CHAPTER 10: FEAR, MEMORIES AND REJECTION

Hi there! How many times must I apologize so you can all forgive me! What shall I do!

I'm sooooo sorry I took so looong but guess what! I still have my writer's block! I practically forced myself to write this and honestly…it suxx.

Plus I had hepatitis and couldn't stand for quite a while. So it was all bad. Haha

Well, we start the drama! I love kyon! Jajajaja this chapter builds up to what is going to happen, next chapter the real drama begins. Poor kyon! Poor hatori! Poor everyone.

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WARNINGS: REAL OOC! YAOI! VIOLENCE! REAL SOAP OPERA HERE! JAJAJAJA AND CURSING!


"He's here"

"Good! Let him in! now!"

Akito sat in the middle of his room again. His hair looking cluttered, his robes hanging, his face ecstatic. He looked expectantly towards the door and smiled widely as a small orange haired boy made his way in.

He was holding Hatori's hand as the teenager bend and whispered soothing words to the frightened looking child. The little boy was wearing a red sweater, it was a little big and it hung of his shoulders. His little legs in a pair of shorts and white socks.

And the bandages were still there…

Covering his left eye.

His little hands….

His left ankle ….

They were there, making Akito miserable as he stared.

Mocking him…

A constant reminder of his mistakes…

"I believe I should stay, in case I could be of help" The teenager said softly a hint of worry in his voice.

"No…leave…its fine, I wont hurt him" Akito said softly and glared at Hatori. The older boys' face fell, and he walked out the door. Leaving the two children alone.

The little orange haired boy looked down at the floor. His face hidden behind his orange bangs. His small frame shivering.

"Kyo…" the head whispered but he received no response from the other little boy. Who just stood there, silent .The head felt tears rise up, his eyes water and with a broken voice he crawled towards the other boy murmuring.

"I'm sorry" he held out an arm to touch the little boys face "I was mad! I couldn't control myself again!"

The other boy felt the cold skin against him and jumped backwards with a scream, he looked up at the head frightened, tears welling up in his eyes.

"DON'T TOUCH ME!" the orange head screamed and the dark haired boy stood there…shocked….lost for words…

"Kyo...I wont hurt you again…I promise" The taller boy sobbed and tried to touch the smaller one again, but the little boy keep shrinking and shaking in terror, his hands covering his face to shield himself.

"Just listen! I won't hurt you!"

"NooooO!" The little boy jumped out of the others' boy reach and ran towards the window. Sobbing again. "Why can't you just leave me alone!"

Akito's face fell. No longer visible behind the dark bangs. He just stood there as the other boy sobbed.

His tears made their way down his pale cheeks. Falling softy on the floor, darkening the wood below.

This was the fifth time…and nothing changed…the other boy was still terrified…

Still terrified of him…

He had forgotten his promise; he had forgotten his love and all that seemed to remain was fear.

It wasn't fair…

"WHY! WHY CANT YOU FORGIVE ME! WHY CANT YOU JUST FORGET THE HARM I DID!" The Head suddenly screamed and the other boy howled in fright sobbing harder "STOP CREAMING! STOP CRYING! WHY DID YOU SEEM TO FORGET EVERYTHING EXCEPT THE BAD THINGS I'VE DONE!"

The screams were heavy on both boys, weighting in both of their hearts.

The younger didn't understand why this crazed dark haired boy insisted on hurting him.

He didn't understand if he done some harm, if it was his fault.

He was obviously being punished, but why?

"Why? Why?" the little boy sobbed and the other boy cried too.

"Kyo…please...just say you love me! Just go back to the way we were before".

"What are you talking about? I don't know what you're talking about! I'm sorry!"

"YOU ALWAYS FEAR ME KYO! YOU HURT ME! I…I CARE FOR YOU BUT YOU REJECT ME! YOU HATE ME! AND YOU BROKE YOUR PROMISEEEE!"

The orange haired boy tried to run towards the exit but the other boy caught him from his collar and knocked him to the floor. Sitting on top of him and straddling him there, the head's tears no longer falling to the floor but on the little boys face. Mixing with the other's own tears.

