AN: and here's the last part. This is the only kleenex-needing part, but everything turns out ok.

And to think that something I took as an experiment - writing a Harm/Singer fic, became something that I love doing. The first Harm/Singer fic I wrote was meant as an experiment in a new pairing and now I'm writing this pairing almost exclusively. It's quickly becoming one of my fav pairings and I see a lot more Harm/Singer fics in the future, provided I'll have the time. Too bad nobody else writes it, so I could read H&S that I haven't written.

You know what puzzles me? FF. net doesn't have Singer on the drop-list on the main JAG site, where you can choose pairings and where the list of new fics is posted. It has people who either haven't been seen in a while, were seen very rarely/occasionally or were with us for just a short while, like Galindez, Kate, Mikey, Tiner; hell it even has 2 characters I had never seen any pairing of: Cresswell and Vukovic.

But no Loren...

And they made a mistake with Jen. They have her as "Coates, A.". A.? Coates is Jennifer, so where did they get that A.? It should be "Coates, J.". LoL.

Tnx guys for sticking with this story and me and for the reviews, you've been great. Take care!

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MARCH 2001

JAG HQ

Loren was just crossing the courtyard from the parking lot of the HQ when a prisoner, being escorted by two MPs, somehow managed to escape. Unfortunately Loren was in the way of his freedom and he roughly pushed her aside, causing her to fall on the ice.

Harm was just getting out of his car when he saw it happen. He would forever remember her scream as she impacted with the hard ground. It was the moment that their unborn child had died. He knew it the second it happend as one of the two buzzings suddenly went silent.

He saw the assailant running towards the parked cars, looking for an unlocked one close to Harm. Harm saw Loren being tended to by other people and the MPs looking around for the perpetrator. Only Harm knew where the man was and nothing was going to stop him from giving out justice.

He crept behind the man, seeing red, and when he neared him he grabbed him from behind and pushed him against the car, smashing the driver's window with the man's head. Then he turned him around and delivered two punishing blows, one to the ribs, breaking a few of them, and the next one broke the man's jaw. The criminal was knocked out and Harm dragged him over to the MPs, who were looking at him with wide eyes, with just one arm. The rage had given him an enormous strength. He dumped the man at their feet, turned without a word and then ran to Loren's side.

He wasn't aware of the tears that were streaming down his face in rivers.

He pushed through the throng, hearing someone say that they had already called the ambulance, and knelt down next to Loren, gathering her in his arms. She was clutching her stomach and crying. She too had heard the buzzing go silent.

They sat there on the ground, in the middle of the HQ courtyard, with their co-workers standing around stunned at the display. Nobody knew what to make of Lt. Singer and Cmdr. Rabb holding each other tightly and crying so brokenly, that it also brought the onlookers to tears.

Finally the ambulance had arrived and the paramedics quickly got to work.

When Harm wanted to get into the back of the ambulance with Loren, a paramedic stopped him. Harm yelled angrily, not caring who would hear. "But I'm her husband!"

Gasps were heard from the crowd, but Harm didn't care. All he cared about was his wife. The paramedic let him get in upon hearing that.

The ambulance pulled away, sirens screaming, and the crowd slowly dispersed, still whispering among themselves. Only a lone figure remained, anger almost making steam come out of her ears. She was angry at Harm, she was angry at Loren, she was angry at her fiancee and she was angry at her plan, of trying to force Harm into confessing his love for her by taking Brumby's ring, for not working. She blamed everyone and everything else, but herself, for being stuck with the man she didn't love, while having pushed the man she believed she loved into another woman's arms. She turned around and stalked towards the building.

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The doctors at the hospital could only confirm what they already knew. Their baby was dead. They grieved together, until they fell asleep from exhaustion.

Before being released from the hospital they were given instructions for a few days of rest and a name of a grief counselor.

They returned to work a few days later, ignoring all weird and curious looks their co-workers gave them. When Loren was found crying in the ladies room by Harriet, the secret came out.

Reactions from people went from shock to blatant sympathy. The Admiral truly felt for them, having seen how they loved each other, especially clearly on their wedding day.

Strangely enough, Harriet was their biggest supporter instead of closing herself off because of the pain of her own experience of losing a child. Bud didn't know what to do, but his sincere wish to help was easily recognized and appreciated. While Mac felt sorry for them she didn't try to do anything more than to offer her condolences. She was still too angry and bitter over the fact that she'd lost Harm.

