This chapter is sort of written listening to Sometimes Love Just ain't enough by patty Smyth…. Really suited my mood here….
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They arrived in Lawrence at night; Sam had called Missouri ahead of time asking politely if they could bunk down there.
Missouri had said yes, and had asked if Emma was with them.
Greeting them, Missouri pulled Emma into a room calling out behind her to the boys. "Make yourselves comfortable, I'm talking to your sister" and had shut the door on them.
Emma leant against the wall away from the centre of the room which made her uncomfortable.
"You know the truth" Missouri told her. Missouri saw her eyes turn to steel; the girl had obviously reached a conclusion on her way here. But Missouri sensed something more.
"A dream I had pointed me in the right direction"
"Sam had the same dream?"
"Yes"
"Why do you dislike the centre of the room so much?" Missouri asked. Emma shrugged; she wasn't giving away her feelings or thoughts so easily. "You feel wide open, defenceless, you are protected Emma, the boys would die before anything happened to you, especially Dean" that brought Emma's eyes to her.
"I don't want them to be hurt Missouri, John Winchester lied to me, he treated me –"
"Like a soldier who was expendable, I guess you finding out brings out a lot of other things into perspective"
"I'm not discussing any of my other things with you"
"You dreamt of the demon, he is behind you, but not to attack you, it's as if he's afraid of you"
"A demon afraid of me?" Emma's right eyebrow lifted in mockery. "Please, that bitch has got it coming and will die getting it"
"You sound just like Dean"
"Well I have lived with him for the past 20 odd years"
"Girl could you just let down your guard for one minute and pretend you're not a Winchester? that you're a woman who has feelings and emotions, otherwise your going on a head on collision with something" Missouri told her with hands on hips. Emma walked around the room. "The demon is behind you, meaning that he is either afraid of you or he respects what you represent, the paper in your hand, - your registry? and dean begging you, I'd say that boy has his work cut out for him"
"Meaning what? He's my brother"
"Have you always seen him that way?" that brought Emma to a stop.
"Every girl has a dream Missouri, dean was the one that rocked me to sleep at night, and he was always there with a hug or ready to hit someone for me"
"You love him" Emma looked at her exasperated.
"Well duh! Hello!" Missouri smiled.
"Emma I mean as a man not as family but I'll let that go for now"
"You do that; can I leave this room now?"
"No, you have a lot of anger for John"
"He lied to me, period. When I next see him I'll discuss it with him"
"Why not tonight, he is due in isn't he?" Missouri asked.
"The boys rang him yes"
"Then we can discuss him tonight, you need to rest, your high strung about to rip something, and you need to eat" Missouri opened the door – not in the least bit surprised to find dean waiting at the door and Sam not far behind. "It's like I said Emma" Missouri said and walked out.
Dean laid his hand on Emma's shoulder. "You ok?" she smiled at him.
"I'm fine, I do need a shower" he nodded.
"Go on up, Sam or I will take your bag up" he watched her as she mounted the stairs. When he turned he saw Sam watching him.
"What?"
"What was that about?"
"Missouri left her rattled" dean walked to her car and got her bag out. Sam went into the kitchen to talk to Missouri when dean got back into the house; he went upstairs to give Emma her bag so that she could change.
"Emma?" he knocked on the door. He could hear the shower running, by habit he looked at the ceiling. Then shook his head.
"Stupid thought Winchester" he berated himself.
"What's a stupid thought?" he turned. She smiled.
"You're a bit jumpy, having problems with the ceiling?" she asked.
"Just a habit, can't help it" he told her. "Here's your bag" she watched him; he was jumpy which was unlike him.
"Dean what's wrong?" he looked at her.
"What do you mean?"
"You're jumpy, it's me isn't it?" she walked up to him. "You've known me all your life, your acting as if I'm a stranger"
"It just feels so – knowing that your not, it's just brought on this realization of something I had always believed in" he turned away from her.
"What did you believe in?" she asked softly.
"it doesn't matter, the old man will be here soon, and we can blow this whole thing wide open, I'll get Sam to make you something to eat when your done" he left the room.
She closed the door softly .
She got into the shower and let the water pour over her. She closed her eyes over the pain of having lost her brothers. Nothing was going to be the same.
She didn't understand how if she was no relation to Sam then why did she have the gift she had?
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All three sat in the kitchen.
Sam looked upwards. "wonder whats taking her so long"
"she has a lot to take in Sam, she's the only one that can protect you" Missouri told him, that brought both boys gazes to her. "her dream, the demon isn't attacking her, he's watching but has no intention of hurting her" dean was about to respond when he saw Emma coming down the stairs. They all looked at her.
"do I have a wart on my nose?" she asked sitting down. Missouri gave her some food. "I'm not really all that hungry"
"I know what that boy did to you, now eat, your too skinny" Missouri admonished her. She looked down at herself.
"I'm skinny?" she looked at sam and dean. "do you think I'm skinny?" sam opened his mouth then closed it, not being able to reply in a good way so all he said was.
"you could eat a bit more, considering what we do eat when we're on the road" she looked at Dean.
"don't ask me, my opinion doesn't count"
"why?" she asked.
"it doesn't" he got up and left. Emma put her fork down.
"ok I'm over his grumps, I'm going to talk to him" she stood up.
"Emma" Missouri caught her attention. "be gentle, you'll know why" sam was confused, he had an inkling he knew but Missouri covered his hand with hers. "hush sam, I'll talk to you in a second"
Emma left to find Dean.
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