hi again,

i'm hoping that if you're reading this then you enjoyed the last chapter and will enjoy this chapter. and please, please forgive me for taking so long to get this up. i've been so busy with other things i didn't have time to get on line and post this.

Gravitation: My World

Chapter 2: Bar

"You said that you had bad news for me," Shuichi repeated when Tohma didn't say any thing.

"Oh, yes," Tohma said warily. "It's about Yuki. I know what happened between you two but I thought you should know," Tomah paused trying to think of what to say next.

"What is it," Shuichi was now terrified to hear what was about to be said, but also anxious to know if something really bad had happened.

"Well there is no easy way to put it. Yuki was drunk and he had just finished his latest novel and he was taking his sleeping pills like he always does. And well he must have been either upset or extremely drunk because he took the entire bottle. The doctor says that we were lucky that Ms. Toki (Yuki's new editor) was there to pick it up or else Yuki might never wake up. Though the doctor is still unsure of weather or not he will wake up, he still has a 60 chance. And knowing Yuki as I do I'm almost positive that he will," Tohma added the last doing his best to sound cheerful.

"I...I...I see," Shuichi said trying not to cry. "Can we see him?"

"Yes the doctor said we could though he may be unconscious it will do him some good to have friends and family there incase he wakes up," Tohma answered.

"I...I...I'd to s...see him p...p...please," Shuichi said tears streaming down his face.

"Of course," and Tohma showed him into the room where Yuki was sleeping. When Shuichi sat down Tohma shut the door.

"Hi Yuki," Shuichi whispered even though he knew that Yuki couldn't hear him. "I'm sorry for bugging you, and being nothing but a headache. I wish that we were still together but I guess I would just be in the way. I'm staying with Hiro and I've decided to talk to Tohma to see if Bad Luck could go on a tour for a little while. I was hoping that perhaps after a bit of time apart we'll realize how we really feel about each other, and if after the tour we get back together I'll tell you all about it," with that Shuichi began to cry.

"Shuichi," Shuichi jumped at the sound of Yuki's voice. He looked up to see if Yuki had woken up. 'No his eyes are still closed he was probably dreaming or something,' he thought to himself.

"I'm done talking to him,' Shuichi said as he entered the waiting room.

"I call Nakano to come pick you up Shindou," Tohma said and entered the room where Yuki was. Hiro arrived about ten minutes later and drove Shuichi home with him. It was a quiet ride there only broken by the surrounding noises.

"Sorry about Yuki, Shu," Hiro said as they entered the apartment.

"It's ok. I mean it's not like we're even seeing each other now. I mean he is the one who through me out right? So why should I care what happens to him? He's the one who always hurts me, right? So why do I care so much," Shuichi said to no one in particular, and started to cry.

"It's ok Shu. He's going to be fine," Hiro said comforting his friend.

"No...it's...not," Shuichi said between sobs. "Tohma said that he may never wake up. And Yuki doesn't love me any more."

"Of course he does he must have been extremely upset to have taken all those pills."

"No. He doesn't love me he told me to never come back. Hiro he told me to leave forever. I've always been a headache for him and never given him any thing he wanted, like a night of peace and quiet," Shuichi said and got up. He went to the room that Hiro gave him to sleep in and began to think. 'I'll give Yuki what he wants. I'll leave forever.'

'Where am I' Yuki asked himself sitting up.

"Yuki! You're awake," some one cried, for a second Yuki thought it was Shuichi.

"Where am I Mika," Yuki asked his sister.

"You're in the hospital. Oh Yuki how could you do such a thing. You had us all worried. Over dosing on sleeping pills. You had every one worried. Even Tohma was in a state. Oh and poor Shuichi hasn't visited since Tohma called him to tell him what had happened. Hiroshi said that he hasn't come out of his room except to eat and got to the bathroom in nine days. Oh you had me soo worried," Mika was babbling. Then she became angry, "And how dare you make us so worried. And when you get out of that bed you are going to go see Shuichi to show him that you are ok, and then you are going to apologize for worrying him so much."

"Shuichi," Yuki murmured weakly.

"Did you say something," Mika asked.

"No. Nothing," Yuki replied.

"Ok. But as I was saying you are going to apologize to Tohma, and Tatsua for worrying them so much. Oh Yuki, you had us all so worried," Mika said before sobbing with relief that Yuki was ok.

Three days later

"What can I get for ya," the bartender asked Shuichi when he sat down.

"Something to numb pain," Shuichi replied.

"I got just the stuff. Captin Morgan, won't heal but numbs quite well." A glass of goldish-brown liquid was set into view.

"Thanks."

"No problem. You look like you need it. Been havin' a rough time or somethin'," the bartender asked.

"Yeah, you could say that," Shuichi said in a strained and tired voice.

"Hey wait a minuite," the bartender said out loud, but leaned in and wispered, "You're that singer Shindou aren't you?" Shuichi just nodded. "Well I heard about that writer Yuki, I know he's like your boyfriend or something, I'm sorry about that. I heard on the news he'll survive though," the bartender said in a questioning tone.

"Yeah he'll survive."

"Then why are you here? If I may ask."

"I'd rather not talk about it," Shu said dowing the glass.

"That bad hu? Oh well I see a lot of people come 'round here. They all had that same look in their eyes as you do right now," the bartender babled. "I'll tell you the same thing I tell them. It's better to talk about it rather than to hold it in, because to hold it in you olny make the pain you're feeling even worse."

"That's what my friend tells me all the time."

"Then your friend is a pretty wise person. Tell you what, if you like you can sit here all night and down all the boose you want, but my sugestion is to go see this Yuki fella' and talk things out with hm. I promise you you'll be felling better in no time," the bartender told him.

"But what if he doesn't want to talk to me? What if he just throws me out of the room? I wasn't exactly on his good side when this all happened' Shuichi said expresing his douts to the bartender.

"Then you will at least have tried, and then you would have a good reason to be here," the bartender turned and brought out a bottle of somthing. "And if you go and talk to him I'll let you have this on the house if you have to come back." After letting Shuichi get a good look at the bottle, it was Yegar, he continued, "this stuff numbs better than anything I have ever served here. So do we have a deal?"

"I...I," Shuichi stuttered as he thought. 'Well if Yuki doesn't talk to me I can come back and get drunk, but I don't know f I could stand it if Yuki didn't want to see me. I might die if Yuki doesn't want to be with me any more'. "Fine we have a deal...," Shuichi looked at the bartender questioningly.

"Fuji. Ayato Fuji," Fuji answered.

"We have a deal Ayato-san," Shuichi sad holing out his hand with a smile that looked like it hurt.

hope you enjoyed this chapter. please r&r i would really like to know if you liked my fan fic.

P.S.: if n/e one would be able to please give me a few good pointers as to how to write a better fan fic i would highly apreciate it.

thanx, sane n' an insane world