Disclaimer: Like I said I'm working on it right away. Oh, I don't own Inuyasha.....but I wish I did.....

A/N: Like I promise I'm working this the same day and some how my chapters are getting kind of weird... Well anyways that's it. This chapter might be a little different. So please excuse! (thanks for the reviews! I'm really glad you're truthful about what you think and it helps me...even if it kind of criticized my fic but still! I get to improve! )

Of Broken Hearts and Renewal

Chapter 8: It's Back

Y'no? When I was small my mom use to tell me these wonderful amazing stories. They were great. I use to go to sleep every night pretending I was the heroine. Now it's funny you see? Somehow at the age of fifteen I did become a heroine. And it sucked, except sometimes it didn't.

I guess since I found a place that felt more as if I belonged then ever. Maybe since a ton of crap happened in my life. Or maybe just because people looked up to me. But still, I guess I found some people I could share my problems, feelings, and actually love. You can't blame me can you?

Every girl out there wants to find so someone to love and always be there for them. They just want to feel belonged and happy. I guess I lost that chance. Woes, me. But I think I found him again. But what if I'm wrong?

Then at the point of where I was about to be killed I would remember this particular story. I don't know, it always stuck out of all the other ones. It wasn't as popular as the others ones about mermaids, beasts, wolves, dwarves, princesses, and princes. This story didn't have anything much to do about princesses. Somehow I just liked this story. See, it was about this peasant girl....

There once was a peasant girl. Her name was Kea. She was alone all of her life. Her father left her. Her mother and brother died. Her village was burnt down. She was alone. But there were stories of great deeds she did for everyone. Stories of adventures, heroism, and betrayal. But there was a story about when she found her end and her first love.

When she was just 15 years of age she met someone she loved. Now this peasant girl was quite well known. Kea helped everyone she could. She had special powers. Powers for good. But she fell in love finally with...a Hanyou. He was the most handsome person she had ever seen. Though that was where it stopped. His personality was just plain rude. He acted rude, arrogant, mean, ignorant, and was a bad person. But Kea saw something special in him that she loved.

He was just like her. Alone. Lonely. Kea wanted to be with him, but the only way was to change into a Hanyou herself. So she went to the evil miko and asked for her to become Hanyou. In return Kea had to give her most prized and only possession. Her powers. But Kea gladly gave it up to be with her Hanyou with her new self she went away searching for her Hanyou. You see, the Hanyou also took notice of the girl also and learned to love that cocky witty girl. So he wanted to become human. But in return he had to give up his demon powers. So he left looking for Kea but when they each met each other...chaos came.

The village had thought that the new demon Kea had killed the human Kea and taken her form and powers. The humans, afraid killed her. The Hanyou found his beloved killed on the spot but was too late to finally tell her how much he loved her. Before she left to the Beyond she smiled a smile for him. A sad smile full of all her feeling she ever felt. A smile that told of the beginning of what never was. The smile broke his heart and he too died. But it was said that the two would one day be reunited. To finally be together.

Forever.

There were other stories about Kea before she met the Hanyou. Stories about falling in love with a prince and in the end the prince married another girl and she left broken hearted. Or the story about how she saved Japan without them knowing it. But this Story appealed to me the most. It was tragic, but I loved it.

Maybe because it was sort of true to me also. It reminded me of my story. I lost my Hanyou a long time ago. And now I was about to die broken hearted. After maybe just finding him again. But it's okay because I learned to let go. Heh. I am about to die right now, aren't I?

To die in honor or to live in shame? This was the thought I was thinking when I was fighting the demon and when Kagome was pushed aside. So which one would I pick? Either you'd die right. To die in honor means that you'd die but ....in honor? And to live in shame meaning that you were just a coward and everyone will forsake you knowing you for whom you are? You'd die in the end thinking what if she lived? Questions would be unanswered? I don't know. It was too late to think anyways.

I saw myself like from a TV screen I guess in another form. Except everything was red. I had the weirdest look though. My eyes were blood red with the tiniest of violet. I had a stripe on each cheek. It was weird and while I was watching myself I kept hearing this distant voice saying Kill Kill Kill. I don't know.

I thought it was just like me having a weird dream. Lately I've been having these dreams. It kept showing me in third person and I'd see Kagome and my Hanyou form fighting monsters or sharing fights. Sometimes I would see us actual seem as if we're in a relationship. I guess I sometimes feel jealous. I just don't know anymore.