"WHY DID YOU BREAK IT? YOU'RE JUST LIKE EVERYONE ELSE! YOU LIED YOU FORGOT! YOU BROKE YOU PROMISE" The little boy began to pound the other boy's chest with his fist and the other little boy scream for help. "YOU LIED! YOU LIED! YOU LIED!"

Hatori pounded on the door from the other side. His screams desperate! He kicked it and slammed it until at last the door opened and he pulled the dark haired boy away from the smaller one.

"TAKE HIM AWAY! FAR AWAY! I NEVER WANT TO SEE HIM AGAIN! HE'S A MONSTER! HE'S A STUPID LYING UGLY MONSTER! HE KILLED HIS MOTHER! HE DOES NOTHING BUT HARM PEOPLE!" Akito screamed furiously and madly as Hatori cradled the other terrified boy "I HATE HIM! I HATE EVERYONE! IF I CAN'T BE HAPPY NO ONE CAN'T! IT' S THE ENTIRE STUPID CATS FAULT! TAKE HIM AWAY!"

Hatori walked out the door and shut it behind him and the other boy raged and destroyed everything in sight. Kyo was unconscious in his arms, hurt again.

"I'm sorry kyo…this is all my fault" Hatori sobbed "I cant do anything right! I tried to help you and I only messed up! I ruined everything! I swear I'll keep away next time! I swear I won't interfere!"


It was as if time had stopped. As if the rain drops where still and the wind had ceased to blow. The orange haired boy looked up at his gods' face, who stared back with undeniable pleasure and excitement.

A sudden surge of fear passed through his system and urged him to stand. But he couldn't. It was the old fear that returned with bad memories.

So he just laid there, in the mud. Covered in fear and uneasiness.

"Kyo, it's as if it was meant to be" the head said softly, his voice as cold as always "here I was, thinking about you and you suddenly appeared out of nowhere"

The orange haired boy said nothing, he couldn't. He just laid there as the head kneeled in front of him, his face now serious and observant. The rain drops falling softly on his pale face and sliding down. Somewhere in the way meeting with Kyo's orange strands.

"So…did you come back to me" the dark haired boy said in a low tone and red eyes looked at him tearfully.

"what?"

"I told you a long time ago, that even if you feared me, you would come back to me…"

Kyo frowned, he didn't remember that. What was Akito talking about?

"I…I didn't come back…I was just…"

"Running away? Like you did last time" Akito said venomously his eyes looking away as if remembering something. Kyo just laid there on his stomach, looking up confused at his god.

"I've never runned away" Kyo murmured and Akito turned to him with a sad smile.

"You liar, you've always lied Kyo. That's what hurt me the most. The fact that you lied and lied and lied"

The orange haired boy scowled and began to stand angrily.

"I don't know what you're talking about, I never do. You always blame me for things I've never done, things you make up and imagine" Kyo muttered angrily and he brushed some mud away from his face. The other boy stayed quiet. Looking of to the side, his face expressionless.

"hmmmm" he murmured and smiled softly "so who was it this time kyo?"

The other boy stooped and looked at the other boy with wide eyes.

"who did you hurt this time'" Akito said softly and watched with a smile as the other boy seemed to drop his defences and pale up.

"who did you trouble?"

"I didn't hurt anyone" Kyo said in a stiff tone but Akito just smiled.

"what are you talking about?" He murmured as he stared into the red orbs "whenever you get close to someone you hurt them, you always do. I know that stare, I've seen it before. Kyo…why? Why must you always hurt?"

"I don't!" the red head said miserably and collapsed in his knees punching the ground.

"yes you do! It's like a curse isn't it? You get close, you love, and you hurt" Akito murmured sadly as he poked the mud beneath him "it's why I want to lock you kyo. Don't you see? I've always told you this! Every time we meet I tell you the same thing over and over again, you aren't meant for anyone. You're a monster. You harmed your mom, your master, your friends, me…remember when you hurt me?"

Kyo looked up at Akito again. There he was again, talking about the time when he hurt akito. That had never happened. As far as he remembered it had always been the other way around.

"No…I don't"

"Liar."

"fine I am. Anyway, you're the one to talk, you always hurt us" Kyo murmured darkly looking down at the mud Akito was fiddling with.

