AN: Ok guys bad news. I'm going away on vacation for a week. So I won't be able to post after this until Friday or Saturday. But this is a pretty long post and it has an amazing part in it so hopefully it will last you until then! And I posted twice tonight…Yay me! Haha. Oh and I also have to give you guys a warning that things get graphic in this chapter. There's a sex scene in it. Which by the way I have to give Xenasargo2 aka Ruby for help with the 'Rain Scene' as we liked to call it. Haha. So if you don't want to read it then just skip over it. Sorry…but I gave you a warning so please no bad comments. Well sorry I can't post but as soon as I get home I will! You guys are awesome! Well I'll stop babbling and let you read now.

Blame It On the Rain…

Sean sighed as he wiped sweat off of his forehead. The humidity outside was horrible. It was supposed to rain sometime today but so far it hadn't come. And Emma wasn't outside giving him water either. She was sitting on her porch with her angry chick music turned up loud pretending to read a magazine. She was still pissed at him obviously. He didn't want to be fighting with her but what was he supposed to do? He couldn't just abandon Ellie when he'd already promised her some sort of stability that she really needed right now. But when Emma had wanted to start a relationship behind Ellie's back Sean just couldn't. He never was the type to cheat…even if his relationship with Ellie wasn't 'real' for him. His dad always used to screw around on his mom and he'd sit on the couch and be forced to listen to them fight about it in their drunken ramblings. He'd watch his dad make a lousy attempt at coming up with an excuse as to why he smelled like cheap perfume and had lipstick on his shirt collar and his neck. And his mom would just keep pushing and pushing. She'd call his dad the most awful, horrible names that he most definitely deserved but Sean was just a child. Every child hates to hear their parents fight. But Sean had to sit through more than just fights…he had to watch his dad hit his mom…over and over again and he knew there was nothing he could do about it. Sean always hated himself for not knowing what to do…for not being able to fix their family. But somewhere in his heart he knew there was nothing he could do. So cheating on Ellie was just not an option for him. He knew he'd kind of sort of done it before…but that didn't really count.

Emma was the one he truly wanted to be with and she knew that. But she didn't understand why Sean couldn't just stay with her…no one had to know. Then when Ellie was doing well enough…Sean could leave her. Somewhere in Emma's heart, though, she knew that wasn't right. She knew that Ellie didn't deserve that…but she also knew that she didn't deserve to just get her heart broken all over again either. She'd felt so bad when she'd gotten back with Chris just to spite Sean. She didn't feel bad about using Chris…because to be frank…the boy deserved to be treated like a piece of trash. But Emma's heart sank when she saw the look on Sean's face. It was a mix of anger and hurt. It was the same look she'd had when Sean broke her heart at the beginning of the year. When Chris came crawling back to her begging for her forgiveness…her first intention was to slam the door in his face. But then she saw Sean pretending to be happy standing outside saying goodbye to Ellie. And her jealousy took over. So she'd made up with Chris just to make Sean jealous. And obviously it had worked. They hadn't talked since that day…a week ago. Since then Emma had gotten back with Chris and Sean's anger started to rise. It took all of his restraint just to keep himself from slamming Chris' face into the concrete. But he knew Emma wasn't dating him again because she liked him. He knew she was just pissed and was trying to get back at him. Sean didn't understand why Emma couldn't just wait for him. He knew that wasn't fair but Emma knew the situation. She could have been a little bit more understanding.

Whatever! Let her be pissed at me!

Whatever! Let him be pissed at me!

-0-X-0-

Sean bent down to retrieve a new tool. He could feel Emma burning holes in his back with her eyes. And he was getting sick of it. Sure, she had her reason to be pissed but Sean had his reasons too.

"I can feel them you know…the holes you're burning in my back with your eyes. And I don't think you have any right to be so unbelievably pissed at me!" Sean snapped turning to face her.

Emma turned off her angry girl rock and walked towards him.

"Pardon me? I have no right to be pissed at YOU? You must be joking! Because if I recall Sean, you not only broke my heart once this year…but now twice! I can't believe I let you in again only so you could break my heart!" Emma yelled back at him.

"Jesus Emma don't you think you've overused this whole you broke my heart line WAY too many times?" Sean said instantly regretting his spiteful words.

Emma stifled back a sob.

