It's been a few weeks since Maura agreed to go to the therapy group. Although she has been to a couple of these she hasn't really spoken much apart from to say her name. However, today is going to be much different. Someone else is going to force her hand. Even if she doesn't want to.

Today's organiser of the group is a thin grey haired woman. Walking into the circle of chairs she clears her throat before speaking. 'Ladies, once again, thank you for coming to tonight's session' She says whilst looking around to some familiar and some new faces sat in the circle. 'As always this is a safe and confidential space, whatever you say or discuss will not be judged or shared' pausing she starts to look for a volunteer 'Who would like to go first?'.

Maura really doesn't understand why she even bothers coming to these sessions, she's been to a couple of them and each time she doesn't even speak. She just listens to the other women's stories. And as per usual the organiser has learnt to come to Maura last.

'Maura, would you like to say anything' she asks hoping this time the small blonde woman in front of her will engage with them. Watching the well kept woman shake her head, no surprise that she declines as per usual. But before she can move on with her closing line, a small brunette in the group gets up and walks over to the blonde.

'What's a matter? We too common for you to talk to us?' the brunette says in a accusing tone.

Not wanting to engage in this petty conversation, it's frankly beneath her. Getting up Maura makes an attempt to leave the circle.

'Hey, I'm talking to you? The brunette says grabbing hold of Maura's arm and turning her around to face her.

Feeling her anger rising, 'How dare you' Maura says pushing the other woman's hand off of her arm. Thinking to herself 'What is this woman's problem'.

'Are we some sort of charity mission for you? The brunette says stepping forward into Maura's personal space. 'Coz lets face it, you're not one of us, so why you slumming it' saying it with a snarl.

The organiser is watching the scene play out in front of her. She's in two minds of stepping in and stopping it but she's also curious as to what will happen. For now she is going to let it play out. Hoping it doesn't end in any violence of any sort. Maybe, just maybe, this is what Maura needs.

Feeling her blood starting to boil, 'What gives you the right to talk to me like that?' Maura says. 'You do not know anything about me'. Trying to keep her composure but can feel that she is close to the edge of losing it.

'Yeah you're right' the brunette says jabbing her accusing finger into Maura's chest. It's not like she has anything personal against this woman. She's just sick and tired of her sitting there and just watching and listening to their personal and sometimes tragic stories. 'Then why the fuck! Are you here then?'.

Pushing the brunette away from her, losing all control Maura screams, 'BECAUSE I NEARLY KILLED MY OWN DAUGHTER! A feeling of shock courses through her body by her own admission of guilt. 'And now I can't stand to be anywhere near her' she says almost as a whisper. Staring at the small woman in front of her Maura is getting ready for another round of abuse. Instead she feels the woman's arms envelope her in a warm embrace. Feeling confused and overwhelmed Maura breaks, and starts to sob in the arms of this complete stranger. All the time wondering what the fuck has just happened!.


She doesn't know what possessed her to agree to go and grab a drink with the brunette that had berated her in therapy. But she had agreed to have one, she later learnt her name is Brigitte.

'Here you go Maura, the wine for the lady' Brigitte says giving her a cheeky wink whilst placing her drink down on the table 'and a beer for me' she says whilst sliding into the booth opposite the blonde.

There's something about this woman that Maura just couldn't put her finger on, but she needs to make herself clear. 'Brigitte you do know I'm married, and I would never cheat on my wife'. She says whilst holding her hand up to show her wedding band.

Choking on her beer, Brigitte starts to laugh. Seeing the look of confusion on the blondes face. 'Maura, it's ok, this is just a friendly drink, and besides I'm not gay' laughing again before taking another sip of her beer.

'Oh, ok, I'm sorry, I'm not very good with social situations and interactions' Maura says with a hint of sadness in her voice. Almost not wanting to make eyes instead she just looks into her glass of wine instead.

Seeing the look of sadness on the blondes face 'Hey Maura it's ok, don't apologize' Brigitte says. For a few minutes both woman sit in silence. 'And I'm sorry for earlier….I'm sorry for pushing you to open up' she says with true sincerity in her voice.

'Thank you, but I think I needed that push' Maura says before taking another sip of her wine.

'Still, it was a shitty thing to do' Brigitte says giving the blonde a warm smile.

Just then Maura's phone starts to ring, pulling it out of her handbag, glancing down she sees its Jane calling. 'Excuse me one second, I need to get this' she says to the brunette sat opposite her.

'Hey sweetheart, how's your day going?' she asks. Hoping that Jane doesn't pick up on the fact that today has been really hard on her if she was being truthful.

'That's why I'm calling baby, It's this case, I'm gonna be home late again' Jane says with a hint of guilt in her voice.

Maura knows this means that Jane will either be home in the early hours or not at all. 'Is there anything I can help with?' she asks her.

'No baby' Jane says. She can hear music in the background 'Where are you?' she asks with a hint of confusion in her raspy voice. I wonder where she is, I thought she would be at home she thinks to herself.

