Dear Diary: 12/22

You know that time when it isnt morning yet, but night is gone. That's what time it is now. Its so peaceful, not even the sun is awake...and the moon's gone to sleep. So I'm here alone. They should work out thier schedules better, the sun and the moon I mean. I wish I could talk to them. Then I wouldn't have to write in a diary. If I could talk to the Moon and the Sun. Anyway, I treid to apply for a cellphone today...but you need an adult to get a plan. I don't see why. I mean to get a job all you need is a parent's signature, you can even enroll yourself into highschool on the interent (thanks to the public library) so why is it that I need an actual adult just to get a freaking phone. Eventualy my friends are going to want to call me. I've been telling them that I can't use the phone because my parents are always on the internet, but how long are they going to believe that? Maybe I'll try another company. I could get prepaid, you don't need good credit for that ...so why would you need a parent?

That boy came back to the DIner the other day. He reminds me so much of Kaijin. He has that look in his eyes too. That happy look that Kaijin always had. But here is the thing... there is something behind that happy, just like Kaijin had. That's what made me feel so guilty. Because I always knew...but I was afraid to lose my only friend...but I ended up losing him anyway. I didn't even cry when he died. I didn't even go to the funeral. I couldn't look his parents in the eye, especially not his father. I knew that too. Even before they found the suicide note I knew. I always knew, its like I could feel it and I never said anything. I should have told the teacher as soon as I saw the bruses. But then I thought, hey I have bruises too. I should have called the police when I saw him crying behind the junglegym, but then I thought everybody cries sometimes. I should have said something. Because I knew, so I am responsible. And because I never said anything my foster father is probably hurting some other llitte girl..who isn't as strong as I was. So I am responsible, I'm just not as brave as Kaijin.

love always,

me

Dear Diary: 12/23

Christmas break starts today. I am so exited, I have been invited to 3 different parties! And hopefully I'll be able to go to all three. LIfe is great sometimes. On the down side Suiichi, (or should I call him Kurama?) came in today and I missed him! On the upside my boss said he was looking for me. On the downside I did get a lecture on personal visits. I've got a reason to look forward to work now. He is just too cute, he has the perfect face.This guy even has the perfect body..slim and tall.I wonder if he writes about me in his diary or Journal. He should! I mean he did come to visit just me at the diner right! Maybe he'll come in tomorrow again. That would be just perfect! If he does then I'll strike up a conversation. Who cares what my boss says?

Love always,

me.


Sakura was walking toAi's housewhen somebody tapped on her on her shoulder.

"oh hey Raiyu" said Sakura

"just giving you a heads up...go through the back, she's in trouble with her folks" said Raiyu

"thankyou" said Sakura

As soon as she was up in Ai's room. Ai was bawling about some mistake she had made, how sorry she was blah, blah,blah. Thank goodness for work or she would never have gotten out of there.

She stopped by the grocery store, chatted with some friends she met there and headed off to work. She worked a seven hour shift and she finally caught Suiichi and she flashed her winning smile a couple of times (then her boss yelled at her about personal time and work time) So she had to get back to work.

She finally got "home" around eleven and opened her backpack and...

"AHHH MY DIARY IS GONE"