CHAPTER 5: THE SELFISH

Hi there! Sorry I haven't written in a long time but I had to study for my admission exam...that was stress! Anyways…now it's all done and I'm just waiting for the results.

Ok! This chapter was done sort of fast…and I really hope you like it…no dissing my pairings please! I believe you all know them by now. But they might change ;)

Anyway hope you enjoy the next chapter-

Disclaimer….they all apply…but I want kyo! (I would make him and Haru do lots of cutie things! )

Warnings: Definitely Yaoi! (Except if you want to imagine Akito is a girl….creepy!...Or Yuki a girl…which is not hard .), cursing, and all sorts of weird yet not too over sick stuff...ahhh! Slight OOC

"Akito-san? The cat is here as you requested"

"Let him in…and don't bother me after that or you'll be punished"

"Yes sir"

A small orange haired boy entered the dark room and looked around timidly. Only the middle of the room was dimly illuminated by the moons light that passed through the window. The shadow of the sakura tree branches falling on the floor and looking menacing to the little boy.

"Kyo…are you scared?"

The small boy looked up startled by the dark cool voice of another child slightly older than him.

"No...Akito-san" he whispered softly. And he watched as a thin figured emerged from the shadows. Akito walked slowly and let the cool moonlight wash his face, the shadows of the sakura branches crawling slowly up his body.

"No?" He asked in mock surprise. The little boy stared at him silently and shook his head slightly. He smiled when he felt a pair of arms hug him and his little arms wrapped around the other boy as well.

"that is why I love you Kyo" Akito whispered softly in his ear "because you're fearless"

Kyo closed his eyes and rested in the other boy's embrace. It was warm, and for some reason special…nobody else hugged him like that.

"Say it kyo" Akito whispered once again. And kyo looked up at the other boy smiling. Akito looked at his face for a moment, smiling back softly and he kissed the little boy's cheek gently "Say it…for me"

"I love you Akito-san"

Akito smiled once again and he hugged the boy tighter. He loved hearing those words. Nobody had ever whispered those words for him in such a gentle way…nobody had ever even whispered those words for him.

"I love you Akito-san" Kyo whispered once again and the little boy smiled softly as Akito began to kiss his face gently. As he kissed the soft little lips. And his soft graceful neck. The little boy was naïve…he didn't care if he was too young to be kissed like that. He didn't care Akito was a boy like him. He just liked to be held and kissed.

"This is our secret Kyo…I…love you too"

O.o

Akito woke with a gasp. After a few seconds he recovered slightly from his shock and looked around the room. It was just like it had been on his dream. Except for the fact that there was no little orange haired boy standing there, waiting for him. That the room was lonely and cold.

"Kyo…" Akito whispered softly and he trembled slightly as he felt the name echo quietly and the cold loneliness of the room. He felt cold…and he knew it wasn't because of the rainy weather outside…he felt sad, desperate and alone.

Cold tears trailed down his white cheeks slowly. He brought up a hand and whipped them off, nobody had ever seen him cry…and nobody ever will. Yet, when he was alone he did it often. He hated being alone.

"Why did you forget me Kyo?"

O.o

"If I jump off…do I necessarily have to land on my feet?"

Kyo asked this aloud as he stood on the edge of the roof in school. After the little scene Yuki had made for him, he didn't want to be anywhere near the house. And so, he ran for the school. The rain felt harshly all around, soaking him wet to the bone. But he didn't care. He looked down the 7 floors below him as if in a daze. Tilting his face he wondered 'hmmmmm…cats don't always land on their feet do they?'

He wondered why he never tried it before. He remembered when his little neighbours used to take their cat to the roof in an attempt to drop him and experiment themselves if this rumour was true. Yet, Kyo never allowed them to. Whenever he heard the cat meow for help, he would rush as fast as he could to save him.

'Damn…I should have seen if it was true…but I don't think so…this is very high'

He leaned over the edge, as if to jump off. But suddenly another bunch of thoughts assaulted his mind.