'I'm in a bar having a drink with a lady called Brigitte from tonight's group' Maura says.

Jane can't hide her excitement 'That's great Maura, how was it today?' she asks, knowing that it's hard for her wife to engage in social situations.

'A little tough, but I think everything is going to be ok' Maura says whilst giving Brigitte a small smile.

'That's great babe, if I can get home earlier I'll try my best, love you' Jane says.

'I love you too' Maura says before hanging up and placing the phone back in her handbag. 'I'm sorry about that Brigitte'.

'Hey no worries Maura' Brigitte says 'So, have you told your wife what you told me earlier?'

Taking a deep breath in Maura answers her new friend 'No, I haven't…. I haven't really been a good wife lately either' she says with sadness hinged in her voice.

'Hey, at least she's still around, my bastard of a husband bolted as soon as it got tough' taking a sip of her beer she continues 'he didn't like the fact that I wasn't in the mood for sex so he decided to stick his dick in someone else'.

The way this woman talks reminds her a lot of how Jane was when they first met. 'That is awful Brigitte, I'm so sorry' Maura says. 'Jane has been nothing but supportive of me, I've just been pushing her away and keeping her at arm's length'.

'I know who you both are, and I know the awful shit you've both already been through' Brigitte says to the smaller woman. Hell, everyone knows who the Isles-Rizzoli's are in Boston she thinks to herself. 'You've both managed to survive that, and you're lucky you're little girl is still alive'.

Suddenly filling with guilt letting those last words sink in. 'Oh Brigitte, I'm so..so.. Sorry' Maura says reaching over the table and grabbing the other woman's hand, giving it a gentle squeeze.

'It's ok Maura, I'm coping' Brigitte says taking a swig of her beer and holding up the bottle for the barman to bring another one.


It feels like forever since I have slept Jane thinks to herself as she drives her car into their driveway. Knowing it must be really late as the neighbourhood is dark and still. Hating the fact that it was another late one. Happy though that she will be crawling into bed and snuggling up with her gorgeous wife.

Creeping around the house so as not to wake Maura up, Jane goes through her usual routine. Her keys go into the bowl on top of the dresser by the front door. Her badge and gun goes in the first drawer on the top left. She then places her boots on the floor just underneath the coat rack.

Making her way upstairs she decides to freshen up and have a quick shower before heading into bed. Hoping to not wake her wife up, she doesn't hear that someone has come into the bathroom. Whilst washing away that days tension she feels contact on her lower back, making her spin round 180 degrees. Soft small hands push her back against the cold shower tiles. Before she is able to make any sense of what is happening she feels soft lips between her legs. Looking down she sees the blonde hair of the love of her life. Placing her hand on her hair she gently pulls it, letting Maura know she is enjoying this unexpected but delightful action.

Feeling tongue and fingers stroking her sex, makes Jane moan out in pleasure. 'Oh God' she screams. 'Maura..baby'. The stroking is now replaced by one finger, then two fingers, Maura is pumping them so hard and fast that Jane feels like she is going to die. 'Oh..god...I'm cumming….'. And with that Jane rides the wave of emotion and euphoria. Catching her breath, the smaller woman picks herself up from between her wifes legs and plants a deep passionate kiss on Janes lips.

'I love you Jane Rizzoli-Isles' Maura says with a slight slur.

Jane couldn't love this woman anymore than she does 'I love you too Maura Isles-Rizzoli' she says placing a soft kiss on her wifes lips. Giving the smaller woman a smile she asks 'I take it you had more than one drink earlier?' giving out a raspy laugh.

'Maybe' Maura says with a cheeky wink.

Grabbing her wife's hand Jane leads the naked blonde over to there bed. Picking up a towel she wraps it around the smaller woman in front of her and they both fall on to the bed together. Peppering the smaller woman with kisses 'Would you like me to….fuck you!' Jane whispers into her wifes ear.

Feeling the heat starting to rise between her own legs, Maura suddenly thinks back to that night she nearly lost there daughter. She doesn't say anything but just looks into those beautiful eyes of Janes.

It's only been a couple of months since that night, she won't pressure her wife if she doesn't want it or doesn't feel ready for it, but Jane is going to let her know how beautiful she is. Rolling Maura onto her back, slowly unwrapping the towel from around them and letting it fall onto the bed. As always the naked sight of Maura is a thing of beauty. Maura is trying to hide her stomach with her hands. Grabbing them, Jane places them above the blondes head. Slowly making her way down her wife's body, stopping once reaching her stomach. The C-section scar still looks red and raw. Jane gently blows on it, before placing soft kisses along it. Making sure she doesn't miss any of it. Gradually making her way back up Mauras face. Feeling the smaller woman trembling beneath each touch.

