Chap 6
Wall
Tommy sat in the dressing room behind the Vinyl Palace waiting for Jude, the roles switched. Not that long ago he had been the one to walk in this room to check on her lyrics.
As soon as Jude walked in the door he handed her his lyrics. She read over them nodding. "Much better," She looked back at him. Her eyes staring at him but still seeming distant "Just try and remember to relax your voice. You were born to do this so don't try so hard."
Jude turned to leave the room when Tommy grabbed her arm. "Jude wait."
Jude continued to look away. "Let's just skip this okay? There's no point to it. I came back as a favor to Georgia. I…if we talk about us it will just make things harder so…leave it."
Tommy turned her around. "No…I need to know why you don't sing anymore."
"No you don't. It's not important. All that's important is that you ready to sing…not me."
"Yes it is important. I've told you many times you have a natural talent. I have to know why you're giving that up girl."
Girl. The word resounded in Jude's head. She hadn't been called that in a long time. She felt her lip quiver and she tried to hold back the water that was rushing to her eyes.
"1 minute." E.J. voice broke the silence.
"You need to get out there." Jude offered trying to change the subject.
"Not until you tell me why." Tommy's hand tightened around her arm.
"30 sec. Tommy we need you out here." E.J.'s urgent voice called.
"Go and sing and I promise we'll talk about it when you done okay?" Jude told him knowing she would regret the decision later.
"Promise?" Tommy asked his eyes worried and pleading.
"TOMMY WE NEED YOUR ASS ON STAGE NOW!"
"I promise. Just go okay?" Jude said hurriedly.
"Okay." Tommy grabbed his guitar and walked out of the room and toward the stage.
As the band started to play Jude sat down on the black couch in the dressing room with her head in her hands.
"I have to promise myself that I won't get attached again." Jude whispered to herself as Tommy's once again smooth voice flowed through the room.
I built this house
With my own hands
But she just came
And burnt the plans
She found the safe
And cracked the code
She grabbed the goods
And hit the road
She couldn't let him break sown the wall that she had out up around herself.
And I'm
Feeling dumb
Oh, oh, girl
You're the one
She felt so stupid. Sure she had put up an extra thick wall but he had super human strength.
Who shut off my electricity
Explained we just lack chemistry
And on the walls and on the shelves
She hung up pictures of herself
She knew she was being selfish. That she was blocking him out when hw probably wanted to help her more than anything but if she have him a part of her he could shatter her already broken and fragile self.
That makes it hard to
Lock my doors at night
Even my fire alarms won't work right
And as I try to sleep I
Glance next doors
And all I see is his lips touching yours
Oh girl
Jude closed her eyes and a flash of him kissing Sadie rushed into her mind erasing any guilt she felt of blocking him out. He had his chance right? He had long past lost it.
I will dig a hole and label it love
And trick her to fall in from above
Strategically placed at the front door
I'll coax her to come back to get more
She wasn't going to fall for his smooth voice or comforting arms no… she was going to help him with the album and that was it. It wasn't even for him it was for Georgia….right. Yes. Yes it was. She needed to stop second guessing herself… that wasn't going to help anybody.
Oh, girl
I'm feeling dumb
Oh, oh, girl
You're the one
She was going to be smart. She was going to be the once to push him away.
She was strong now.
That makes it hard to
Lock my doors at night
Even my fire alarms won't work right
And as I try to sleep I
Glance next doors
And all I see is his lips touching yours
Oh girl
Jude walked out to the side of the stage to the sound of fans shouting. Tommy looked over at her with that smile.
"Crap." She whispered. "The wall's cracking."
