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I Still Believe
She had it all.
Money, looks, and everything else she ever wanted. She was spoiled beyond compare.
But, she was missing something from her life.
The one who was going to take her breathe away one day.
Except, how could someone if she was the shy one around the guys and the total bitch around everyone else?
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Weeks of laughter, cuddling, kissing, talking and everything in between ceased for the couple. Bloody exams before Christmas Break began. Hogsmeade trip that same weekend and teachers were on everyone's case. No one was in a cheery mood, not even Peeves.
Curled up in a ball on the couch in front of the blazing fire, Andi was rereading her notes from Transfiguration. Her eyes were starting to look bloodshot as it was nearing around three the next morning. Yawning and running her hands through her hair, she flipped through her notes quickly and scratched and prodded herself before she decided that her time was up and she needed her rest.
Almost trampling herself, while walking up the stairs she really felt quite dizzy. Quickly turning into her animal form of an eagle, she flew to her dorm room and changed before she opened the door. She never knew who was actually in there with Pansy. Or...anyone else at that matter, who didn't know about her ability.
Walking into her room, it was a tad dark and she didn't want to turn on the light. Using the light coming from the moonlight outside, she changed into her pajamas and brushed her teeth in the bathroom. Before hitting the sack, she put her wand under her pillow. She felt it most safe when she had a quick grab on it, sometimes her mind didn't think straight so she couldn't always do wandless magic during the night.
Feeling something heavier in her bed, as she slipped in, next to her, she took her wand quickly out from under her pillow and said the charm, 'Lumos'. The tension that had started to fill her body, relaxed. She gave a long sigh, said 'Nox' and poked Draco with her finger on his cheek to wake him up.
"Wake," she whispered, poking him. "Up."
He stirred after about the third poke and looked up at her a bit blurry-eyed.
"What're you doing here?" whispered Andi.
Without saying a word, he pulled her down to him and kissed her with enough passion to fill the whole room. Moaning in his mouth softly, she ran her hands through his hair and his down her sides. Climbing on top of him as they kissed, he kissed her down her neck and she moaned a bit loudly.
Running his hand up her thigh, he kissed along her jawline and then back to her lips. She pulled away gently and looked at Draco with want in her eyes, but she still didn't want anything of that sort and he knew went to stop. Kissing her lightly once more, she got off him and laid down by his side. He wrapped his arm around her and she snuggled into his chest, sleeping by his side for the rest of the night.
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Pansy woke up in her bed, with the sun's beam beating on her eyes. Groaning, she got up and walked into the bathroom to wash her face and brush her teeth before she ran downstairs to the Great Hall for a quick breakfast.
Arriving back after twenty minutes, she spotted something odd with Andi's bed. Walking over, she shook her head slightly and knelt down at the edge as if she were to perform a guerilla warfare on Andi. Making sure that she wasn't going to wake, she jumped out unto her and Draco and roared, "Wake up, sleepyhead!"
Startled out of their minds, Andi went for her wand quickly and put it to Pansy's neck, pushing it into her neck deeply. She growled, literally, at Pansy and she gave an outright yelp.
"Andi!" said Pansy whimpering a bit. "It's me, Pansy. You wouldn't hurt me would you?" Her eyes pleaded with her, it was like the first time in years that Pansy was scared that she looked like she was going to pee in her pants.
Draco stared at the pair and put his hand on her wand hand and lowered her hand away from Pansy. "Calm down, love. Calm down." She struggled to move away from Draco's grips, as he held her hands together firmly. Giving up, she glared at the wall with fire blazing in her eyes.
Pansy, getting off of the bed, backed up to the wall and slumped down on it, breathing a bit hard. "I-I'm sorry, Andi. I d-didn't m-mean to scare y-you." she stammered. Draco eased himself off the bed and walked over to Pansy, knelt down by her and conjured up a glass of water and handed it to her.
"Here. It should refill itself as much as you need it to. I'm going to talk to Andi, just never jump on her like that. She gets frightened easily when people do that to her when she's sleeping." commented Draco as he soothed Pansy down.
Sitting down beside Andi, he spoke, "Are you okay?"
Andi didn't speak and wasn't attempting to. She breathed harder every minute, as recollections of everything came flooding back to her memory. She forgot them, kept them stored away in the storage room of her mind that was forbidden, at least she thought that's what she had done. Grabbing her teddy bear from the base of the bed, she held it close to her chest and rocked back and forth, slowly tearing apart. She couldn't remember, she didn't want to remember, she wanted it all to go away, all away--far, far, far off in the distance that it couldn't come flying back at her, like a boomerang. Nothing helped, nothing would, she thought. Tears blinded her vision as they flooded up to her eyes, ready to fall.
Draco knew what was coming. He climbed on the bed with her and put her on his lap. She rested her head on his shoulder and held in her tears, that were starting to disperse.
"Andi, let them out, alright? Let them out." he said running his hand down her back slowly to calm her nerves. Her breathing became normal as she had refused for herself to cry over this any longer. She would die with the tears over-inhabiting her inside body.
