I couldn't get the lines to the song to line up under each other, so I did the best I could and just centered them. I know it looks weird, but it's what it says that matters.
The loud knock on the door interrupted Greg's dream of Nick. It was a good dream, but when he woke up he remembered the fight and the fact that he obviously didn't mean as much to Nick as he did to Greg, so he decided he wouldn't sleep anymore if he kept dreaming of Nick. Greg got up with a groan and shuffled to the door wearing only sweatpants. He could honestly say he was not expecting Nick to be standing on the other side of the door. 'Am I still dreaming?' Greg thought, so he pinched himself. 'Ouch...Nope, not a dream. Seems more like a nightmare anyway...' Greg didn't say anything because he was afraid he was gonna say something along the lines of 'I hate you' or 'Go fuck yourself', so he just stared at Nick. When he didn't say anything either, Greg tried to shut the door but Nick pushed it back open.
"I need to talk to you." Greg just left the door open and walked over and sat down on the couch. Nick let himself in and shut the door behind him. Nick took a deep breath and sat down next to Greg and looked into his deep brown eyes. Nick's eyes hypnotized him, so Greg didn't move when Nick grabbed his hand. There was a long silence where they just looked into each other's eyes before Nick spoke.
What would you say
If I asked you not to go?
To forget everyone
Forget everything
And start over with me
Would you take my hand
And never let me go?
Promise me you'll never let me go
"Greg..." The sound of Nick's voice brought Greg back to reality. He was sitting on his couch, holding hands with the guy who had broken his heart.
"Nick...please." Greg cut him off. His voice was a little higher than normal and his hands were shaking. "Don't do this to me again. I can't take it." He tried to get up, but Nick pulled him back down.
"Just...listen to what I have to say." Greg looked into Nick's pleading eyes and all he could do was nod.
Now the stars aren't out tonight
But neither are we to look up at them
Why does hello feel like goodbye?
These memories can't replace
These wishes I've wished and dreams I've chased
Take this broken heart and make it right
"I know I messed up. I was scared...I don't know why. I'm not ashamed of us or you."
"Then why wouldn't you tell our friends about us? Or answer me when I asked you what I meant to you?" Nick let his eyes drop to the floor.
"I don't know." He whispered.
Greg shook his head and stood up, ripping his hand from Nick's. "That's not good enough Nick. Do you have any idea how much this hurts? You mean so much to me, and yet somehow I mean absolutly nothing to you. I know how stupid this all may sound, that I'm making a big deal out of nothing, but it is a big deal. You're a big deal to me Nick. It's amazing how easily you broke my heart but it's cuz I love you so fucking much it hurts, but you can't even look at me." Nick looked up at Greg to see tears in his eyes. "What am I to you? Another notch in your belt? Someone you can have sex with, but as soon as something more starts happening you bail? You may be able to do that, but I can't. I need you Nick. All of you." Greg closed his eyes and let the tears fall. Nick slowly got up and walked over to Greg and gently wiped his tears.
I feel like
I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like
To have you here with me
I thought you should know
You're not making this easy
Greg openened his eyes and met Nick's. Nick put his hand on the side of Greg's face and gently rubbed beneath his eye with his thumb. "Greg, I mad the biggest mistake of my life when I let you go. I wasn't sure what you meant to me, but now I know."
"It shouldn't have taken me walking out to get you to realize that."
"What do you want me to say G? That I can't live without you? That's not true. I can live without you...I just don't want to." Greg's hands stopped shaking and he once again let himself get lost in Nick's eyes.
I never thought I'd be the one to say
Please dont
Well please don't leave me
I feel like
I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like
To have you here with me
I thought you should know
You're not making this easy
"You're the best thing that has ever happened to me. When I'm with you, I feel like I've never felt before. I thought I was afraid to be with you, but that's not it. I'm afraid to walk out that door and never feel ever again the way I do when I'm with you. Knowing I hurt you is the worst feeling in the world."
Greg took a step back from Nick. "I can't do this again Nick. At first everything's fine...then you don't know what you want. What if you change your mind again?"
Nick closed the gap between him and Greg by pulling Greg closer to him by his hips. "Do you have any idea how hard it is to wake up everyday and find a reason to get up? After I was buried and then Kelly killed herself and everything was supposed to be over...I didn't think I could do it anymore. I didn't want to, giving up seemed so much easier. You became my reason everyday to get up. Even if I couldn't have you, we were still friends and I got to see you everyday. But now that I had you and felt what it's like to loose you, I'm never living like that again. Loosing you hurt more than being pushed out of a 2 story window, being eaten by ants or pulled out of a coffin by your belt. I can't loose my reason to get up...I can't loose you."
Take my hand and never let me go
Take my hand and never let me go
Promise me you'll never let go
Never let go
I'll never let go
You'll never let go
Make this last forever
Nobody said anything for a long time. Nick finally gave in and figured Greg needed some time alone, so he hugged him. As he began to pull away, Greg pulled Nick back against him.
I feel like
I lost everything when you're gone
Left remembering what it's like
To have you here with me
I thought you should know
You're not making this easy
"Nick...Promise me this is it. That it's you and me now and nothing's gonna change that."
"I promise Greggo. There's nothing I want more than to be with you." Nick ran his hand through Greg's hair, then leaned in and kissed him softly. He gently slid his tongue over Greg's lips, then over Greg's tongue. The kiss was perfect...long and soft. When it became a necessity for them to breathe, Nick pulled back and began kissing Greg's neck. He ran his hands over Greg's scared back. Greg wrapped his arms around Nick's neck and ran his hands through his dark hair. They went into Greg's room and layed down on the bed. Nick pulled Greg as close as he could to him. Greg let his head rest on Nick's chest. Nick intertwined their fingers and wrapped his other arm around Greg's waist as he kissed the top of Greg's head.
"I love you Greg." he whispered against Greg's soft hair.
"I love you too."
I'll fall asleep tonight
Cuz that brings me closer to you