"Yes, but it's also your fault" Akito said and he looked up at the sky feeling the cold drops slide down his face and into his kimono "kyo, you don't have to hurt anymore, you don't have to make anyone else feel pain. I was coming for you I need you to come with me"

"why?" kyo said fearfully, his voice shaking as he looked up at Akito "I'm not supposed to be locked up yet…it's not time"

"Don't do that kyo, don't be afraid, I won't hurt you" The head said with a smile.

"why should I believe you? Every time I used come here you used to beat me! You cursed at me and said all kinds of stupid things, you called me a monster!"

"I know I know!" the head interrupted and smiled lovingly "but I'm willing to forgive you! We can start over!"

"What the hell are you fucking talking about!" Kyo screamed confused and the head looked at him shocked. "Forgive me! I never did anything! Except cross paths with you!"

Akito sat there, his face changing form shock to pure anger. He was pale and trembling, his fist clenched tight.

An anger so powerful that it paralyzed the other teen. Kyo prepared himself for an attack of some sort, but it never came. Instead the other boy began to stand.

Akito didn't touch Kyo, he simply stood there looking down at the muddy boy.

"I've given you a chance and you're going to take it. I'll make sure you do. Kyo, I'm lonely…I need you…a monster is meant to be with another monster. We will start over! In the end, you'll beg we start over"


"Ayame, stop it!" Hatori murmured as he pushed the silver haired man away "what's wrong with you! Don't you ever use your head! Why did you say those stuff to kyo!"

Ayame fell of Hatori and into the floor dramatically. He looked up at Hatori with sadness and attempted to hug him again.

"You care more about him than me!" He said in between another dramatic sob. Hatori just stood there and sighted wearily. He looked out the window and noticed it had started raining again.

All he could think about was kyo.

"Ayame" he said soothingly and pushed the other man softly away "I have to go look for him…rain really gets him tired, you know that. It's not healthy for him to be out with this weather"

But the silver haired man held him even tighter, like a little child, making sure Hatori wouldn't move.

"Hatori! Why didn't you ever tell me? I thought… I thought you didn't want to love anyone anymore! After kana you seemed so hurt! If I would have known! If you would've told me! I would have come to your house and loved you!"

Ayames' wails went ignored by Hatori who began to walk out the office dragging the snake whose hands were locked around his waist in a death grip.

"Ayame… I cant…walk!" Hatori said angrily as he tried to cross his living room and the snake still refused to let go of him.

"I won't! let go until you answer me! And listen to me!" ayame said firmly hugging the man tightly; his feet sliding on the floor as the doctor keep walking.

"Fine, then I'll drag you out!" Hatori screamed angrily and opened the house door. The doctor walked out the door with a great heave, the snake was dragged out the house and into the mud, his magnificent robe dirtied. But he still didn't let go. Hatori scowled and began to walk heavily ignoring the fact that the snake was now getting wet too.

"Hatori! Hatori! Stop! Listen! I promise I'll let go if you stop for a second and listen to me! Please! Just promise you won't run away" Ayame said and the doctor stopped in his tracks.

"Fine…"

"But promise you won't walk away"

"I promise"

"you sure?"

"AYAME I SWEAR!"


Silence again…and the head was just standing there. Waiting for the cat to stand. He was looking at his surroundings when he noticed something interesting…

"Kyo…come with me…"

"What! No! I'm leaving!" The cat said whipping the mud of his face.

"I didn't ask you…I'm telling you to come with me! Or shall I call Kazuma…"

At the sound of his master's name, kyo went as rigid as stone.

"FINE! I'll come…just don't call shishou"

"Good…then follow me…it looks like the snake and the dragon are having fun without me…"


"Fine" the snake mumbled and let go of the doctor who took two steeps away. The snake got up and looked at the doctor as if ready to pounce at any second, shall he attempt to run away "just…don't move! Listen hatori, I love you. You should know that I loved you ever since we were kids. Everybody knows! You're the only one I listen to! The only one I ever wished to be like! How come you never noticed?"

Hatori looked away from the snake and sighted "Ayame, I…I have always known. I have"

"So how come you never tried to tell me! Don't you like me?" Ayame whined.

"I do…just not that way Ayame. You're my friend. , well….I was never attracted to you."