Looking at her wifes face she sees silent tears escaping those beautiful eyes. Placing a soft kiss on on her forehead. 'You're amazing and beautiful' Jane says. 'And don't ever forget that' pulling the smaller woman into her arms managing to get the duvet over them. Laying in each other's arms they both fall into a peaceful and tranquil sleep.


Jane hadn't bothered setting her alarm from the night before as today is her day off. But as always she still wakes up early, her body clock is just so use it after years and years of doing the same job.

Opening her eyes she is greeted by a wonderful sight, a peaceful Maura, snoring away next to her. Laughing to herself she slowly makes her way out of bed and downstairs to the kitchen. Preparing some fresh coffee she finds some pastries in the cupboard and decides to chuck them in the over for a few minutes to warm them up.

Placing the coffee and pastries on a tray, she also pours a glass of water and puts a couple of tramadol on the side. Picking the tray up she heads back upstairs and wakes her sleeping wife.

'Hey, sleepyhead' Jane says placing the tray on top of one of the dressers in the bedroom. 'Wasn't sure what you could stomach' she says with a laugh. Bending down and placing a kiss on the blondes forehead 'morning' she says handing the glass of water to the blonde.

Sitting herself up in bed, Maura gratefully downs half of the liquid. 'I do have a slight headache' she says popping one of the pills into her mouth and swallowing.

Taking a seat next to her on the bed, holding her cup of coffee Jane takes a deep breath in before continuing. 'I'm going to see and hold our daughter today' taking a sip of her coffee hoping it doesn't upset her wife. 'And I was wondering if you want to come along….but only if you want….I don't want you to feel like im pressuring you'.

Maura loves it when Jane gets nervous as she starts to babble. Placing her finger on the brunettes lips to quieten her. 'Yes, I would like that very much' she says following it with a smile.

Trying to contain her excitement, Jane doesn't want to scare Maura. As this is the first time she has shown any interest in wanting to see there baby girl. 'That's great baby, well visiting time isn't until this afternoon, so if you want to go back to sleep or just chill and I will wake you when it's time' Jane says leaning over and placing another kiss on the blondes forehead.

Leaving Maura in bed Jane heads downstairs and goes to the gym room. Eagerly watching the clock countdown to visiting hours.


The time has come to visit there baby girl in hospital. With each passing day she is getting stronger and stronger. Another few weeks and she will be over 9 months old. The doctors said once she reached that milestone they would be happy with her coming home.

The ride had been a nervous one, as per usual Jane babbling on about anything and everything. Maura had to admit it was a welcome distraction for her. As her nerves and anxiety were going through the roof. She was terrified that just by touching and holding her she was going to hurt her. Rationally she kept telling herself that it's all in her head. But subconsciously her body was physically reacting to it.

In a bit of a blur and haze Maura found herself stood outside the baby ward. Jane was already reaching down and picking up the tiny little bundle in the cot. She wanted to move but her feet felt like they were glued to the spot.

Looking up Jane could see Maura was having some difficulty, she looked like she was in that fight or flight mode. Sensing this and quietly walking over to her clearly frightened wife. 'Do you want to hold her?' she asks in a soothing raspy tone.

'What if I hurt her again?' Maura says in a panicky voice.

That's it, the penny drops. Jane now understands why Maura has been so distant from her baby. It breaks her heart hearing the guilt in her wife's voice and seeing the hurt in the blondes eye. 'Oh baby, you never did, and you never could' she says with watery eyes.

Apprehensively opening her arms out to take the little baby from the brunette. Maura nervously automatically stiffens her body. Hoping and praying she doesn't hurt her daughter.

'Relax baby' Jane says slowly guiding her wife to sit in the chair behind her. 'Just relax, everything is good' she says with a massive grin on her face.

Oh my god! Maura thinks to herself. My baby girl is beautiful. That's right she thinks MY BABY GIRL. Tears she didn't even know she was holding start to fall freely.

Crouching down in front of her wife and child. 'Hey, what's a matter baby' Jane says with concern etched on her face.

'She's beautiful Jane' Maura says with not a hint of sadness in her voice, nothing but pure bliss. Taking one of the tiny hands in her own 'She's perfect'. Cradling the little baby in her arms, placing a gentle kiss on top of the babies forehead. 'Our little Amelia' she says looking from daughter to wife.

Jane can't help but smile, Amelia was one of the top three girls names they really liked. Leaning forward to place a tender kiss on the blonds soft lips, a single stray tear falls from her eyes. 'Amelia' Jane says confirming there daughter finally has a name.

In that moment in time, the cares of the world just melted away, this is what Jane imagined should have happened when Maura was meant to give birth to there daughter. That sense of wondrous euphoria, of love and hope. It didn't matter how they had got to this point. All Jane knew and felt was that she is finally with her family, and she felt nothing but unconditional love.


Authors Note:

Thanks for being patient, and I'm sorry about the wait for this chapter. Not sure if to leave this story as it or carry on? As I was planning on doing a prequel to Trauma, as to how Maura and Jane met. Let me know what you think?

Peace and Love

Paula x