"Well maybe if you'd STOP then I wouldn't have to keep saying it!"

"Fine! I'm sorry, ok? I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm SORRY! How many times do I have to say it?"

Emma's face softened.

"Until you finally learn your lesson and don't have to ever say it again!" She said a tear falling down her cheek. She sucked it in, not wanting to break down in front of Sean. She'd been doing that so much lately.

Sean's angry expression suddenly changed.

"Em…I'm…I didn't mean it like that." He said taking a step towards her and reaching his hand out for her.

She flinched at his touch and stepped away.

"No don't! Don't touch me!"

Sean sighed.

"Emma look I'm sorry ok…about Ellie…I just can't start something behind her back…I just…can't."

"I know…but what about me Sean? This whole year it's been about everyone else! It's been about Snake being sick…and then Mom being depressed…and then about Jack needing a mother…and then about you not feeling loved enough…and for once I just want it about me! I want it to be about you and me!" She shouted at him.

Sean was about to reply but he heard a crack of thunder in the air.

"I know…I want it to be about you and me too. But there's just always been so much guilt in my life Emma…and I just…I can't deal with anymore."

"Well I'm sorry that you can't deal with that Sean! You never could deal with ANYTHING could you?" She said instantly regretting those hurtful words.

Sean looked at the ground obviously hurt.

"Oh yeah like you deal with things so well! First you ignore your boyfriend because your step-dad has cancer. And then you get back together with that scum of the earth DJ just to piss me off! You think I can't see right through that?" He said looking at her with anger in his eyes.

Emma was about to yell something at him about Ellie but another crack of thunder interrupted her. Then on cue rain starting falling down. It was pouring but neither Emma nor Sean moved. They stood there staring at each other…they were looking in each others eyes. What they found said it all.

"You're right…I only did it to piss you off…but it's only because it wasn't over for me Sean!" She yelled over the rain.

Sean started walking towards her.

"It wasn't over…it's still not over!" He said grabbing her lightly and kissing her.

Their kiss seemed to last forever. Now Emma truly knew that Sean wanted no one but her. She had her doubts before but now she knew he was hers forever. And Sean knew she forgave him and understood his decision.

The sky grew darker, but neither seemed to notice. They were too wrapped up in the feel of each other…the scent of each other…the taste of each other…even the occasional zips of lightning and booming claps of thunder did nothing to distract them from their desire.

Sean's lips trailed fiery kisses down her neck, and the ice cold raindrops followed instantly behind, causing Emma to shiver.

"Are you cold?" he whispered in her ear, his voice laced with concern.

Emma shook her head as her lips sought and found his again, kissing him harder. He moaned softly as the tip of Emma's tongue parted his lips and found his. He deepened the kiss and pulled her tightly against him.

Emma gasped at the waves of tingles running through her body. Her fingertips danced up his chest, feeling every ripple. "I've missed you," she whispered softly. Her hands made their way back to his stomach and she felt him tremble.

Emma suddenly felt bold. She smiled against his lips, deciding to push the game a little further as she grabbed the hem of his shirt and began working it up over his body.

His eyes widened as he caught her hands.

"Em?" he asked in confusion.

Emma smiled seductively. "Sean. It's storming…the streets are empty. Who's gonna' see?"

Sean chuckled in surprise. Emma Nelson adventurous? What was going on here?

"You're teasing me right? This is all just a game."

"Who's playing?" she asked as she pushed the shirt over his head and began nipping softly at the skin on his chest. "Mmmm…" she murmured. "You smell nice, by the way." Her hands made their way to the button on his jeans, and Sean caught them and gasped.

"Em! What if someone comes by? Or what if your folks come home?"

Emma sighed and nodded. "You're right."

He didn't know whether to be mad at himself for stopping her…which he knew he needed to do anyway…or if he should be disappointed at the sudden change from 'bad girl' to 'young lady' again. He didn't have time to think too much on it, though. Emma surprised him by jumping into his arms, wrapping her legs tightly around his waist and grinding her lower body against his.

"Guess we'll have to continue this inside…though making love in the rain was…ummm…kind of a fantasy of mine."

"It was?" he asked in surprise.

She smiled shyly and nodded and Sean's composure broke. "Well…every girl deserves to live out their fantasy," he whispered as his lips found hers again. He began walking and Emma giggled.

