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Sorry about the wait but here ya go, and a slight warning to ya'll, This is gonna get kindda weird, just hang tight and you'll see that everything will be just fine… So far.
Another warning, this part contains suicide and suicidal thoughts, if you don't like don't read, plane and simple.
Poisonous Thoughts
Ch5) Ray on Turtle Island
(If the title isn't enough to make you wonder 'what the hell' then nothin' will.)
Ray's POV
At first it was black, black, black and more black but soon the cascading sounds of waves and wind caused my eyes to flutter open. I was now staring up at a clear blue sky, like the ones in the commercials for Caribbean excursions and such. I was still too tired and groggy to stand so I just laid there, the tide lapping at me feet, the exotic birds flying overhead. I sighed peacefully but then a rush of paranoia ran through me. I felt cold hard eyes staring at me.
I stood up so quick I felt dizzy and stumbled back into something hard as a rock yet it moved too easily to be one. I froze in terror, twitching slightly in fear as I looked over my shoulder. I Gasped and fell forward, shocked by the sight, I had just bumped into a giant turtle with a white mustache.
It stared blankly at me, watching me as if I was the weird one. I crawled backwards, not taking my eyes off that weird yet familiar turtle. I quickly wished I had paid more attention to my surroundings.
I bumped into yet another turtle but this one had freckles and big puppy dog eyes. I screamed in shock and jumped to my feet.
I was completely surrounded by giant turtles. One of the other turtles had Tyson's had, another had four blue triangles painted on it's face, another one had glasses perched on it's head and the last one was wearing a tiny green bowler hat.
I squinted my eyes at the turtle wearing Tyson's hat, and looked cautiously around at all of them, identifying each but still not believing it.
"Ty-t-t- Tyson?" I stuttered and the turtle turned and waddled away.
I cringed at the thought of Tyson being a turtle and drifted over to the turtle with glasses, crouching in front of it.
"Chief?" I asked still not knowing what to think of all this.
Then a thought sparked in my mind 'What if I'm a turtle!' I panicked and threw my hands out in front of me. I sighed, relieved, still human hands. I smiled weakly at the news and noticed that the Kenny turtle was giving me a strange look.
"What?" I snapped. "You think I'm weird, well just look at yourself, huh? No room to speak now, huh?" I raged then stopped, realizing I just yelled at turtle.
I collapsed dumbfounded on the ground. 'I'm losing it, I am losing it.'
"Why are you talking to the turtles, Ray?" A voice behind me asked.
I whipped around to see that Kai had magically appeared on the rock behind the Kenny turtle. He was almost radiating light and power as he sat there stoically, all knowing and almighty.
"Wow, you're hot." I murmured, trying to keep from drooling as his regal air floated my way.
"What!" Kai shouted, hoping he was hearing me wrong and almost startled off the rock.
"I said, wow! It's hot! It's very hot today!" I lied, raising my voice louder than it had to be.
"It is." Kai agreed and pulled off his shirt in one effortless move.
He shook his head, flinging luscious strands of hair in every direction then magically falling back into its proper place. I starred, too stunned and entranced by his perfect body. His smooth curves and toned arms made my mind melt in awe. The moment was all to perfect until a faint grumbling noise echoed from out of now where, but I quickly located the source. My empty stomach. I blushed furiously, trying to cover up my embarrassment with a weak laugh.
Kai laughed shortly at me and walked over so he was almost touching. Then my mouth began to act on it's own.
"Kai, I love you!" I shouted and my mouth dropped instantly. 'Why the hell did I just that out!' I bit my lip and prepared to run at the first sign of Kai ready to pulverize me.
Kai however stayed calm, confused but calm. He leaned in closer, felling my forehead.
"Ray- Ray- Ray- Ray" His voice echoing off into the distance.
Everything suddenly went black and I felt heavy, powerless and weary. I moaned as my light burned through my eyelids.
"Ray! Get the hell off me!" Kai shouted and I snapped wide-awake.
