CHAPTER 7: JEALOUSY
Hi there! I'm soooo sorry I took so long to update but guess what? I made it to college! Yay! I'm so happy! Jejeje so basically I had alot of work to cath up and many test to do. Also i came upon this evil writter's block...ect ect ect.
Anyway...this chapter consist on a series of flash backs. Yes...flashbacks, I dont know what i was smoking when i wrote this but oh well.
To all my reviewers: I love you guys so much! Thank you for not flaming and thank you for reading my story.
Remember...we love kyo! Jajajaja XD
Disclaimer: I down't own Fruits Basket or Kyo or Anyone.
Warnings: angts, violence, Yaoi, OOC (i think).
O.o
"Kyo…how old are you now?"
"10"
"wow…you're getting old"
A small giggle broke the silence of the room. It was sweet and innocent yet strong at the same time.
"I like it when you laugh like that"
"Really?"
"Yes."
"Kazuma likes it too…he says I look better when I smile than when I frown…"
"Don't talk about Kazuma when we are together." A cold voice snapped and the young sweet one stilled. For a small moment a smaller body trembled and the bigger one hugged it tighter.
"You're not scared are you?"
"No…I'm never going to be afraid of you Akito, I promised."
"then why are you trembling?"
"Why don't you let me talk about someone else when I'm with you?"
"I want to think you don't belong to anyone but me. That you have eyes for no one but me. That you smile for me and me only"
"Akito-san…that sounds weird" Kyo laughed again and bended over covering his stomach with both hands. The older boy on the other hand, stayed still and watched the other boy laugh.
He leaned over the younger boy's ear and whispered softly in it.
"But it's the truth…I don't want anyone to see that smile Kyo. Just me, me and me and no one else. I want it to be mine. I don't want to share it with anyone else."
The younger boy stilled when he heard this. Yet Akito took no notice as he wrapped his arms around him tighter and kissed him lightly.
O.o
Akito stood alone in his balcony…a small bird perched in his finger singing softly. He smiled at it and watched it as it sang. The breeze blew softly on him making his hair flow away from his face. The face tilted to the side, Akito sat on the wooden floor and sighted.
"You know" he whispered to the little bird "I feel a little selfish".
The bird jumped a bit around, not listening to a word he said. Yet, he went on speaking to it as if it were going to answer sooner or latter.
"But I can't help it…If they noticed how special he is…they'll want him. And I'll never see him again."
The boy's voice broke for a moment and he looked down at the wooden floor. His face hidden by dark bangs of hair that where slightly blown by the wind.
"I'm afraid…I don't want to…I wont let them take anymore from me. They took my family, my health, and if they notice how much I care for him…they'll take him too."
"And I'll be alone again…"
The breeze blew stronger this time and a few autumn leaves rustled. It was deadly quiet again. And cold. The cold never went away. Akito felt like he was freezing inside and out. Yet he didn't move. His face never left the wooden floor, as the minutes passed by.
A few birds flew above him, and the small bird in his arm stretched its wings ready to join them. It softly fluttered towards them. But just as it was about to get out of reach, a strong grip caught it. The knuckles pressed it so hard they were white and shaking.
They boy returned softly towards his room. His kimono dragging behind him, his dark hair flowing lightly. He let his grip relax and the small bird fell to the floor without moving.
"I won't be left alone…never again..."
O.o
"Kyo!"
The orange haired boy turned softly to look at the young boy running towards him.
"Hi Haru!" He smiled and caught the boy in a tight hug. Both boys laughed as they fell to the ground with a soft thud.
"ught! Haru you're heavy" Kyo muttered with a smile and the other boy rolled off him.
"Where you've been…I looked for you yesterday but Kazuma said you were out"
"Yeah…I had to go somewhere"
"Where?"
"Cant tell" Kyo said with a grin and tackled Haru once again into the grass.
"Hahahaha…you're such a jerk! Come on tell me!" Haru insisted and he rolled over pulling Kyo underneath him. The other boy smiled and looked off to the side.
"Can't"
"Why not?"
