This came to me when I was listening to this song. The song's lyrics are like this. Ennis' thoughts are like this.
I want to thank mobody because according to mobody, lorry is also called Semi's. So, just an early notice before you read.
Forgive me for any factual mistakes cos I've never watched the movie. The reason why I wrote this is because I'm a sucker for good-looking guys.
Disclaimer: Not mine.
Ennis was sitting in the diner, practically pushing his food around on the plate despite the fact that he was hungry. Years passed after Jack died and he still hasn't gotten over the ordeal.
"Fucking rain…" Ennis mumbled as he watched rain splattered on the windows. It was raining, it was cold and the diner's song wasn't helping to lift his mood up.
I feel like a song without the words
A man without a soul
A bird without its wings
A heart without a home
I feel like a knight without a sword
The sky without the sun
Cos you are the one
"That's right. Stupid fucking song." He hated the song. The tune was so sad and sober that he felt like breaking down and cries at the spot.
Why'd ya do this to me, Jack?
Leavin' me behind?
I feel like a ship beneath the waves
A child that lost his way
A door without a key
A face without a name
I feel like a breath without the air
And every day's the same
Since you've gone away
Ya jus' fuckin' die like some ol' piece of shit and left me behind. That ain't fair. Ya left me no purpose to live, Jack… No purpose…
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
Used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are these words that could describe how I miss you
And I miss you
Every day
At hearing those words, Ennis felt tears welling up in his eyes
Fuckin' mess, ya leave me, Jack…
Ennis bit his lip… He couldn't stand it. He couldn't stand to live alone every day and missing Jack every waking and sleeping moments. It was just too much. He didn't know who to blame. Jack, for leaving him, or himself, for not accepting Jack.
Ennis looked outside through the window. The parking lot was there and only a few trucks occupied some space. And there was a road to exit the place and at the other side of the road stood Jack.
Ennis slowly lifted his head. It couldn't be him… could it?
There was Jack, standing in the rain. There was a sign of happiness surrounding Jack, he just stood there in the rain and seemed to be waving a 'hello' at Ennis.
And I'll never gonna leave your side
And I'll never gonna leave your side
I guess
Still holding longer
I'm not gonna let you go
Cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home
Jack held up a 'thumb's up' and turned around, leaving Ennis watching him leave into the darkness.
Ennis silently panicked. But he didn't show it. He rested his head on his folded arms on the table. I'm goin' nuts. Imaginin' Jack fer missin' him so much…
He couldn't stand the song and Jack's fading shadows so he paid for his food and stormed outside. Everyone inside the diner watched Ennis who dashed through the rain and found haven in his truck.
Fucking song… fuckin' imagination…
He started the car. Silent
Stupid piece of shit!
Ennis slammed his fists on the steering and the truck came alive with a desperate cough.
"What the…?"
Ennis was perplexed. He let the slow hum of the truck's engine seeps through his mind to make sure that he wasn't dreaming. He looked around and his eyes stopped at the spot where he just saw Jack waved at him. He looked so real… He looked back at the steering trying to grasp reality. The truck is alive so he backed out of the parking lot and drove away into the long narrow road ahead of him.
Ennis had been taking long rides with his truck, just to get his mind off Jack. His grueling works in the morning distract him perfectly well from Jack except at night when it was so quiet.
The night rang with the sounds of the rains and the truck. His truck's radio is broken but he hadn't really bothered to fix it. What came next bothered him the most.
Tell me that a man can lose his mind
Living in the pain
Calling times gone by
Crying in the rain
You know I've wasted half the time
And I'm on my knees again
Till you come to me
The song came from Ennis' broken radio. More surprised than ever in his life, Ennis almost skidded off the road but he regained his control again. He looked to his right to check the radio but what he saw next almost gave him a heart attack.
"J…Jack?"
I gotta have a reason to wake up in the morning
Used to be the one that put a smile on my face
There are these words that could describe how I miss you
And I miss you
Every day
And I'll never gonna leave your side
And I'll never gonna leave your side
I guess
Still holding longer
I'm not gonna let you go
Lay my head against you heart
I know I'm home
Jack was sitting next to Ennis on the passenger's seat. His body emanating a weird glow in the darkness, Jack smiled his usual big grin.
"Hey, Ennis. Missin' me?" he said with a whisper.
"Jack…" words were stuck in his throat. Here he was… his one true darling… right next to him when he thought he had died years ago.
"Jack…I thought yer…d…de…"
Jack put a finger on Ennis lips. "Not a word, cowboy. We'll talk later,"
How can he shut up when there was a dead man beside him?
"Jack, that was ya wavin' at me?"
"Yup. Thought I'd better introduce maself before I pop up beside ya in this truck,"
Ennis was silent. He loved the way Jack was smiling at him right now. Loved the way his face was relaxed in the darkness. Ennis held out a hand to touch Jack, at least to confirm that he wasn't going insane.
And I'll never gonna leave your side
And I'll never gonna leave your side
I guess
Still holding longer
I'm not gonna let you go
Cos when I'm lying in your arms
I know I'm home
Jack's hands were cold and at the same time, Jack whispered "Gotta go, cowboy. I'll be waiting fer ya."
Jack disappeared and so are Ennis' hopes. Suddenly, bright lights blinded Ennis. His truck was on the wrong lane and about to meet a lorry.
He didn't realize when this happened but Ennis felt that impact, slowly spreading from his face, to his neck and to his back.
He lost his grip and saw swirling images around him. For a moment, Ennis saw stars and the rest was darkness. The last thing he saw was the blinding lights in front of him. He heard the horrible crush of his truck under the lorry's tires and silent… And a single tear down his cheek mixed with the rain…
Ennis felt cold but he wasn't alone in the darkness. A hand reached for him, slowly lifting him up. "Told 'ya we'll have time to talk,"
"Funny. The truck was crushed but the body's fine," said a sheriff.
"But he's confirmed dead, sir. Got no pulse. But, sir. Ya gotta see this," replied another
"Wow… would'ja look at that,"
"He died happy, sir,"
"Indeed. He's smiling like a little child,"
-end-
Right…didn't mean to kill Ennis. But the story just flowed out of me like that.
If you don't mind, can somebody tell me who sang this song? I have no idea what the title of this song is or who sings it. Please… you'll do me a great favor… he, he
