Hey there, jeez, I'm updating quick, eh? Well, I found out that updating is good lick for me… Once I updated last time, I got an email saying that Lolly and Hayley had updated F L A S H L I G H T…. But, considering it was the last chapter, maybe it wasn't such good luck….
Well, I'm writing this on my new computer, and I have to say it is quite awesome…. Love ya, hope this is up to your standards…
So, here it is! The next chapter in "If You Could Only See"
Na Na Hey Hey (Kiss Him Goodbye)
Paul POV
It broke my heart.
I know you don't think I HAVE a heart. But I do, and it belongs to Suze. But now she belongs to De Sucky. No, that's the wrong choice of words. Suze isn't some prize to be won, something to be kept. A large part of her allure is her freedom, her independence. No one could keep her down.
I sound like such a sap. But it's true. I'm just not good at expressing my feelings. Hence, my fallback, the attacking and the kissing. I was mulling this over when that old song came on… you know, the 'Kiss Him Goodbye' song. God, did that fit my thoughts to a tee. I may be one hell of a shifter, but I can't decide what gets played on the radio… but, I have to say, I couldn't have picked a better song myself. I found myself humming along, getting into it. Well, lets just say it would be embarrassing if anyone came in right-
"Knock Knock." Crap. I knew that voice. And it was the last person I would want to see me getting into some oldie crap… eventhoughimightlikeit….
"Sorry to bother you from your rock star delusions, but I came to apologize. I can't tell you how sorry I am for what Jesse did to you, even though you may have deserved it. I don't need him to fight my battles, but he obviously needs me to apologize, so, on behalf of him, I'm sorry."
"Suze, no. He was right. In those last moments, I knew what he wanted from me. And I didn't watch after you like he asked. I let you be hurt, over and over again. These last few weeks have been my fault. And anyways, I doubt the pain that was inflicted upon me today was even half of what you just went through, so don't be sorry. Sometimes I need a good beating to make me realize these things."
She laughed. Her laughter made me feel like my life's work was done, every time I heard it. It made me believe there was a god. It was…. Cough…. On with the story, can't look like too much of a nice guy, Paul, you have a reputation to maintain…
But yeah. I liked it when she laughed. It was nice. I felt good… let's keep moving…
"So, was there any other reason for you coming than to apologize? And, of course, to scam on my hot bod? You know you like it, Simon…"
"Not really anything else… I think witnessing you dancing around your room to Steam will tide me over for a while, I think. Well, if we're done here, I think I'll go home."
"You need a ride?"
"Sure. I remember what happened the last time I tried to walk home from your house."
I winced at the memory. God, why was I such a jackass sometimes? "Okay, cool. I promise I will not do anything to you. Hands to myself. Scouts honor…" I held up two fingers on my right hand to make the scout salute. She just laughed. Today was my lucky day.
We drove in amiable silence, listening to the radio. When I pulled onto Pine Crest road, I was met with a sight that enraged and frightened me at the same time.
Crap.
Jesse
Susannah's mother told me that she was out. But I didn't expect to see her drive up with him. What was she doing with him? And why did she seem so happy? I thought she hated him. She was supposed to hate him.
But then she saw me, and my whole mood changed. She smiled that special smile that seemed to be just for me when I saw it. And she seemed genuinely happy to see me. All was forgotten.
Until she leant over and gave him a hug. I know it was just a goodbye hug, and I shouldn't be jealous. She liked me. And yet, I was angry. But letting her see me like that would not be good. So I just walked up to the car, and opened the door. She gave me a hug in welcome, and a peck on the cheek, and I couldn't help but smirk at Paul. "So, Querida, where have you been? Your mother said you had something to do?"
"Oh, well, I went to apologize to Paul here, because you seemed so incapable of doing so. But it seemed it wasn't needed. You see, Paul here said that there was no one to blame but him. He seemed to be under the impression that you had every right to sock him one, or two, or I guess even three."
Dios. I didn't know what to make of it. Should I believe Slater, or not? I haven't had many personal dealings with him, but I do know some of the things that have happened. So I was a little skeptical. But his response seemed to have made Susannah happy, and at the moment, that's all that mattered to me. "Susannah, I was here to speak to you, I have some news that I wanted to share with you." Thankfully, Slater didn't need any one to say anything more. He said his goodbyes, and drove away. "Well, where would be the most convenient place to talk?" She gestured to the backyard, where we sat on the deck.
"So, Jesse, what's up? I hope nothing's wrong." How was I supposed to begin telling her? I suppose the truth is the best way, and to just get it over with…
"Well, Susannah, the truth is, I will be having a house guest this year. I was only informed of this today. If I had known, I would have told you sooner. But she is already on her way here, and I thought you could use a heads up."
"Wait! Hold up! Did you say she? What are you going to say next, that this she is Maria?" She must have seen the look on my face when she said this, because the next thing she said was "Oh, no, Jesse. She can't be! She's your cousin! That's just wrong!"
"Well, she's technically my cousin this time around. More like a good friend of the family. But the intentions our family have for our relationship are the same. I suppose that's the reason for her visit. But, she is going to be here for a whole year. And I thought you would want to prepare yourself for her. Though I must say that she is the same as the Maria you know. Very much a drama queen. She could give Kelly Prescott a run for her money. I am so sorry, Querida. I never meant for this to happen."
Suze
Well, I couldn't really be mad at him, could I? I guess I'll just have to break out my fighting gloves. No one is going to take Jesse away from me again. So I told him I understood, and that I knew he didn't mean for this to happen. And then we spent the rest of the day together, talking and laughing. What I didn't expect was Monday…
So, there you go. I'm not quite sure, but I think that that was the longest chapter I've written so far. I hope you enjoy it, and that I get more reviews than the four I got on the last chapter. But to you people who wrote me reviews, I love you all so much!
Here's a hint for what's coming up next. I do believe that the song next time will be "Don't Mess With My Man"
It should be fun…