"it's a secret" Haru pouted as he sat on Kyo's stomach. He crossed his small arms and stared at the boy beneath him.
"Why don't you want to tell me…you don't even tell Kazuma…"
Kyo face suddenly got serious and he tried to get up only to be pushed down again.
"Kyo…are you a punk?"
"No"
"Do you have a girlfriend?"
"No!"
"Are you some sort of thief?"
"NO!"
"Then where do you go?"
"None of your business Haru"
"I thought I was your best friend."
"You are"
"Then why don't you tell me!"
"Because I can't!" Kyo pulled Haru roughly off him and stood up quickly. He began to walk away but Haru stopped him again.
"Kyo…forget about it…sorry I asked" Haru apologized quickly and Kyo smiled. He and Haru had been best friends ever since the two toned boy started going to the dojo. Since then, they had found too much in common. Including their hate for the rat.
And thus, Kyo could never be mad at him for more than five minutes.
"You don't have to tell me"
Kyo smiled at his friend gratefully.
"…but are you ok…you wont get hurt right? It's nothing bad?"
Haru's voice was anxious, worried. He was looking at his friend wide eyed and expecting an answer. Kyo stopped and stared at Haru. He wanted to answer. To say no. But he couldn't…he wasn't sure why but he simply couldn't. Lately Akito had been acting…strange….In a way Kyo didn't understand.
"You won't get hurt, right kyo? It's not something bad…?" Haru asked again tightening his hold on the older boy. Kyo didn't answer. He looked down at the ground, as if questioning the answer itself.
"No Haru…I won't get hurt" Kyo said slowly and turned to look at Haru with a big smile.
"You sure?" Haru asked relieved yet still a bit anxious…Kyo smiled once again and tilted his head lightly to the side.
"No. But don't worry I'll be fine."
-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-
"Hatsaharu! "
Hatsaharu's mother trotted quickly towards both boys looking distressed. Haru looked up at his mother with a frown. He didn't like it when she interrupted his playtime with Kyo.
"What are you doing here mom?"
"Don't talk to me like that" Haru's mom snapped as she grabbed his wrist and pulled him "come on we're leaving"
"huh? Why?" Haru screeched outraged and slipped his hand away from her grasp.
"You're not supposed to be here Haru" Haru's mom suddenly looked at Kyo and turned away as if upset.
"What! Why not?" Haru asked outraged feeling his black side rise slowly. Kyo watched the exchange silently. His face had remained blank for most of the conversation until now; he was upset Haru had to leave.
"I'll tell you later, now come on"
"NO! You're gonna tell me why not, right here and right now or I won't move!"
Haru's mother looked pretty angry now. And Kyo thought it was amusing that she seemed like she was about to rage and cry at the same time. Either way he stayed quiet, hoping Haru had won the fight and would be able to stay more time.
"Fine, I'll tell you why. Because you're not supposed to be playing with HIM." Haru's mom pointed to Kyo and both boys looked surprised by her little outburst.
"Why not?" Haru asked angry.
"Akito's orders…nobody is supposed to talk to the cat, get along with him or anything at all"
At these words Kyo paled. He couldn't understand. In his young head he was pretty confused as to why Akito would say that...
"What! Why not! Is Akito crazy! I won't stop talking to kyo just because of him!"
"Orders are orders Haru, and I don't want to get punished. Now please come with me"
"No I want to stay here!"
Haru was pretty angry now and his mother seemed like she wanted to sob. She turned away and sniffed lightly. Kyo looked at the woman with disgust …he had never liked her much.
"Haru…you are always disobeying and hurting me. Do you want your mom to get punished! Or your dad!"
Haru's face suddenly turned from furious to outraged.
"No!"
"Then please just this once, do what I say!"
Haru turned to look at his distressed mom and felt slightly guilty. He didn't want his mother to be sad. Or anyone he loved. After all, his parents were always upset because of his black side. But they still take care of him.
"Fine mom. Were leaving…just don't cry anymore."
Haru turned apologetically to Kyo who looked just as upset.
"Sorry Kyo...Can't stay. But I'll come back again."