Pansy looked down in her glass as she saw Draco calming Alexandra down. She was jealous of them. She was jealous of everyone. Draco never treated her like that when they were together, why her? Why some girl that he's known for two years when he's known me for years on end. All that matters is that he's happy and Andi needs him more than I need him, much more. Right?
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Walking out in the evening, the moon was fully out and it bounced off the lake shining as a huge saucer. Draco and Andi sat underneath the tree that sat in front of it and snuggled up to each other.
Andi shivered a bit from the cold that was now nipping at her ears and the tip of her nose. Draco took notice and conjured up a blanket and covered her and himself under it. They were talking about their exams for Transfiguration that same day, after everything happened that morning.
"I messed up a bit on my frog, though." said Andi. She laughed and continued, "The tips of its fingers were blood red...with white spots. Don't ask, I don't even know."
"Why were there spots?" snickered Draco. She hit him playfully and shook her head laughing.
"You're such an idiot, Draco."
"Ouch." He put his hand over his heart as if his heart really did ache badly and laughed faintly. "Well, guess what?"
"What?"
"I'm your idiot. So, you should be proud."
Laughing, Andi gazed up at the moon. "Moon's beautiful."
"That moon has nothing on you, Andi. You're more beautiful from the inside out, unlike the moon you don't hold secrets that I need knowing of. It's craters are lies, that got deeper and deeper. The only crater you have is probably the one about you not telling your parents about us!" He tickled her down to the ground and kissed her softly.
"I'm not beautiful, Draco. There's nothing beautiful about me. Look at me, I look like that damn frog that I messed up on."
"I say otherwise."
"What's so beautiful about me? I don't see it." she said.
Kissing her lightly, he spoke, "Everything is. From your hair, to your toes. Your personality is so radiant, that I'm beyond confused why you would want someone like me to be with you. I'm a pathetic, snobby Slytherin-"
"Ahem. We all are, Draco." she said smiling.
"Good point. But, I just love you for who you are. That's what makes you so beautiful. I could say so much more, but my lack of vocabulary has diminished by far."
Smiling, she ran her finger over his cheek lightly. "Thank you for telling me that. You mean a lot to me. I couldn't ask for a better man to be with."
Beaming, he placed a strand of her hair behind her ear as it had fallen in her face. Breathing out slowly, he wondered if he should say what he wanted to say. Would it hurt her, or what exactly would she do?
"Andi. All the weeks that we've spent with and for each other, there's something that I feel deep inside of me. It's so deep and I love the feeling of it." He said smiling wider and intertwined her fingers with his. "It makes me feel so special. As if there isn't anyone else that could possibly make me feel this way. I just wanted to say it now before I let the time slip me by."
"What do you want to say, Draco?" she said as she gave him a smile and a peck on the tip of nose.
"That...that, I love you. I know what you're probably thinking, but I really do. I've never felt this way, before. At all. My parents have never loved me, I don't think they've ever even attempted to."
"Dr-Draco. Are you sure? You know what happened and I don't want the same thing happening all over again." she said choking out the words.
"You know that I would never hurt you. Never shall I. I promise you that. Remember when we went on that trip up to Hogsmeade that one weekend and we went into the hills past the town?"
Nodding she urged him to finish, "Well, when you got hurt going up the hills, I knew that it was my fault. I should've been by your side, but I was ahead of you just wanting to get up there. I knew that I was being selfish, but from that day on I promised myself that I wouldn't ever hurt you again. Purposefully or accidentally. I would try and prevent it."
Smiling softly, she looked at the lake and spoke, "You know Draco, you will hurt me sometime in the future. We'll never know when, but you will. Just like in every relationship there is hurt, pain," looking back at him, she finished. "and turmoil. I do love you, Draco, but I don't want you to love me back. I'm too much firstly and I have enough problems as there is, I don't want you to feel like you should be worried all the time, which you always are."
Getting off her, he sat against the base of the tree and looked at her. Extending his hand out to her, she grabbed it and he pulled her up to him.
"Look," said Draco as he looked in her eyes. "I fucking love you. You and no one else will tell me that I can't love you. You're my world. Remember?" he questioned in a soft tone.
Staring back in his grey stormy eyes, she leaned in and kissed him. Placing his hands on both sides of her face, he deepened it, but was stopped by Andi's slight pull away.
"What's wrong?" he spoke, brushing his lips against hers as he spoke.
Smiling, she whispered, "I love you. That's what's wrong."
Smiling widely, Draco wrapped his arms around her waist and kissed her firmly. Pausing from the kiss, Andi spoke once again. "I don't deserve you." Frowning, she looked down from him. Draco put his finger under her chin and lifted her head so her eyes met his. He kissed her lightly and spoke.
"Yes. Yes, you do."
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AN: Bloopers. Hm. Hope you liked it. I really would like reviews on my story. I take a lot of time to write these and I'm beyond disappointed that people read them but don't leave reviews. It won't even take you a minute to write 'I liked this story.' or 'Nice story.' or even an improvement review, hint: 'Pretty good, but maybe you should limit yourself on the commas or all the mushy stuff going on between your characters?' Just, please for the sake of your author!
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