'What if it's not true…and I land on my face….and cats have nine lives…or is it seven…so if I fall off…I wouldn't die…and I'll suffer terrible pain. Damn!'

He looked angrily down at the floor. And he was so busy cursing the mysteries of life and cats that he didn't notice when a pair of hands placed themselves on his hips.

"Are you attempting suicide kitten?"

Kyo jumped startled and he would have fallen off the roof if it wasn't for the arms holding him in place.

"HARU! WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU! YOU SCARED THE SHIT OUT OF ME!" Kyo screamed when he noticed who the owner of the voice was, and he blushed a little when he realized he had admitted being scared.

"Sorry kitten, just didn't want you to jump off" Haru said with a smirk.

"Like if you care" Kyo mumbled and he looked away. "What are you doing here anyway?"

"I was walking back home…but I ended up in school for some reason." Haru looked confused. Kyo sweat drooped slightly.

"so you got lost?" Kyo murmured. And Haru nodded with a smile on his face.

"yeah! And then I looked around for help and I saw you up here"

Kyo stayed quiet. He was trying really hard to get a glare on his face for the oushi. Or scream at him. Or do something he always did when mad. But he was too tired to do so….and irritated.

"sooooo….are you going to stay up here?" Haru asked coolly and kyo looked at him again. Even thought his face didn't show it, deep inside kyo was mad. Haru wasn't here looking for him like deep inside Kyo really wished Haru was. Haru was here just because he needed help.

"what do you care?" He spat. And Haru looked a little surprised.

"well, if you stay up here…you'll get sick" Haru said softly. And kyo looked up at him startled. Haru didn't know why, but the boy looked sort of hopeful for a moment.

'Is he saying that because he cares about me!' Kyo thought excitedly. And for a second he felt a soft flutter in his chest.

"Plus I would like to get someplace warm myself" Haru added quickly and Kyo looked down at the ground again.

'Ok, hopes are crushed'

"Well, I'll take you to the main house stupid oushi…come on" Kyo said tiredly and he turned around not wanting to face the other boy.

Haru frowned. He knew kyo got tired when it was raining. But he was acting really out of it right now.

"kyo are you ok?" He asked concerned.

"Yeah…why shouldn't I be?" Kyo said angrily, yet he still didn't face the other boy.

"You're acting sort of weird"

Kyo turned around quickly and Haru took a steep back when he looked at the boy's angry face.

"So now you notice?" Kyo spat fiercely "how surprising! Must be because the stupid rat isn't here right? Otherwise you would never notice me! What do I matter if the almighty Yuki is here to love you?" Kyo was now screaming angrily and the oushi was more than startled at Kyo's outburst.

"I never mattered! Why should I? I'm the cat after all! After all those years I cared for you! I helped you! I never called you stupid! Cause you were like me! Different! Judged! And just because the stupid rat says you're not an idiot you turn away from me and idolize him!"

Kyo was now breathing heavily and he felt he was on fire. He couldn't really see anything anymore but the confused boy in front of him. Suddenly Kyo realized what he had done and turn around ashamed. He couldn't help but think he had been a weak idiot. He was humiliated of letting his little outburst out.

And so Kyo did the first thing that came into mind. He ran.

Haru watched as the boy began to run away from him as if he had done something. Why was the orange head teen so stupid? He didn't get it! What had he done wrong!

'Stupid cat! Here I am concerned for him and he ditches me!'

O.o

Kyo ran as fast as his legs could take him. He wasn't aware he had ran into the forest until he tripped on a branch and fell on the muddy floor below him.

"DAMN DAMN DAMN DAMN!" He screamed and he began to punch the mud over and over again. He was furious…more than furious…but not with Haru. He was furious with himself. For being so weak.

Kyo stooped attacking the ground after a few minutes and just sat there breathing heavily. He suddenly gasped when he realised he had tears running down his face. Or at least he thought so. It was raining so hard he could hardly see anything. He was also covered in mud from head to toe. So he wasn't sure, he couldn't remember what it felt like to cry. He had cried when Tohru had discovered his real form…but he couldn't really remember that either.