I soon discovered that I was lying on Kai's chest, one hand on his shoulder and the other buried in his gorgeous locks. Kai helped me off with a rough push and used the momentum to coward under the blankets, concealing my oh so obvious embarrassment.
"Sorry." I whispered, peeking out a small gap into Kai's fierce red eyes.
He glared questioningly at me but said nothing.
'Say something! Anything! Anything is better than nothing! I don't know what happened and… I … I… I wanna cry!' My thoughts fogged up my logic as I watch Kai turn to walk away.
"I'm going to take a shower." Kai informed me and walked woozily to the bathroom, and slammed the door shut behind him.
I shook my head and slowly crawled out, ready to skitter back in, just in case he comes out again. Seeing as it seemed safe to fully emerge I hurried out of the room, just one thought plaguing my mind.
'Ray, you fool! Why did you do that! Why did I have to go and do that!'
Kai's POV
I can't believe I woke up like that, having a love sick Neko-jin on my chest. He was quite peaceful, I shouldn't have woken him up. His small body was… comforting actually. 'Don't even think that!' I scolded my self for that thought, there was no way that I could love Ray, even if that were so, Ray's a guy and he doesn't like me in that way. I don't what think about him any more, I've always wondered, but these last couples of days have really been pushing me into believing that I do love him.
Oh forget about it, I'll just shower and forget about it.
After the shower.
I can't do this.
I emerged from the bathroom to find that luckily Ray found some place else to be. I sat down on the edge bed and looked directly at the nightstand where the bottle of poison rested. I slowly took hold of it, closing my eyes in attempt to make it all go away as I uncapped the bottle. I gulped again and looked back at the nightstand.
The stale water from a few nights ago stood there, beckoning my hand to it, and I followed, wanting this to consume me, devour me whole and leave me dead.
I exhaled deeply again as I dumped the bottle of pills into my mouth and quickly washed them all down with the fate sealing water, repeating over and over again that this was for the better.
Then my mind began to whirl, the thoughts twisting into incoherent gibberish, which was soon followed by a wave of electricity that fried my nerves, making my entire body go numb. My hands released the empty bottle and glass, they bounced when they hit the floor, rolling circles as the momentum died out.
But I couldn't tell if they were done spinning or not, everything was spinning, my mind lurked as I stared at the spazing colors and images flickering on the wall before me. My dead body flopped over; void of anything and yet nothing at all.
Ray's POV
I've been gone for quite a while, I my feel uncomfortable but after I explain to Kai I'm positive that it will all be fine. But he is Kai, but that doesn't matter, I still have to take care of him.
I was overly nervous but determined to help Kai get over this strange illness and get him to talk about those pills, it won't be easy but I have to.
I cracked the door open to see Kai flopped over the bed in a seemingly painful position. I tilted my head and approached cautiously. I was almost there when I stepped in a pool of water at the base of the bed.
I bent and picked up the empty glass and pill bottle. At first nothing registered but when it did, I went from puzzled to frantic in nanoseconds.
"Oh my God Kai!" I shouted and raced for the phone.
I dialed in 911 and relayed all the needed information. The woman on the other end was about to tell me something but I was too panicked and worried to bother listening, instead I slammed down the receiver and raced back to Kai.
I sprinted head long into our room, praying that this wouldn't become just my room. I threw open the door and collapsed next to Kai, draping my shivering body over his life one. I felt the laborious heaving of his chest as the poison began to paralyze his lungs and had to strain my hearing to catch a single heartbeat, it was so weak and pathetic I only sobbed harder.
"Kai." I cried and Kai suddenly responded by placing his hand on my back but his scattered mind and poisoned body was to weak to keep it there. Before it fully slid off I grabbed, holding it tightly in my.
"Don't go Kai, please just hold on!" I cried, cradling him in arms and crying onto his shoulder, cuz he was still my rock and I still need a shoulder to cry on.
Sorry about the wait but I sure hope it was worth it. The next chapter should be up by Friday if not then, Monday. Please R&R!
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