Ayame looked away hurt and angry.

"That's not fair hatori!"

"Life is not fair"

"Don't start! Listen! Just give me a chance"

"Ayame…"

"Hatori!"

"Fine I'll give you a chance!" Hatori shouted and just as he did he wished he hadn't, for right behind him were none other that akito and kyo.

The head was looking pretty pleased and happy for some reason. But the other boy. He looked like he had been hit by a truck. His eyes were wide and teary and his face pale…very pale.

"Isn't it sweet kyo…young love…well in this case not sooo young. But love in deed"

"Akito san, I was just going to go visit you" Hatori lied quickly.

"Oh really? Well it certainly didn't look like it, I can see you were very very busy with your pretty slimy little snake" Akito spat.

"gomen akito san" Hatori mumbled and he noticed ayame flinch behind him.

"Doesn't matter, I'm going to be busy for a while so I don't want to be bothered" Akito mumbled, turned and began to walk away. "Come along kyo"

Hatori felt cold rise up his spine when he heard Akito call kyo. He stared at the boy who looked for some reason really hurt and began to follow akito.

"Kyo wait" Hatori ordered out of nowhere and both younger boys turned to look at him. One furious the other shocked.

"Hatori, kyo doesn't have time to talk to you" Akito spat and he reached out for kyo's wrist, pulling on it "right kyo?"

The teen just looked terrified from akitos' hand holding his to hatori who was standing there…with ayame.

"I'll give you a chance..."

Hatori really did love ayame. He and Ayame were going to be together. He didn't know why, but it hurt.

It hurt a lot.

"Right…"the boy mumbled and let himself be dragged away by akito.

"I'll call you two later, we need to discuss your little relationship" Akito mumbled and both boys disappeared.


"SHIT!"

The doctor screamed as he kicked the mud and turned back towards his house. Slamming the door and forgetting Ayame was still standing outside.


DAMMIT! THIS looks like a Mexican soap opera! How sad! I hate myself! Sorry this chapter is kind of sucky! Jeje

Well, ayame just made me mad! And hatori pisses me off! And kyo! Oh kyo! How I love you! Exept lately I'm loving Edward elrich even more! jajajajaja

Brigitte- thanks! I like to think I do have some imagination even thought I'm almost 19! Jajaja just so you know…I hurried cause I read your review and I know cliffhangers are evil.

Nekokyo- jajaja you know. I understood the first part of your review…but the rest was a little confusing. You think we could share kyo? I love just as much! You read my story for a week! I'm soooo flattered! I love you!

Shizmoo- hehe here's another chapter…sorry if it's not that good :'( my head is killing me and I cant come up with anything good!

Kira Temeki- here's another chapter! Don't get depressed! Noooooooooooooooooooooo!

Obey the fluff- I LOVE YOUR NICK! ITS SO CUTE! Jajajaja thanks for the review!

Shini- thanks for that double review! Your great! I also hope kyo and hatori end together…

Otherworld- sorry sorry! Here's the next chapter! I hope you liked it and if you didn't….i'll give a cookie….

Riku chan- jajaja sorry well, kyo was just a little hurt here…sentimentally…poor thing is going trought a lot of strees and the "nobody loves me" syndrome. Wait till you see what happens next.

Simply sabog- yess…akito indeed is scary…especially since he's a girl…but not in my fic!

Lost rememberance- don't die! Here's the next chapter! Thank you soooo much! You made me happy! One of the best furuba fics? Thank you thank yoou!

Purple ajah- jajaja thanks! I love your stories too. And yes I don't like ayame…or yuki…that family makes me mad.

Dark mistress- I hope it's not to blah what they say to each other…lets remember akito is the cool crazed family head…and that's what he's doing…trying to keep his cool…until they are alone, then comes the crazed part. ;)

Camillian- yes ayame is mean. And no we cant blame him since hatori is oh so sexy! Jajajaja he doesn't express it before cause I don't like writing about him much…and well…I believe in the manga he express it enough for us to figure out ;)

To the rest of my reviewers thank you so much! I love you and sorry I cant answer to all but I'm currently at work and boss is going to kill me for using his computer :P

Well, everyone I'll write soon! Thanks a lot for the reviews! And take care!