Kyo felt really upset. Haru was leaving after all. He had been looking forward to meeting with Haru all weekend. He didn't understand why this was happening. He looked up as Haru got up and held his mother's hand. They both walked away slowly, Haru's mom still sniffing.
"Haru!" Kyo called the other boy who turned to look at him.
"You'll come back soon right…to play?"
Haru smiled and nodded lightly.
Kyo smiled too and felt contented once again.
He and Haru were best friends; they couldn't be separated just because someone said so.
Even if that someone was a person Kyo cared deeply about.
Sure, Kyo loved Akito…but with Haru it was different...Haru was his best friend; they had been for a long time. Haru was like a brother, maybe even more. Kyo didn't know what to call him. And he was pretty sure Haru cared deeply about him too.
Thinking about that made Kyo very happy. The happiest anything had ever made him feel.
And so he smiled and patiently waited for Haru's next visit.
Which never happened…because that same week Hatsaharu meet the rat of the zodiac.
O.o
Kyo waited…
Waited…
And waited…
Yet he never came. Kyo sat by the dojo's door, his little legs crossed, his arms resting on his lap. His little face troubled and sad. As Kazuma's students passed by they patted his orange head lightly and walked out leaving the child and his guardian alone.
Kazuma sighed. He hated it when Kyo looked this sad. When the frowning active boy, sat by the door looking depressed. He walked up to the boy and knelt next to him. Kyo took little notice of Kazuma and keep looking out the door.
"You shouldn't sit here…it's freezing…you might catch a cold."
Silence was all that greeted Kazuma. He looked at the boy and noticed he was blushed a bit... Kazuma frowned and tenably reached out a hand towards kyo's forehead.
"Kyo! You're sick! Come on I gotta get you in bed!" Kazuma tried to lift the boy, but Kyo remained as hard as stone. After a few attempts Kazuma sighed and shook the stubborn boy lightly.
"Kyo, you can't stay here! We gotta move you! why don't you want to move!"
Finally the orange haired boy turned to look at him coldly.
"I'm waiting" He said softly and turned back towards the door.
"Waiting? For what!" Kazuma asked in disbelief as he attempted to move the boy again only to fail miserably.
"I'm waiting" Kyo mumbled sadly and Kazuma sighted.
"Kyo…"
"Do you think he's busy?" he was interrupted by the boy again who looked at him tearfully.
"Yes, he is and when he comes back he'll want to play with you, but if you're sick, you won't be able to do that." Kazuma said softly and he was finally able to pick the child up and carry him to his bed.
"But it's been a days! And he hasn't come back!" the little boy sniffled " and everyone is acting so weird…nobody wants to talk to me anymore…not kgura, or momiji, or anyone…it's like...like that time…when she left me!"
The little boy began to sob and kazuma rocked him gently. When the sobs turned into soft little sniffs kazuma placed the boy in his bed and brushed the orange strands gently.
"I'm going to call the doctor…wait here ok?"
The little boy didn't say anything. He simply stared at the roof without any expression at all…just stared.
Kazuma walked out the room worried. He knew very well why Haru didn't come anymore. It was the same reason none of the other Sohmas came anymore…because Akito had ordered it.
Kazuma signed sadly. He knew it was because Kyo was the cat…the same thing had happened to his grandfather…he had been an outcast…
The outcast of his family…
The one who was ignored and left out.
'I'm sorry Kyo…this is how it begins…I don't want them to hurt you…but what can I do!'
Kazuma picked up the phone and dialled the Sohmas' doctor. As soon as he answered Kazuma asked him to come.
"I'm sorry, but I can't help you"
"What? What do you mean sir?"
"Well, you're asking me to care for the cat…I can't do that"
"But…but you're the family's doctor! You're supposed to see him"
"I won't. Now if you excuse me I got some real and more important sohmas to care for"
"WHAT! BUT HE'S A SICK KID!" Kazuma practically screamed into the phone, but the other man had already hanged up. Kazuma sighted irritably, he didn't want to believe some people were that evil, that ignorant…but apparently, they were.
"Hello"
" Good afternoon Hatori?"
