Chapter 3

Sorry I know last chapter was a bit confusing, but this one is a lot better (hopefully) and straight, Sorry it took me a while to update, but I was in a weird mood and I didn't wanted to ruin the story (being a complete bitch and killing Nate or something like that, thought I don't know, everything is possible)

You know we've got to find a way

To get past all the implications, every situation

Every complication that we've come from

Love is all we have

I will run myself in circles here without you

"Sorry, those movements are involuntary, it's just the muscles waking up, I know it's been a while since he left surgery, but the amount of anesthesia he got was quite a lot, so that kind of spasm mean nothing, I'm really sorry" she said watching Haley's disappointed face, with that the nurse walked away, Haley looked at her until she disappeared from her sight, then she let heavily all of her weight in the brown room's couch, that was too much, days had passed and Nathan didn't seemed to get any better, sure the bruises on his face were softer now, and now she could see his amazing features, but she couldn't see what she wanted most, his deep blue eyes.

She remembered being with her friends, when she heard her name again, "Mrs. Scott?" this time she heard and walked fast to the short nurse, "Mr. Scott is out of surgery, you will be able to see him in about ten minutes" Haley nodded and stared at the slowly nurse walking away, when she first saw him, she couldn't contain the tears, he looked so broken, so hurt, now she was at his side, like the past five days, everyone tried to convince her to go home, at least for a couple of hours, but there was no way she was going to leave him alone, she sat at the edge of the bed and stroke his hair, and caressed his face, every time in a while, when she found in herself a bit of strength she sung to him, hoping that her voice could lead him home, what was the point of singing without him, nothing had sense in fact, she was lost, her life felt empty.

The wedding happened 4 days before, but it was until that morning that Dan Scott appeared at the hospital, he walked slowly, seeing blood in his hands and clothing prevented him of going out of his house, but he still saw it, and saw keith kid following him around, it was devastating, and when he heard his son's accident news, he felt even worst, like if he had the fault, now walking at the hospital with it's white walls, and clean smell was disgusting, he couldn't stop thinking of Keith lying in one of the litters, he saw a little room full of chairs, and saw his family, could hen call them family, sure the sight was nice, even in the disturbing circumstances they looked happy of being around each other, even those girls seemed to belong, the blonde one, he couldn't remember her name, he teased Haley so much with that name, but he didn't know it, not now, he could barely remember why he has there. But he knew he blowed his last opportunity, he couldn't look at them, he had killed his brother, and the guilt was too heavy, everything was ok, it was a simple revenge, until Deb told him that she tried to kill him, not keith, then in that moment, his world crashed, nothing had sense, yeah! He had power, he was the mayor, had money, but was alone, and was too late now, why it was all that so nice when he got to an empty house every night, when all that he ate were those microwavable meals, and he couldn't even stare at his wife's face?

I am looking past the shadows

In my mind into the truth and

I'm trying to identify

The voices in my head

God, which one is you

Let me feel one more time

What it feels like to feel alive

And break these calluses off of me

One more time

Nathan was lost in memories, he just couldn't get to the present, and all in his mind was her face, always, here and there, her voice, and her smile, it was all he wanted, but far away he could hear her sobs, but there was no way he could hug her, that was killing his spirit, nothing hurt more than hurting her, he knew he was far from her, he didn't feel her warmth, just an endless cold wind, and all he could do to take away his pain was getting lost in his memories again.

ANSWER PHONE NATHAN: (Through the phone.) Hi, you've reached the Scott's, um, my wife and I are, uh-

ANSWER PHONE HALEY: (Through the phone. She cuts him off.) Your wife? What do you, like, own me now?

ANSWER PHONE NATHAN: (Through the phone.) Yeah, I do. (Haley laughs.)

Nathan and Haley are sitting on the bed, recording the answer phone message.

HALEY: Hi, this is Nathan and Haley Scott, please leave a message… or… not.

NATHAN: That's the worst thing I've ever heard.

HALEY: Shut up, it rhymed, I like it!

NATHAN: Oops(!)

ELECTRONIC VOICE: Message has been erased.

HALEY: Oh fine, let's just do one together, OK?

NATHAN: Wait a minute, isn't that something only really cheesy couples do?

HALEY: Yeah, well we are a really cheesy couple, Mister.

NATHAN: Good point.

HALEY: OK. Hi, you've reached Haley-

NATHAN: -and Nathan, I live here too.

HALEY: Yes, Nathan lives here too because we're married(!)

NATHAN: And, uh, we can't get to the phone right now because we're, um…

HALEY: We're having sex? I mean, just, we're having really-

NATHAN: (Smirks) OK. (Lunges at her.)

