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What have I done?

Grissom sped down a dirt back road in the desert. He frustratedly ran a hand through his curly hair, rubbing over one eye in that funny way that men have. Sara was back in his townhouse, no doubt waking up on his couch to find him gone.

It had been hard to leave her there, sleeping on his couch, fretfully tossing and turning, her brow crinkled and her eyes clamped shut. He knew because he'd only gotten two hours of sleep. The rest of the time he'd just sat there, watching the purple glow gracing her face turn to pink, then orange, thena firey red. The only thing he could do was watch.

Actually, he was sort of thankful that he didn't have to be there when she woke. It would make things more complicated than they already were. He needed the time to think. It wasthe very thinghe needed, but yet what he had so little of: time. It went by so quickly, and once it was gone, it never came back. At that never ceased to amaze him.

Grissom was confused, annoyed, angry…and in love. He couldn't remember feeling so many things at once. This was exactly what he was afraid of; finally opening up to Sara and…and…and losing all control over himself. He didn't like to be vulnerable, and that was exactly how he was feeling.

He'd opened up to Sara and there was no going back. For seven years, he had held Sara at arm's length, trying to keep himself sane. Because God only knew that if anything were to happen between them he'd lose all sanity. Seven years of keeping himself sane wasn't good enough for the night before, because watching Sara so broken up like that was too hard, and he'd let his arm collapse.

He didn't know what to feel. He couldn't think. It was overwhelming. He wanted to love Sara, but he was afraid. Afraid of what? What are you afraid of, Gil? He could hear Sara's voice in his head.

What am I afraid of? He argued with himself. After a moment, he shook himself out of it and punched on the radio. Soft piano music filled the Denali as it bumped its way along the dusty road. Blue eyes stared at blue skies and his muddled head cleared as he listened to the music.


"I tried to fight the feeling, the feeling took me down

I struggled and I lost the day you knocked me out.

Now everything's got meaning, the meanings bring me down

I'm watching as a screening of my life plays out…"

"Every day I fight these feelings,
For your sake I will hide the real thing,
You can run all your life, all mine I will chase..."

"You should never fight your feelings,
When your very bones believe it,
You should never fight your feelings,
You have to follow nature's law…"


Grissom turned off the radio so that he could think.

Nature's Law, eh? Nature's Law… Grissom thought, ideas rolling around in his head. The song was appealing to the scientist in him.

Shit, this is hard. As much as I want to love her…

He looked at his hands gripped on the steering wheel. He'd embarked on a new journey. he didn't know where it was going, he didn't know where it would end. Grissom was controlling the wheel; he'd just started and he didn't know whether to go ahead or go back. He was stuck at a pit stop.

He'd fought his feelings for Sara for over seven years. Every day, like in the song, he'd tried to hide it. She'd finally broken down his walls, and he realized that she didn't want him to be too late, and neither did he.

The irony suddenly hit him. Here he was, a CSI, on the right side of the law. And then on the other hand, he was on the wrong side of nature's law. A criminal.
a/n: done. hope the nature's law bit wasnt too cheesy. i dont really want to ruin the tone. please tell me if it did or didnt. and another thing: i don't really want to make sara seem weak in this story, thought it might come across that way. but i think that sara would be a little shook up after nick's incident. next chapter is focused on her, so im still tweaking. please leave some feedback! luv yas.