped his hand away. She walked past him towards the door.

"Emma…she…Ellie cuts. She's a cutter Em." He said feeling bad that he let Ellie's secret slip.

Emma stopped dead in her tracks. She slowly turned around.

"What? Ellie's a cutter?"

"Yeah…she's…she was getting help with Sauvé. But then her mom…her mom's an alcoholic. And her dad's in the military. He hasn't been home all year. Last night she and her mom got in this huge fight and Ellie was pretty upset. She came to my door at three in the morning and had an emotional break down. She told me she didn't know what she'd do to herself if anything else in her life went wrong. So I knew I couldn't do it. I knew I couldn't break up with her. She…she needs me Em." He said reaching out for her hand. Emma let him take it this time.

"So you…you were going to break up with her…for me?" Emma asked still unsure.

Sean smiled.

"Yeah, I was. It's always been you Em. Always."

Emma smiled. She flung herself into his arms and wrapped her legs around his waist. He hugged her tight not wanting to let her go but knowing he eventually had to…for Ellie's sake.

"What are we going to do Sean?" She whispered in his ear.

Sean put her down lightly. He put his hands on her cheeks and looked into those beautiful hazel eyes he loved to drown in.

"I don't know Em. I just don't know. I love you so much but I can't leave Ellie. She needs me. I'd never be able to forgive myself if she did something to herself and I knew it was my fault." He said rubbing her cheek softly with his thumb.

"I guess you're right. But I can't think about anything but you. Sean I need you." She said a silent tear falling down her cheek.

So what do you think? AN: I know that in Take On Me Ellie told Sean that everyone knew about her cutting and everything. But let's just pretend that in my story only Ashley, Paige, Marco, and Sean know about it.