This is so complicating. Except when I wake up I forget all of it. I'm living my day as a normal teen well as I can with hiding my other self and all of a suddenly I get whooshed into this blizzard of a broken past. My past....

My other form as I see is finishing the demon. Before I would just fight blindingly. Now suddenly I'm sticking my hands through the demon. That's just cold blooded. Now I think my demon form is about to rip it apart.......I can hear the screams of mercy and pity. It's sickening. I hope I wake up soon. But why do I have this feeling as if I can't wake up. Ever. For a very long time. But this is a dream, isn't it?

Kagome saw Inuyasha slaughter the demon.....in his full demon form. Right when the demon was about to dealt her her final blow Inuyasha came through except it had to be in his demon form. But Kagome couldn't focus on the ending battle. Oh no her head was starting to come back to life and she could feel this big headache coming. Damn.

Inuyasha finished the demon quickly. Somehow he couldn't get his feeling right. He wanted to suddenly kill everything in sight but then another voice told him not too. Screw the latter voice. He was going to kill and enjoy it. Now where was that girl who had the Shikon shards? Mmmm. Getting stronger wasn't such a bad idea either.

Kagome looked lazily up at Inuyasha. Good grief. He was approaching her in that Predator meets Prey look. Well all she had to do was say sit right?? Right? Now if she could just find the strength to get feeling back on her mouth. Oh there it goes now the pain is moving to her chest now. Great......Then she had to remember. This Inuyasha didn't have the fucking rosary beads.

"Shit" Kagome cursed under her breath.

"Tsk, Tsk. Little Kagome shouldn't be saying such foul words under her breath now should she?" Inuyasha tsk menacingly in a low voice.

"Shut up Inuyasha. I don't need abuse from you right now. If you think about my situation it's not pretty either. Being killed about 20 times every month in Japan and every day in Feudal Japan ain't the best thing in the fucking world. First of all I was just about to be killed by that demon. None other than you rescued me but as you see you're about to kill me and take my shards. Also there is that horrid pain shooting from my head down. I was paralyzed but seeing that feelings coming back and bloody pains replacing it I guess that's all. Did I mention that I was almost killed and about to be killed?"

"Shut up with the British words. You aren't British, this I know for sure."

"Surprised you know that it's British."

Inuyasha inched slowly towards Kagome. His eyes suddenly drastically changed. Now it held....oh for the love of.....It held lust and killer instincts. Great. Dammit of all the fucking days the world decides to go against me.....fuck it. Kagome cursed to herself. Now she was going to be his girl toy for a while and then killed mercilessly. Of all the days......

But did you think Kagome would really die that soon? She didn't talk that much but she had to up there. She talked for a reason. She saw the figure hunching scuttle by. She knew it was no other than a wonderful angel. Well a wonderful old wrinkly angel. But the angel still needed time to finish the chant. And oh did Kagome feel the pain in her feet now. Shit... Well this was her life right? To live or die? She remember having this decision the first time she met Inuyasha. Oh well.

Kagome began to make a steady crawl Inuyasha watched her in an amused way .He began chuckling. I'm not going to die yet. Kagome moved into a quicker pace and after the pain began to become a dull throb she moved quickly onto her knees and bolted away. She ran as quickly as possible. No way in hell was she going to die when she got this far. No way in fucking hell.

She quickly moved. She needed to run faster. Inuyasha had given her a head start. Typical. It was like the Hunter and the Hunted. Him being the Hunter and she being the Hunted. This was all a game to him. This game she planned to win. Time to put a good name in the Hunted and bad name for the Hunter. Kagome licked her lips and made into a steady jog. Then she made it into a sprint. She quickly went to where instinct was to her. She made it to the Tree. Now why did I go he- Kagome was pushed roughly aside onto the Tree. (obviously this Tree is the goshinkuboku tree. Did I even spell that right?) Kagome let out a gruff sigh of pain.

Inuyasha saw Kagome trying to run away. He let her have that little start. It wasn't bad. In fact it was a little game to him. This would be fun....He quickly moved forward to get her. Except she was moving faster than he thought she would. Heh. Figures. She was running for her life after all.

Inuyasha walked a steady jog. Now all he had to do was let her think she was safe and then.......POW. He hit her square on the shoulder but it was quite strong enough making her pushed to the side. He walked up to her. Making it as slow and menacing as it was.

Except she was having that stupid stubborn look. Shouldn't she be quaking in fear? This was not fun. Not fun at all. He lived for the fun of that terror in their eyes. The fear of death and then he would give them that fear of death. This girl was just too, too much. He gave her a grin but it could be mistaken as a sneer.

