Nightmares
It's a dream I can never wake up from
A neverending nightmare
Why did I start to remember
all those memories now?
Right when I began to climb the steps
up with him
I began remembering my childhood
I forgot I'd been adopted
My birth mother told me words
that I can't get out of my head
Harsh and cruel words,
words that tore my heart apart long ago
From my childhood,
there are only painful memories
And yet I can't get them out of my head
Why did I start remembering
all those memories right now?
Someone, please just free me
Let me be happy
Free me from all those memories
I can't seem to escape
It's in my heart, it's the other me,
It's in my shadow.
Oh why did I start remembering
all these painful memories now?
All those words that she said
I remember them
My cheek stings as I remember
slaps were often given to me
I had forgotten how much she'd always say
the words,
"I really wish you had never been born"
Echoing in my mind, louder and louder
each time it's repeated
Why can't I stop remembering?
Why did it just start?
Someone please, I'm trying my best
to reach up to someone
just to pull them back a little
to ask them to help me
Help me, free me from these memories
I'm falling even deeper in the bottomless
pit of my childhood memories
All the memories pull me down,
I'm afraid to sink further.
The nightmares keep coming
I'm scared to go to sleep
Scared to even live.
When will I wake up
From this nightmare?