"Yes"
"I wish to speak to Akito-san"
"What for?"
"A matter of emergency"
"Akito-san is indisposed right now…if it's a matter of importance you can tell me"
"Kyo's really sick, I called the family doctor but he refused to help Kyo"
The silence on the other side of the phone angered Kazuma…his child was sick and everyone just chose to ignore him.Like if it didn't matter! He was about to speak again when an angry voice interrupted. At first he just stood there shocked, unable to recognize the voice, that is until he realized it was still Hatori.
"He refused to what?" the voice demanded, and Kazuma just stood there shocked. It was the first time he had ever heard Hatori mad.
"He refused to come and check Kyo" Kazuma said slowly.
"………"
"Hatori?"
"Wait there…we'll arrive in about 20 to 30 minutes"
"Thank you so much Hatori"
"I'll see you there"
As soon as Hatori hung up Kazuma headed for the kitchen, got a cloth and a basin with water, which would be useful to calm the fever.
But which he drooped as soon as he realized the child wasn't there anymore.
O.o
"Who's there?"
Akito's smooth voice broke the silence like a sharp knife. The young boy looked around the room with his dark eyes, lean on hurting anyone who dared to disturb him.
"Why did you do it" A younger voice asked. Akito's eyes brightened as he heard it. He loved that voice.
"Kyo" He whispered and looked around the room looking for the source of the voice.
"You said you loved me" The little voice sounded so hurt. Akito froze on the spot.
"What…what do you mean…I do" Akito answered…for the first time in his life, unsure.
He looked around the room, but all he could see was darkness. It was the darkness that scared him.
"Kyo?"
"You said you loved me"
"I do! I still do!" Akito felt this horrible sense of fear. A feeling so new, he was afraid of it itself.
Only Kyo could cause that in him.
"So why did you do it!" The voice sobbed and Akito found the source near the door. He could barely see the shape of the little boy standing there, looking angrily at him.
"why did I do what?" akito asked desperately…yet he knew what he was doing was foolish…he had to keep his cool…and calm the other boy down.
"You told them not to speak to me ever again, to ignore me, to HATE ME!"
Kyo walked out of the shadows, his eyes looked betrayed, yet angry at the same time.
"I did it because I love you" Akito said softly, as if it was the most obvious and brilliant idea he ever had. He smiled and tried to hug Kyo, but the other boy only pushed him away.
"SO YOU HURT ME!" The boy screamed and Akito stood there confused.
Why was Kyo angry?...Akito was only protecting what he loved. Keeping them away. So they wouldn't try to take him away. Akito hated that feeling he got when the others, like that stupid rat, looked at Kyo with love.
He hated it.
He punished the rat.
He would punish everyone who dared made him feel that again.
Jealousy.
"Kyo, you don't need them. All you need is me! That's all. Me!"
Akito said softly and yet again he tried to hug the boy only to be pushed away again.
"NO! I NEED THEM! I NEED HIM! I WANT HIM TO BE WITH ME AGAIN! HE'S SPECIAL!…I LOVE HIM!"
They were strong words for a kid. Way too strong. Yet none of the sohmas were ever really children. And Akito just stood there frozen. Unable to collect what Kyo had just said.
'Did he just say…he loved someone else?'
Akito stood there…his heart had stooped. So had the wind, and time for him. Even the darkness and cold had become steady. Just waiting for him to act. To say something.
The boy in front of him was sobbing, sobbing for somebody else. And the salty tears felt to the floor taunting him. Smiling softly at him and taunting him.
"Who…who do you love?...I thought you said you loved me"
Kyo stooped sobbing as his spine sent shivers all over his body. Akito's voice…was furious.
No….worse than that….
It was to the point of deadly.
"What…." Kyo said feebly. But the other boy was shaking in fury.
"Who!"
"no…." Kyo moaned softly. And tried to walk away, but the other boy caught him by the sweater and pushed him against a wall.
Kyo cried out softly. And Akito's sob followed soon.
"You said you loved me!"
"I DO! AKITO SAN YOU'RE HURTING ME!"