"Where are we going?" she asked in surprise when he stepped around the front porch.

"You want to make love outside in the rain, right?" She nodded shyly. "Well, then we're gonna' make love outside."

He carried her around the house and into the back yard, grateful for the wooden privacy fence that surrounded them as he lowered her to the wet grass.

Emma let out a small yelp as the damp grass touched her bare arms.

"Did I hurt you?" Sean asked, shifting himself off of her quickly, but Emma shook her head and pulled him over her again.

"Just…the wet grass sort of…you know…caught me off guard," she giggled breathlessly as his lips caught hers again.

Emma ran her fingers lightly down his chest and Sean sucked the air in through his teeth, wanting more, forgetting everyone and everything in the world. The only two people that mattered in that moment were him and Emma. He caught her neck gently in the palm of his hand and pulled her lips tighter against his as she continued the tortuous tantalizations with her fingertips.

Soon, he couldn't take anymore, and began slowly removing her shirt, letting his lips trail after his fingers as Emma whimpered and writhed longingly underneath him. She pushed at him until they both rolled, so that she was now on top of him.

Her fingers worked feverishly at his belt as his lips caught her breast. "Sean!" she whispered, fighting more frantically to free the buttons of his jeans.

He ran his hands softly along her back, making her tremble. He nipped at her breast teasingly just as she began pushing his jeans down over his hips.

His eyes widened in surprise and longing as Emma stood quickly and slowly began removing the tiny scrap of material that she seemed to consider to be shorts, her panties shedding away with them. Suddenly, she was on her knees beside him, kissing his neck…teasing him with her magical fingertips again, running them along his body…down his hip and up his thigh.

Sean wasn't sure how he managed, but somehow his thoughts ran along a different, more important path.

"Em, wait!" he whispered, his voice raspy, as if he were in pain. "My pants…I…"

Emma stopped and frowned sadly. Had this all been a mistake? Was he thinking of Ellie…ready to rip Emma's heart out and stomp on it again?

Sean seemed to sense her sadness and caught her hand, kissing it gently.

"Em…in my pants…my wallet. I…I want to protect you."

He smiled at the relief that swept through her eyes. A blush crept up her cheeks. Little Miss Responsible had gotten so caught up in the moment that she'd forgotten! "Oh!" she mumbled, trying to hide her embarrassment as she pulled his wallet free from his discarded jeans.

When Sean was ready, he pulled her to him again and rolled them so that she was beneath him. He ran his thumb over her cheek softly and smiled at her. Emma smiled back and Sean watched her, felt her love for him radiating from her eyes, as he slid himself slowly inside of her.

Emma sighed and pulled his lips to hers, kissing him deeply as her legs wrapped around him, rocking in steady motion with him.

Once again, the outside world meant nothing. They were lost…wrapped up in each other again…their whimpers and moans filling the air as their pace quickened. They soon cried out each other's names, both at the height of ecstasy.

When it was over, Sean dropped a soft kiss on Emma's forehead. "I love you, Em. I never stopped. You know that, right?"

Emma snuggled against his chest, finally feeling the effects of the cold rain battering her body. "I've always loved you too," she mumbled into his chest.

Sean chuckled and sat up, gathering their clothes. "You're freezing! Come on," he said as he helped her up. He pulled her against him as they dashed into the house and down the stairs into her room.

Emma hurried to the bathroom and brought out fresh towels. After drying off, she tossed their clothes into the dryer and they snuggled under the covers of her bed.

-X-

"Sean?"

"Hmm?" He asked as he ran his hands slowly up her bare back.

"What are we going to do?"

Sean sighed sadly.

"I don't know Em."

Emma kissed his chest sadly.

"I don't know either."

"I do know one thing for sure."

"What's that?" She asked.

"I know that I love you and that I can't live without you." He whispered.

Emma smiled silently thanking God that Sean felt the same way she did.

"I love you too…and I don't want to live without you either." She whispered back looking up at him.

He sadly smiled at her.

"Jesus Em, what in the hell are we supposed to do? I mean Ellie's on the edge of a very high emotional cliff and I promised her I'd be there for her. But you…I love you…and I've never loved Ellie. And I know that I won't be able to even make it a day without being with you."

Emma leaned up and kissed him softly.