When they got fed up by people telling them how sorry they were for their loss, Harm and Loren finally took those 2 weeks of leave.

Loren, Harm was dismayed to notice, started pulling away from him, shutting herself and her grief off from him. She pushed him away, closing off her emotions, not letting him help her grieve and move on.

After 2 weeks of unsuccessful attempts at trying to get her to open up he used the aggressive tactic. He faced her and provoked her with the topic, crying himself, until she finally broke down and allowed him to hold her while she cried, finally letting herself grieve.

He had broken through her barriers and from then on they did everything important in their lives together. Their bond and their marriage were thankfully strong enough to survive the death of their unborn child.

During their time of grief, Mac's wedding to Brumby happened, though the bride didn't look like she was madly in love with her husband. Harm and Loren didn't attend, they were still grieving and weren't ready for social occasions. But they were present when one day a woman burst into JAG HQ demanding to meet Col. MacKenzie, the woman who stole her husband.

It turned out that Mac's marriage to Brumby was invalid since Brumby was already married and had 4 kids with his wife. When he presumably came to US to 'be closer to the woman he loves' he had told his wife that he was being transferred back to his old post. It turned out that he didn't even resign from the Navy, as he had told Mac, but just reserved his commission.

His wife, Nicole, had found out about his latest, in a very long line of conquests, from a mutual friend who had heard Brumby as he boasted that he had managed to steal the woman an american Naval officer loved from that officer. Apparently he boasted what a good trophy woman she was, beautiful and great in bed, but very naive and succeptible to his manipulations. When Mac heard that, she was furious and the next day came to work with bruised knuckles. Well, at least she didn't have to go through divorce since the marriage didn't legally exist. Quite a fine mess she got herself into with her machinations. And to have her love life and 'marriage' be discussed before the whole JAG staff...

After the scene was over and Mrs. Brumby left, Harm and Loren just looked at each other, both thinking 'Am not surprised.' and grinning when they noticed both had the same thought. For just a moment they were able to forget their problems.

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Eventually they had managed to recover and move on. The memory of their lost child still hurt, and would for the rest of their lives, but it didn't feel like it would kill them anymore. During the time they grieved they were forced to admit that they were in love. They knew it before, but neither had openly said it. But with this tragedy leaving them open and raw, feelings could not be repressed anymore. Their love just made them stronger and tied them together even closer. Nothing could tear them apart.

After more than a year they were finally ready to think of having another child. But this time it took them over 6 months to finally achieve that goal.

There were some complications because of Loren's miscarriage and that was the reason for their many unsuccessful attempts. Finally, almost when they were starting to believe that they would not be having any more children, Harm one day heard a new buzzing. He immediately headed out of his office and into Loren's, which now sported her new name, and they started hugging and crying together. Thankfully, he remembered to shut the blinds when closing the door, because crying for no apparent reason was a sure way to get ordered to have a psych eval done.

They were ecstatic and terrified to death. They were being paranoid and overly cautious, they knew it, but couldn't help themselves. Loren reserved her commission for the rest of her pregnancy and for a few months after the birth of their son, while Harm went everywhere with her, carrying his personal sidearm. He had managed to get a permit to carry a concealed weapon due to his connections and he wouldn't hesitate defending his family from another tragedy. They bought a house in Falls Church and had the best security system installed. Few things are as dangerous as burglars or home invasions. There is nothing more precious than one's family and everything should be done to protect it.

Thankfully nothing happened and Loren gave birth to a healthy baby boy, which they named Harmon Rabb III.. Harm protested loudly when the idea for the name first came up, but was outvoted by Loren, his mother, Frank and his grandmother. Finally he had to concede and hope that his son wouldn't hate them later in life for giving him that name. It was bad enough that it was an unusual name (kids can be very cruel to each other), but he was also the third of his name!

Life went back to normal and after a few months Loren returned to work.

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RABB RESIDENCE

OCTOBER 2008

Loren cuddled in closer to her husband, feeling his arms tighten around her, loving the feeling of love and security he gave her. The buzzing told her that he was feeling very happy and cozy and that their son was already asleep.

As she slowly fell asleep herself she thought of the hardships and tragedies they had endured, of the hard times that still lay ahead and knew for certain that they would get through everything. Simply because they were together.

They were, after all, soulmates.

THE END