He sat there for a long time, until he was tackled by something. He gasped when he felt the air knocked out of him and he looked up at his enraged aggressor. Haru was sitting right above him. His eyes slitted and obviously furious. His mouth was sneering as he pinned Kyo to the ground. It was black Haru.

"NOW YOU STUPID CAT! YOU'RE GOING TO APOLOGISE FOR EVERYTHING YOU DID TO ME AND YUKI! UNDERSTAND! AND YOU'RE NEVER GOING TO INSULT YUKI EVER AGAIN! CAUSE I LOVE HIM! AND NOBODY INSULTS WHAT I LOVE!"

"I LOVE YUKI!"

Haru screamed in fury as he took Kyo's shoulders a mercilessly slammed him to the ground. The other boy stayed quiet. He didn't even move as his taller aggressor smacked him against the brown mud over and over again.

"GOT IT! APOLOGISE RIGHT NOW! APOLOGISE! FOR YUKI!"

Haru scream as he shook Kyo. He noticed Kyo was defenceless beneath him and waited for the boy's answer with a smirk on his face.

"ANSWER YOU STUPID CAT!"

"….."

"ANS.."

"sorry…."

That apology sounded frail against the wind and rain. Yet Haru had heard it fine, and instantly the smirk was erased from his face. He hadn't expected Kyo to actually apologise. He thought this was going to be different. That the fiery teen would smirk, say some mean remark, and punch Haru back. He expected everything from Kyo except this.

"sorry…."

That voice was sad. Guilty and Haru just stood there shocked.

"Sorry"

"Stop…" Haru growled and looked at Kyo angrily hoping that would make the teen stop.

"Sorry…" Kyo whispered. And Haru just glanced back. Why was the older teen apologising? What had he done? Did Haru make him fell guilty?

Haru was so startled that he didn't notice when Kyo had slipped from his grasp. The orange haired teen got up and leaned against a tree. Haru didn't know it. But kyo now did. He remembered what crying was like now and he was sure he was doing it at the moment. Kyo's heart was hurting. And he openly cried because of it.

But Haru wouldn't notice.

"Sorry….I care for you…I was selfish….I wanted you to care for me too…but I didn't give a damn about you…sorry…I ignored you loved Yuki…I forgot you're happy with Yuki…I…I want you to be happy Haru…Even if I'm not with you, or if you don't care for me."

'I wasn't supposed to break in front of you…I was supposed to be strong'

"I'm sorry Haru" Kyo mumbled softly and he began to walk away.

Haru just sat there looking as the older boy began to leave. He didn't know what to say...or do for that matter.

'Did Kyo just say he liked me?'

O.o

Akito watched the rain as it slid slowly down the glass of his window. He didn't like the rain. It didn't let him see a good view of the outside. It made the room dark and cold.

But then again, it was always dark and cold in that room.

Akito tilted his head to the side and a thin white finger traced the trail of a small raindrop.

"I can't wait…I thought I could but I can't." He whispered softly. And suddenly a smile slowly appeared in his face.

"I can't…"

"Sorry Kyo…but I'm bringing you back"

O.o

OOOOOOOOOK….

I sort of hate this chapter...was it just me or did it sound like some crappy cliché. Oh well…I just wanna get to the angst and action quickly before I lose love for Furuba and interest in writing a story about it. So without anymore to say…Poor Kyo! But I love you and you'll be happy in the end…I promise!

Jajajaja…I was actually rereading my story and I found myself getting pissed at Haru! How could someone not love my KYO!

Gezz! Stupid Haru! Jeje I love HaruxKyo…but things are turning out this way…I don't know why.

To all of the readers who were disappointed with this chapter: Sorry…please no flames.

Alas, now that I'm done apologising…Review! . (I always review for you…so please do the same for me)