He watched her eyes. They were focused somewhere else. Well he might was well kill this girl she was such a nuisance. She kept bringing these thoughts and memories back which he thought he had purged himself of. He quickly raised his claws to her final demise. He was about to make a swift clean cut. Wait maybe he could have a little fun first right? No chance ruining such a beauty on such a good opportunity. Then white light came towards him. Beads of lights.......

Then Beadlike shapes of lights came by shooting past Kagome and onto Inuyasha's neck. His lusting hand stopped right above Kagome. His hands quickly shot up to the beads when the lights disappeared.What the hell?

"Child, the final-"

"I know I know. We've been through this before. SIT!!!"

"Gwah! Bitch!! Why the hell!" Nope he still was a demon and oh did Kagome love her new control and oh did she miss this.

"Sit!"

"Shit!! You fucking-"

"SIT!"

"Bitch! Knows nothing-"

"SIT!"

"STOP STOP-"

"SIT!"

"Ah Kagome child, he's returned normal now after your 3rd sit."

"Sit! Oh really well I guess I got a little carried away." Kagome said realizing her mistake.

"I really, really hate you Kagome" Said the figure buried in the waist high ground.

"I love you too!" Came the cheery voice form above.

"So Kaede how did you get the beads so fast in under such circumstances and time? Since the village was burned down I would thought all your beads in there were burned. Also I don't remember you keeping them in hand all the time." Kagome asked while they dragged Inuyasha's "Poor abused body" he put in his own terms back to the village. Luckily the village wasn't badly burnt. But many huts needed repairing.

"Oh it just relied on a transporting spell and the same incantation and I had to be at least 15 meters away from him."

"Oh.....I see...But transportation?"

"I got it from your room."

"My-my room?" Kagome said having a bit of a twitch on her left eyebrow while mumbling a little to herself. Inuyasha couldn't help but look at her as if she lost her mind. Talk about invading privacy. "Isn't that drastic? Wait, but I thought you had to go through the w-....oh no you didn't? You don't have a sliver of a jewel do you? I was so preoccupied...but...you came into my house without asking? That's trespassing. Oh Kaede you could get arrested for such a thing in my time! And when have I've shown you to my room?"

"Oh remember that incident where Inuyasha got um...hit with that thing you called a bb gun?"

"But it was Souta's and they all pestered me about the "guns" in my History book. So.....it was an ACCIDENT!" Kagome interrupted, hoping Inuyasha didn't hear and think that she was some crazy psychopath.

"And he thought he was dying and you kept him in your room? Well you see your mother showed me your room while I came that one time since you were at school and Inuyasha just kept yelling so Sango called me over so I could stuff his mouth with sleeping herbs." The old lady's face broke out into a crinkly grin.

Mom, jeez, how could you??

(I have no clue why I add this part...but thought it'd be fun to let the old beads be with it's normal victim....)

After the tending of the wounded Kagome decided that that was enough action for her Hanyou friend and they moved out to go home. Well actually the villagers insisted that they leave since all they've seen and the hard work. Also their new injuries.

Once outside the well Inuyasha still had some questions unanswered but our dear friend Kagome decided to say that tomorrow would be study day! Yay! So they were to meet at Kagome's house and from their walk to Inuyasha's house. Where they will finally get their facts straightened out and their studying done. (obviously Inuyasha put the sealing spell back on gears.)

So the teens said their goodbyes, where Kagome's grandpa stood outside his door holding the same hatchet Kagome was talking about from later chapters ago. Glaring at Inuyasha and Kagome evilly and a little sympathetic. (But for some reason he kept having this sad expression that his granddaughter supposedly had gone to the "dark side." He kept muttering stupid, no use incantations, to no avail.) Looking if there would be any demons interaction. After they said their goodbyes and Kagome knowing Inuyasha's real face she went to sleep letting her gramp's eyeing slide this time.

Inuyasha's home....

Inuyasha walked in his room and laid flat down. Boy was this the weirdest day he had ever had. Battling giant demons, turning into a full demon, and getting this stupid collar that smelt like Kagome's room and his scent on was just great. Wasn't it though? Then a thought hit him.....

"SHE DIDN'T SAY HOW CUTER I LOOKED WHEN I'M IN MY DEMON FORM!" Inuyasha yelled.

(but he was lucky she didn't run away screaming like hell)

I'm going on a little retreat this week so sorry! Also I'm gonna go and paint ball sometime soon so, sorry for any delay! But atleast it's not taking me weeks right?