"SO HOW CAN YOU LOVE SOMEONE ELSE MORE THAN ME…HOW CAN I NOT BE ENOUGH!" Akito screamed and he slammed the smaller boy against the wooden wall.
"Your are enough Akito san…but I love you differently…I love you…but I'm not in love with you" the younger boy said through tears.
He wanted to be honest to Akito. Because he still loved him. He was special. He didn't want to lie. He knew the difference between his love for Akito and his love for Haru. In his innocence, he wanted to be honest to him. He wanted Akito to understand.
But Akito only hear the words 'not in love with you' and he felt his heart shatter. He felt the heat in his body rise, when he stared into the face of the little traitor. The little boy who lied to him like everyone else.
"YOU LIAR!" He screamed and he slapped the boy so hard he hit the stone floor.
"AKITO SAN!" Kyo cried and he stared at the boy above him in horror.
"NO! WHO IS IT! HE'LL PAY! I SWEAR HE WILL!" Akito yelled furious as he stroke another blow at the young boy who tried to protect himself.
Kyo knew…if he spoke…who else would be punished…
He would stay quiet…even if it killed him.
"AKITO SAN! PLEASE! LISTEN!"
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!"
O.O
Yuki sohma rested in his bed. He was having a nightmare. In it Akito screamed and screamed…and someone else sobbed…yet no one heard him.
Yuki knew both were suffering…he could fell it. One had a broken heart….the other tried to protect his feelings…to stay honest.
To love for real.
Who was who…Yuki wasn't clear. He hugged his pillow softly and sobbed into it. He knew he wasn't the other person in his dream…he didn't defend anything…love anything…he was just there….but he sobbed.
He sobbed for the other poor person.
And even for Akito.
O.o
Hatori was tired. Exhausted. Maybe even more. He had coaxed the stupid doctor to go see Kyo.
He had screamed at Kazuma for loosing him.
And he had looked for the boy all night.
And now, he had to go see Akito. Make sure he didn't need the doctor and do his stupid little errands.
Without sleeping.
He entered the room quietly. And stood there frozen.
Something seemed wrong.
"Akito san."
"He won't wake up Hatori" Akito moaned softly. His voice muffled as he hid his face on the robes. Hatori just stood there frozen, Akito was sobbing quietly.
"What?" Hatori asked softly. But Akito keep sobbing.
"I didn't want to hurt him! It just happened!"
Akito shook, yet Hatori didn't move. He looked around the room. And stopped dead when he noticed someone else was in the room.
Hatori ran towards the small form. And something on his stomach sank when he noticed who it was.
"Kyo!"
Akito keep sobbing.
"I didn't! But I was so angry!"
Hatori looked terrified at the boy. He looked horrible. He was really beaten up. He had bruises everywhere and Hatori was sure more than one bone was broken.
Hatori turned to look at Akito darkly. But the other boy was just crying there. Sobbing madly and mumbling the same things over and over again.
Hatori picked Kyo up softly, but a small poof interrupted and he now had a small kitten to carry. He slowly walked out of the room and closed the door behind him.
Akito just watched in horror as the shadows appeared again. And he sobbed….
"I'M SORRY KYO! I SORRY!"
O.o
Kazuma sat by Kyo's side all day, and most of the night. He held the little bandaged hand and felt something tighten in his chest as he looked at the young face. So bruised and hurt.
Kyo wouldn't have any scars…not on his face…but his heart, that would be different.
A hand rested on his shoulder and he turned softly to the owner. Hatori stood there. His face passive, yet not unkind.
"You should rest" Hatori said quietly. And Kazuma smiled softly.
"I don't want to leave him alone"
"I'll take care of him…otherwise you'll get sick too…and the doctor is giving us a hard time"
Kazuma smiled once again stood and vowed softly to the younger boy.
"Thank you Hatori kun"
Hatori nodded softly and sat next to the orange haired boy as Kazuma left.
He watched Kyo for an hour. And notice the boy twitched once in a while. Hatori looked at his hand. Kazuma had been holding it…
He placed his hand on it and squeezed gently. The boy stooped twitching.
