BLUE

A fanfiction by Random-Crazyness

Chapter FiveThorns on a rose

Raven lay awake on the roof. The sun had just risen, and she knew nobody would be awake for five more hours. She breathed in the salt air, rising from the ocean, and remembered. She was hoping to forget. Forget the unforgiving memories of the break up. Raven inhaled more salt air. Damn, it even smelled like him. He had wanted to talk, he was surrounded by those girls...they looked like her...Maybe she had gotten boring. Maybe he wanted a 'newer' model. The air became stale and painful.

" I need to talk to someone."

Aqualad trudged up the stairs. Usually, when he went to see Raven, he got home before anyone woke up. Judging by the light outside, it was 3 or 4. All he wanted was sleep. A sleep so deep that it would melt away all of the pain and hurt and he could start over fresh.

" WHERE THE HELL HAVE YOU BEEN!"

Oh, Damn it all.

" Hi, Bee. How are you?"

" Oh, just fine. Considering me, Speedy, Zam and the twins had to take care of like, 5 fricking missions without you! Where did you go that was SOOOO important an' time consuming that you just got here? And why the hell are you dressed like that?"

Bee must have been angry. She never used 'hell' when the twins were around.

" Bumblebee eso esta mas 'rawr'." Mas uttered to his twin.

" Vaminos." Menos ushered mas ot of the kitchen.

Aqualad watched the twins dash out. They were so carefree and happy. He turned to the panoramic window and watched the sea, dancing but calm. He wanted to leave again. But for good. He wanted to return to that little grotto underneath the sea, where there was no one to see, to talk to, to break your heart...

" EXCUSE ME!"

" Raven?"

Someone called out to her. The Azar woke up from her sleep. She must have dozed off. She quickly scanned the area for anyone, when her eyes settled on a small green figure. He was short and lanky, like a plant that was still growing.

" Beast Boy?" ravens eyes widened with surprise. "What are you doing here?"

" Well, duh, I was looking for you! I got worried since you didnt come out of your room." He scratched the back of his head in nervousness.

Raven blushed. It was the first time anyone had ever said that they were worried about her in a situation that wasnt fatal...no, wait. This was fatal. Her heart was beginning to shatter, and she'd die. No matter how cliched it was, she'd die.

" I'm fine, " she blurted out, hoping to get rid of his expression. "I was just thinking."

" Oh, well..." He stared at his shoes. " I just wanted to know, if you'd like to go to the mall with me? Its been a while since we've spent time together. I kinda miss talking to you."

Raven blushed slightly. He was missing her. Just thunking that almost washed away the pain. Someone wanted to be near her. Wanted to talk to her, to spend time with her.

" Lets go."

" So anyway, when I got to the store, they had just ran out of tofu dogs and..."

Beast Boy was a real treat to be around. He had a devil-may-care attitude and was always saying something that increased others intrigue. Raven took another sip of her diet coke. They had just seen Hostel, and although she found it quite hysterical, BB was on the verge of tears as soon as it ended. She could tell he was rambling on about random things so he could get his mind off of the torture, and Raven didnt mind at all. It was nice to listen for once.

" So, Raven, whats the scoop on you and Aquadude?"

A right hook to the glass jaw.

" Excuse me?" Raven asked, as if she hadn't understood.

" Did he ask you to marry him yet?" BB raised his eyebrow.

" Umm..." She could feel the blood rushing to her cheeks. Raven had wanted to AVOID this conversation. " Uhh... I'm, gonna go and use the bathroom..." She abruptly got up and almost knocked over the cardboard cut out of a geisha.

" ...ok..."

The theater bathroom was hardly a comforting place. The tiles were cracking, the floor was littered with liquid and used toilet paper, and the walls were covered in grafitti that seemed to pierce her very being with every heart with 2 peoples names in it. Raven pulled her feet up onto the toilet, and reached into her bag. She had hoped that shed never have to do this again, but it seemed to be her only comfort in the entire world. She brandished a small, sharp, safety pin, and dragged it across her wrist. She winced at the pain, but sighed at the release she felt with the first drops of blood. Pain, and bliss. Raven watched the crimson fluid drop onto the hideous blue of the tile, and was reminded again of her shattered heart. Another slice. All of this pain and torment over one simple word. :Love. Damn it all. No love, no relationships, no happiness. Just a shell, crying out for the emotion.