CHAPTER 4: Empty

I was rereading my first chapters and I realized…I'M SUCH A CORNBALL! Oh well…you can't help it…it's the result of reading too many fanfics. Anyway…I believe I received my first flame --…thought I'm not sure if I should consider it that…well I just gotta say that I wanted to make my fic a little different and differ on the pairings a bit. Thus Akito and Kyo and ect ect. Sooo please don't be upset if the story is creepy (believe me…I creep myself out as well --')! But don't be so mean! (sob)

THANKS FOR REVIEWING! .

Warnings: none really…cursing…Yaoi…and really not much. (Maybe Yuki bashing…but not really…if you look at it from Kyon's point of view)

Disclaimer: I want to own kyo:'( but I don't…or any other furuba characters.

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Kyo sat on the roof, gazing off towards the woods but not really looking at anything. He was thinking about what had happened downstairs. For the hundredth time he had told Haru his feelings for him….and for the hundredth time he had been ignored and rejected.

'Of course I'm rejected…I'm the cat after all. Not the perfect rat.' He let out a snort at this and buried his head on his knees. 'I wonder why the rat is always the perfect one…after all it is a rodent…people don't like rodents…they live off dirt and garbage….Kittens are much cuter, and people like them better…Cats are always good house pets…and they are smart….so why is the rat perfect…that doesn't make any sense…'

He was a little sad. Lately he had been getting depressed because his time was almost over…and he had wanted to at least have one date before getting locked up. The sheer thought of getting locked up made his stomach sick and his heart sink. The way it sunk every time Haru ignored him like that.

He hated when Haru did that. Fool him like that. Get really close to him, the way he gets close to Yuki…and seduce him. Then all of a sudden act like if Kyo didn't even exist.

Didn't Haru know how much it hurt him! It was like being taken to heaven and then suddenly being drooped back to hell!

Kyo hated that. It always left him feeling empty. His stomach no longer had those little butterflies that seem to invade him every time Haru got close. And his heart always got that little punch that hurt like hell after being left like that again.

'All because I'm not part of the zodiac...all because I'm not the stupid perfect rat! Why! Why does the rat have everything! What does it have that I don't have!'

"I DON'T EAT TRASH FOR HEAVENS SAKE!"

"ummm….Kyo are you ok?"

Kyo locked at the owner of the little voice that had heard his outburst. Tohru stood at the other side of the roof, holding a purple umbrella and looking at Kyo nervously. Kyou blushed immediately.

"Yeah…I'm fine"

"Are you sure?...It's raining and you're getting all wet…and well you just said something really weird…are you sick?" the girl said timidly and worried. Kyo looked at the girl for a second and smiled a little. Tohru seemed to be the only person in this whole house who seemed to care for him.

"I'm ok" He said, his face frowning like always.

"oh! Thank goodness!…well dinner is ready kyo-kun!" She said smiling once again and began to descend the stairs. "Oh! And kyo-kun you should change into some dry clothes so you won't get sick"

"Ok Tohru"

Once the girl was gone he looked out into the woods again...no… if he hadn't even had a chance to date the person he loved…what else was he missing!...he wasn't going to get locked up! No matter what he wouldn't allow it…even if he had to run away! He wouldn't get locked up!

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Akito looked out the window and sighted. He had had that dream again…It seemed to constantly be on his mind now. But he didn't mind. He liked it. After all, it was the only time he could remember being truly happy. His mouth instantly turned into a smile as he remembered. And he was suddenly glad he had given Yuki the strength he had….the cold he held in his heart.

"Soon Kyo…soon you will be back with me…you will love me once again…and you won't get away"

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When Kyo finally got downstairs everyone was already seated and eating. To his discomfort Haru was still there. Sitting next to the nezumi. Kyo sat down and began to eat like if he didn't give a damn. Soon enough his dinner was interrupted when he sneezed. Nobody seemed to care, until Haru spoke up.

"Are you getting a cold Kyo?"

Kyo looked up surprised at Haru. Was he actually caring!

"No." he snapped. And instantly regret it when Haru turned away and once again began eating peacefully. The nezumi on the other hand keep staring at him coldly. And Kyo began to get ticked.

"WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT" Kyo grumbled.

"Nothing you baka-neko" Yuki said calmly.

"What! Do you want to fight or something" Kyo said excited. Next to him Tohru was getting nervous and Shigure began to mumble "oh my dear house!"

"No" the rat once again said and suddenly a very cold smile that sent a chill up kyo's spine appeared on his face. "It's not worth it anymore…you always lose anyway. Don't you feel bad doing so?...Besides, I was just wondering why you're always looking at Haru" the rat stopped looking pleased at Kyo's embarrassed flush and surprised face.

"What…do you like him or something? I'm not a jealous person you know…I just want to know…do you?" the nezumi said smiling.

Haru on the other side of the table was speechless…What was Yuki doing!

"That…THAT'S NONE OF YOUR BUSSINESS YOU KUSO NEZUMI! AND BESIDES I DON'T LIKE THE STUPID COW!" Kyo screamed and with that he got up and rushed upstairs for the second time that day.

Dinner once again fell silent…Tohru was blushing furiously at Yuki's statement yet looking worriedly upstairs. Haru was glaring at Yuki while the nezumi ate calmly. And Shigure…well he simply grinned and mumbled:

"Well wasn't that interesting?" before getting a glare from both the nezumi and the oushi and quickly stuffing his mouth once again.

Yuki is sooo mean to poor Kyon! Oh poor thing!

I hope I'm not boring you guys…but I love manipulating kyo to my liking….it's sooo cool! Jajajajaja and I doing this as I go and well I have fun just writing this…I don't expect it to be a really entertaining story…but I do hope you're enjoying it. And hey! Could you tell me if my English is ok? Please!

Thanks a lot for reading and the next chapter will soon be here!