BLUE
A fanfiction by Random-Crazyness
Chapter 3The Open
Raven awoke sometime later. Her sleep was plagued with dreams of Aqualad, in the arms of another girl. He looked at her. Ravens' lip trembled as his gaze tore her apart. Not that his stare was filled with anger, but that it was of cold indifference. As if he didn't recognize her. He turned back, towards the girl, and closed in for a kiss...It was too much. Raven forced herself out of bed, and rubbed the sleep out of her eyes. Thank goodness she had control of her emotions, or else the entire building would have collapsed as Grief went on an unknowing rampage. She could hear laughter from outside. Maybe it was time to talk to someone.
The Azar tread slowly, following the short, high-pitched gasps of Starfire, and the low, heavy bellows of Cyborg. Raven tried her best to put on a smile. Granted, it was more common for her to express herself, now that hindering her anger wasn't the focus of her life, but how could she smile, knowing that Aqualad could very well leave her?
" HEY! Raven!"
Ah, Beast Boy. sweet, sweet, Beast Boy. Apart from Starfire, Beast Boy was really the only one she could talk to. Mostly because he had no idea, but also because she felt sorry. Raven was prone to torturing him when they first met, so this was Ravens' oppurtunity to apologize. By pouring her soul out, she also got BB to loosen up about his past. It wasn't a friendship yet, but a close understanding. He knew when to leave her alone, and she knew when to laugh at his jokes. Maybe it was a friendship.
" Yo! Rae! Herbal tea?"
Cyborg. He always knew what to say or do. A mass of brawn and metal, He was quite intimidating at first, but when they got to talking. Whoa. She had always assumed that jocks were all strength, but no substance. However, Cyborg blew her away with his intellect. Not the academic intellect, which was probably due to the half robotic brain, but his insight into the mind. She guessed that instead of hindering his intuition, it heightened it. Whenever Raven was down, she turned to him. Perhaps it was time to open up.
" Why did you make me tea?"
" Because," Starfire was the one to answer. " We heard you crying."
Ravens eyes started to water. There was no hiding it now. They heard her. They knew something was wrong. Even now, that she doesnt hold her emotions in, she never cried unless something was up.
" What's wrong? "Robin shut off the television. " You never cry. You can tell us, Raven. we're your friends."
Raven took the cup of hot tea and sat down on the large circle couch.
" Guy trouble."
" Oh." Beast boy started to back towards the door." Well, I guess you and Star have a lot to talk..." The changeling made a mad dash out, but was stopped by a massive, metal arm.
" We're Ravens' friends, and WE ALL are gonna help her."
" Thanks, Cyborg. Anyway," Raven took a sip of the steaming tea. " I've been seeing this guy for a while now, and it seems to me that we just aren't clicking."
" Why would you 'click'? You are not the Zemlar snapping plant of Negamoon 5."
" Not that sort of click, Star." Robin corrected. " She means that they aren't well...I dunno working out as well as she'd hoped."
" Can I continue? Anyway, like I said, we've been seeing each other for like, 2 months now. Actually it's been more like one year, but it was on and off. It only got serious 2 months ago."
" So? Whats the problem?" Cyborg asked as he wiped down the dishes.
" I... I don't see what he LIKES about me. I mean, he's tall, handsome, dark, muscular..."
" Can talk to fish." Beast Boy added. Raven nearly dropped the tea all over herself.
" HOW DID YOU KNOW?"
" Fly on the wall Rae, fly on the wall." Beast Boy shrugged with a triumphant grin on his face.
" I'll kill you. I'll kill you and I won't leave a scrap of meat." Raven gritted her teeth.
" Kill him later." Robin leaned in closer. " So what about Aqualad? Why don't you think he finds you attractive?"
" I don't know. He's just so tall and handsome. I'm having trouble grasping that he wants ME. Cold, aloof, sociopathic me." The empath blinked back tears. " I can't believe its true."
" Ya' gotta believe its true! " Beast Boy clenched his fists in front of him. " Me and Aqualad are best friends, and I know that he isn't the type to just string someone along!"
" I thought I was your best friend..." Cyborg slumped over the counter. Everyone chose to ignore this.
" Ok, what attracted you to him?" Robin asked.
" Robin! " Starfire chimed in gleefully. " Who would not be attracted to him! He is...what is the term? 'Hot like the pockets!'" Robin growled, and leaned back into the sofa.
" Whaddya think attracted him to you?" Cyborg questioned.
" Well," Raven blushed. " He said that I don't smile enough..so I guess he likes me smile..."
"Well, it is a start...But Raven, that could not be all, there must be something more that he loves about you!"
Love, Raven thought. Well, that's the issue, isn't it? Raven didn't even know if she could 'love'. She'd never felt that emotion before, so she didn't need to hinder it, so she didn't come in contact with it, so it couldn't have existed. That was the only explanation. And since it was the only explanantion, it must have been THE explanation, painful as it may seem. Raven began to cry.
" Do not cry, Raven." Starfire dabbed at the empaths' tears. " It cannot end badly, I am sure of it."
" Listen, " Cyborg placed his large, metal hand on Ravens' shoulder. " Why don'cha sleep on it?"
" Yeah," Robin re-entered the conversation. " We can handle patrol tonight, you should go to bed."
" Thanks, you guys." Raven made her way to the door. " It really meansalot to me, thanks..."
Raven couldn't sleep. She would stay awake, lulled in and out of conciousness by the sounds of Robins' scowling, and Starfires' apologies.