"Well then you can be with me. I know you don't want to cheat on Ellie…but you don't really have a choice. And since you and Ellie aren't even in a 'real' relationship anyways it won't really be cheating." She said laying her head back on his chest.

"Yeah, I guess you're right. But Em, I promise as soon as Ellie's better then I'm going to break up with her. I want you to know that I'm not trying to have my cake and eat it too. I've already chosen you…we're just going to have a little trouble along the way." He said rubbing his thumb gently along her cheek.

Emma kissed his hand and smiled slightly.

"I know Sean. It'll be hard, but we'll get through it. Ellie will probably get better soon. But until then, we'll just keep this a secret. (She giggled) It'll be like our own little secret affair."

Sean laughed lightly.

"Yeah I guess so. We'll still get to see each other when I come to fix your dad's car. And plus I have my own apartment so you can come there."

Emma smiled.

"Yeah, it could be kind of fun I guess. Knowing that it's a secret…the adrenaline of getting caught." She whispered running her hand down Sean's chest.

Sean got chills.

"Damn Nelson, first sex in the rain and now this…you're such a horn dog." He said laughing.

Emma giggled.

"You know you love every minute of it!"

"True." He said before leaning down and kissing her.

Sean moaned when Emma ran her tongue lightly along Sean's bottom lip. She tried to deepen the kiss further but Sean pulled back.

"What's wrong?" She whispered slightly out of breath.

"Nothing…I just think we should go over the ground rules and get our story straight before things get any further. That way if anything were to happen we would know how to handle it." He said silently reminding his hormones that he had her forever and that they had plenty of time.

"Ok, fine." She said slightly pouting.

Sean smiled at her before turning to face her.

"Ok, rule number one: We can't tell anyone. Not now, not ever. Even when we're officially together I don't want anyone, especially Ellie, to know what we did."

Emma nodded.

"Ok, deal."

"Rule number two, we can only call each other's cell phones. And our names must be made up, so if anyone else sees it they don't know."

"Ok, I guess that makes sense. Rule number three, we can only get together at your apartment after midnight just to be safe." Emma said.

"Ok…and we can only get together here when no one is home and we know for sure no one is coming over." Sean said nodding in agreement.

"Ok…um I guess I'll continue to date Chris for a cover." She said putting air quotes around the word date.

Sean sighed.

"Fine…I guess that makes sense too. But just don't let him…touch you." He said emphasizing disgust in the word touch.

Emma giggled.

"Ok…only hugs goodbye so he doesn't get suspicious. But you can only HUG Ellie…well and kisses on the cheek so it doesn't look suspicious also."

"Alright, fine that makes sense. But I swear to God if I see him touch you in any way not part of the plan I'm pounding his face into the ground."

Emma laughed.

"But that would blow our cover!" She said sarcastically.

"I'll blow your cover!" He said joking with her as he started a tickle war.

Emma giggled and tried to stop him.

But Sean rolled on top of her and pinned her hands above her head.

"Ok, ok I surrender." She said giggling.

"Ah, yes now you shall forever be my love slave." Sean said sarcastically.

"Yeah more like your sex slave." She said laughing.

Sean laughed and leaned down to kiss her. She moaned slightly as his tongue traced her bottom lip, just like she did to him a before. But when Sean deepened the kiss she didn't stop him. After a few minutes he pulled back and kissed her nose lightly before moving to her jaw line. Emma tangled her hands in his hair.

"Mmm…Sean." She moaned.

Sean traced kisses back to her mouth. He placed a soft kiss on her lips before looking in her eyes.

"Aw, come on…would being my sex slave really be that bad?" He whispered.

Emma giggled lightly.

"Only if I get a sample first." She whispered back.

"Ok just let me get my…oh fuck!" He said sitting up.

"What's wrong?" She asked sitting up with him.

"I don't have another condom."

"Oh." Emma said disappointed.

Sean sighed in frustration and laid back on 'his side' of the bed.

Emma did the same.

The buzz of the dryer signaling its end broke their silence.

Emma wrapped a blanket around her and walked over to the dryer. She grabbed their clothes out of it and put them on top of the washer. She slid on her panties and Sean's hoodie before throwing him his boxers and his wife beater. Sean put them on and walked over to her.

"Where are we going?" He asked.

"Well…I thought we could order some double cheese pizza. I don't know about you…but I'm starving!"

Sean chuckled.

"You read my mind."

-X-