Hatori didn't know why, but he smiled.
He brushed some orange strands away and watched sadly as the boy winced.
After and hour or so Kyo softly opened his eyes. And turned weakly to look at Hatori, who was looking out the window distractedly.
"Hatori kun?"
Hatori turned to look startled at the little boy.
"Ah Kyo…you're awake"
"Hmm"
"How do you feel?" hatori asked gently and he noticed the little boy's eyes glazed over in sadness.
"I'm such a bad person" He sniffed gently and winced as the action made his chest hurt.
"Kyo don't say that" hatori said softly, unsure of what Kyo was talking about.
"I am! I'm a liar! I didn't realize it till yesterday! Akito is right! I am a monster!" Kyo sobbed.
Hatori looked at the boy sadly.
"No Kyo…you're just a kid"
"No…I!"
"Kyo…calm down" Hatori mumbled and he hugged the boy. Kyo just froze….what else could he do…he never thought Hatori was the kind of person that hugged.
"What happened Kyo?" Hatori asked softly and the little boy, being young and naïve couldn't hold it in. He told Hatori everything.
When he finished, Hatori just stood there shocked. He didn't understand. Akito…had fallen in love?
"I didn't mean to hurt anyone…" Kyo said softly "I love akito san too…just not that way. I got afraid sometimes. But I don't care…even if he hurt me. I don't care… I love him still…"
"Kyo...he wouldn't have hurt you if you hadn't…"
"I won't let Haru get hurt…it's not his fault…it's not…and I love him…when you really love someone…you want to protect them"
Kyo smiled softly as he looked out the window. He held his bandaged hand up and traced a figure on the glass.
"Have you ever felt that Hatori? When you want to know someone is safe, when no matter what, you don't want to see them hurt, when you don't think about you first, but that other person...when you just let them be…"
Hatori looked at the younger boy shocked…those words…had a child just mumbled out those words that Hatori himself didn't fully understand.
"I have…I feel that for everyone I love…and for the people that love me….which are very few…but still there…I want to protect them someday…so I don't care if Akito hurt me…I still love him…and I don't care if I have to die to protect Haru…I just want to love them…"
Hatori knew then…he knew…what he wanted to do. He knew he was crying softly. And he wasn't sure what made him do that. Was it the child's moving words…was it the fact that he just found out something, was it what he was about to do?
He slowly raised his hand and placed it over the boys' eyes. Kyo tried to look up at Hatori.
"Hatori Kun…what are you doing?" Kyo asked confused. Hatori simply smiled and keep his hand there.
"Doing what you said…protecting what I love the most…Kyo…I never seen anyone so brave…as pure as you…I…you're the most special and most beautiful person I've seen. And that beautiful heart doesn't deserve to be spoiled." Hatori said softly and with an epp the boy beneath his hand feel unconscious.
Hatori smoothed kyo's hair and he kissed him tenderly.
"I'm sorry Kyo...but this was the best way"
He mumbled softly, and walked out of the room. Leaving the young boy to rest.
O.o
"A DOCTOR!" Shigure Sohma snickered as he wrapped an arm around his friend "You want to be a doctor!".
"Yes"
"But Ha-kun! That career is sooo…soooo"
"Boring…"
"Yes. Thank you Aya, its boring!" shigure sighted dramatically. And Aya snickered.
"Our family doctor is a total klutz. And he's too old, we need another doctor."
"He's fine! He takes good care of everyone" Shigure said but Hatori shook his head.
"No…not everyone."
"Besides…we're rich…what do you want to be a doctor for?" Ayame said loudly.
And at this Hatori smiled, it was a smile so strange (and rare) that both of the other two friends just gawked
"To protect the one I love."
O.o
Ok I know this chapter was totally weak...and sort of boring...so please forgive me.
I really dont know what I was thinking when I wrote this and I even confused myself.
Plus...who's the bad guy here? I mean...Akito isn't that bad...he's just obsesive. And Kyo...well Kyo is a little guilty...and Hatori...augrrrhhh! i dont know.
Well, hope you enjoyed this...and if you didn't please dont flame!
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