hi,

this is my first fan fic ever for anything, well to be typed and read by any one at least. i hope you enjoy it i woked really hard on it.

Gravitation: My World

Chapter 1: Foever

"I'm home Yuki," shouted Shindou Shuichi, a pink haired, violet eyed teenager, as he entered the appartment. Shuichi had been with the famous novelist, Eiri Yuki, for almost a year. Though they had been together that long Shuichi was troubled by Yuki's lack of openess to him. He knew that the seemingly heartless writer did love him, deep down inside somewhere, but had yet to let even Shuichi, his lover, see his softer side.

"Good! Now go away," Yuki replied. Which for Shuichi translated into 'leave me be I'm working.'

"Oh but Yuki I'm bored. Can't we do something fun," Shuichi begged.

"No, I've a deadline to meet and I can't have any distractions."

"Please Yuki. It's been forever since we went out somepalce. And any way you promised yesterday that if I left you alone you'd take me someplace fun," Shuichi cried.

"I lied. Now leave me be."

"But Yuki it's been a relly long time. And you should get out and have fun, you look so pale," Shuichi wined.

"So I've got a deadline and and I'm nowhere near finished. Go watch t.v. or something." With that Shuichi went to the kitchen for a snack.

'Yuki always has a deadline. He never has time for me,' Shuichi thought pouting. After his snack Shuichi remembered that Yuki hadn't had anything to eat since lunch so he fixed him a big mug of coffe and a sanwhich.

"Yuki," Shu said timidly.

"What," Yuki shouts exasperated. At Yuki's yell Shuichi jumps and accidently droped the mug which ended up landing on Yuki's Laptop. Yuki was ready to explode before then but that just tipped the scale. "That's it, I give! Do you ever shut up do you? Are you ever anything but a pain in my ass? Well I'm sick of it, all you ever do is wine and give me a headache and make messes and ruin my things, so just leave. Leave and never come back. Ever, and I mean EVER," Yuki shouted at the top of his lungs.

"Come in," Hiro called, but Shuichi just stood there going over what had happened.

"Leave and never come back. Ever, and I mean EVER!" and with that Yuki went to their room and through everything that Shuichi owned into the biggest suitcase he could find.

Hiro walked to the door when no one opened it. "Shuichi," Hiro was stuned to find his best friend standing out side his door with a suitcase. "Come in. Are you alright dude," Hiro asked Shuichi as he looked his friend over. Then realizing that Shuichi wasn't going to walk in on his own Hiro picked up Shuichi's belongings and pulled his friend into the living room where he forced Shuichi to sit. Would you like something to drink," Hiro asked Shuichi. Shuichi only nodded.

"Hey who's that Hiro," Hiro's brother asked as Hiro wlked into the kitchen.

"It's Shuichi," he answered.

"Oh Yuki kicked him out?"

"Yeah that's the third time this week. But this time I think it's diffrent."

"why so."

"Because he has a suitcase this time," Hiro explained, "and because he looks so striken and heart broken."

"Oh," was all he got for an answer.

"Here you go. It's your favotite," Hiro said walking into the living room and sitting next to Shuichi. "It's all right Shu you can stay here tonight and go back to Yuki's in the morning." At that Shuichi began to cry again. "There, there. It's alright," Hiro said trying to comfort his friend.

"No it's not," Shuichi said when he got himself under control. "He kicked me out, but this time for good. He told me to leave and never come back. Hiro what do I do. I want to go back but he told me not to. He's kicked me out for good," and Shuichi began crying again.

It took an hour but Shuichi finally cried himself to sleep. "Man that must be rough," Hiro's brother said from the doorway.

"How long've you been there," Hiro asked.

"When he started to cry."

"Oh well. Hey bro, can you help me move him to the spare room, this couch is uncomfortable."

'Finally some peace and quiet,' Yuki thought as he sat back down. that's when the thought struck him. 'I just through him out and told him to never come back.' He began to worry.

'Oh but I've told him that before. He'll be back.'

'No he won't this time you sounded like you ment it,' said a small part of him, the part he rearlly listened to.

'Be quiet,' he told it, 'you don't know my Shuichi that well.'

'Yes I do. You're forgeting I'm part of you even if you won't listen to me,' said that small part again.

'I don't care he'll come back he always does.'

'But you through out his stuff as well.'

'So?'

'You've never done that before. He will have noticed this as well and he won't come back this time.'

"I need a beer," Yuki said out loud. "I think i've gone insane."

Shuichi woke up stiff and with a headache. 'Where am I,' he thought, then remembered what had happened last night. 'Why was he so mean' he thought as he began to cry.

"Hey you're awake," Hiro said from the door. Then he noticed Shuichi crying. "Come lets get some grub. K-san will be here if we end up late again," he said jokingly.

"I'm not hungry, and tell K-san that I'm sick," Shuich answered.

"Alright but do please eat something."

"It's almost eleven why isn't he here," Yuki asked out loud. He was standing in his (their?) three room appartmen waiting for Shuichi to come home after work.

'He's not coming back,' the nasty little voice said.

'Shut up. He will. K-san is just holding them late is all,' the excuse sounded pethict even to him (the part that belives Shuichi will come back).

'Admit it I'm right,' the nast voice said again.

'I said shut up," but this time he said it out loud. It was almost one when he realized that Shuichi wasn't coming back. "I need a drink," he said to himself again. He went to the kitchen and got a couple of beers. It was about six when he went to the bathroom to get his sleeping pills. 'I need to get some sleep tonight, tomarrow my editer will be here around seven.' And with that Yuki downed whatever was in the bottle without noticing what he was doing.

Shuichi woke up because the phone was ringing. 'Where's Hiro,' Shuichi wondered as he got up to answer it. "Hello," he said.

"Hello I would like to speak to Shindou-san"

"This is him," Shuichi said a bit timidly wondering what was wrong. He recognised that voice, it was Toma Seguchi.

"Good. Shindou-san please come to Tokyo Medical. I have some bad news," Toma's voice sounded strained.

"I..I'll be righ there," Shuichi said and hung up. "Hiro," he called then realized that it was saturday and Hiro was most likely at his perents house having lunch. 'Well it's either call a cab or walk.'

Half an hour later he arrived at the hospitol, he'd decided to take the bus. "Good you're here," Toma said. He looked tired and very stressed.

"You said you had bad news," Shuichi said timidly not knowing what to expect. He had never seen Toma Seguchi in such a state. His hair was unkempt, his eyes were dull and sunken in, his mouth was tinged with blue. Any one who had so much as met Toma would have never thought to see him like this. Another thing that Shuichi noticed was that Mika was there too. She looked to be in the same state as Toma.

i hope u enjoyed it as i said before i worked really hard on this. and I'm sorry for stoping it where i did but i believe that it builds up the anticpation for what's going to come in the next chapter. if there are n/e mistakes in this fan fic do please contact me so that i can fix them a.s.a.p.

thanx, sane 'n an insane world