HALEY: -hot sex. Oh(!) (Groans)

(She laughs.)

HALEY: Oh, we're still on. Uh, leave a message!

NATHAN: And, uh, we'll get back to you when we're done(!)

(Haley yells and they fall off the bed, laughing.)

It always surprised him, how could she be so innocent, and at the same time, so… well his mind wondered about all the times they made love, that was love, everything that happened with her was full of love, he had lots of girls before her, but any made him feel weak, breathless, no, she was beyond hot, and sexy, she knew how to turn him on, with out being slutty, just loving, he never felt safer, or more comfortable like when he was in his arms, everything was fun, the sex was great, but it was a lot more than that, that woman drove him crazy.

Please believe that I tried my best to forget you

but the memories keep flooding back like tears

I didn't mean to fall in love

Dan was weirdly sitting in the opposite corner of the waiting room, he could see Lucas, Karen and Deb together, but he couldn't walk to them, he entered Nathan's room, and since the moment he walked out he had the same position on the chair, he was impressed, he had lost everything great in his life, nothing was good anymore. And now that boy was there with them, he gave him a cold look, and just made him nervous, great Dan Scott scared over a 17 years old boy, something was definitely wrong, so he just decided to go, without saying anything he just started walking outside the guard, and outside the hospital, he couldn't bare the pain on his chest, he drove away, just drove, not knowing where to go.

"Hi man!" Lucas said happily to his friend "hi" Mouth answered a bit too shy, he hugged and said hello to the Scott family, except for Dan, to him Mouth jut gave a little nod "Lucas can I talk to you" he said sounding worried "sure, are you ok?" Mouth nodded and started to walk, Lucas followed him with out knowing what to do "in private" they both entered an empty room.

"I think you girls should convince Haley to go home for just a bit, she has to sleep, take a bath and eat something" Deb looked at Karen nodding "yes, I haven't see her eating anything she is barely drinking water, she is going to get sick"

"She doesn't listen to anyone; she just wants to stay here"

"why don't you try?" Deb looked at the girls and showed a little smile

"sure, she didn't listen to her best friends, and it's going to listen to her mother in law" Karen nodded "and she is not going to leave with me, who would stay with Nathan?" she looked at the 3 women "no offence, but I guess she could be more relaxed if his mother is here"

"we have talked about Haley a lot, but how are you holding up?" the 3 looked at Deb "I'm ok, I'm scared, but I'm ok, he is strong, I know he'll make it, I'm worried about her, God what kind of wedding day was that?"

He felt like walking on eggshells, he doesn't know how to say it, the tension in the air was too much "Mouth man, what's wrong" Lucas stares at his old friend "I know I should have said this quite a long time now, but, I didn't know how to" Lucas stares at him "seriously man, u are scaring me, and it's not the moment for jokes" Mouth sits in a near chair taking a deep breathe "I wish this was a joke, but I can't stay like this anymore, I know u are worried, we all are" he pauses and looks deeply at his friends eyes "I didn't say it before, because I didn't wanted you to act wrong, and you and your family were so crushed" Mouth looked outside at Karen and Deb, and Dan who was at the other side of the room "I saw the shooting" Lucas sat down at his side "wh..What re you talking about?"

Mouth walked to the door closing it not daring to look at Lucas, he just was there, looking at the door "it wasn't jimmy" he turned to see his shocked friend "I think it was Dan"

Haley walked out of the room, just sad, not knowing what to do, she saw her family, but couldn't walk to them, no, their company was not right, she needed them, but some how she didn't want it, she couldn't explain half of what was running through her head, Lucas is not there "where is he?" she says looking around for those lovely eyes that knew how to make her relax, damn he needed her, Brooke and Peyton walked to her "hey sweetie" Brooke grabbed her hand "wanna come and sit with us?" she started walking "where is Lucas?" Peyton looked at the room where the two guys where, Lucas noticed it and without thinking, without caring what he just find out, walked out and hugged his friend, she burst into tears holding him tight "shhhh, hales, I'm here" they walked to some near chairs "he'll be fine, I swear it"

After a lot of trying Lucas managed to convince Haley of going home, "look, taking the risk of sounding too much like Brooke" she looked at him trying not to laugh "when he wakes up, I know you wouldn't like him too see you like this" he grabbed Haley's oversized jersey "he loves you, but you look like crap" he said in a mocking tone "jaja, it's not funny" Haley rolled her eyes and Peyton clapped "and she talks!". Now she was in Peyton's car next to Brooke, they both managed to stay around each other without fighting, all for Haley's sake, trying not to think much. As soon as she walked in, a lot of memories invaded her mind, so many that she felt the need to vomit, so she run to the bathroom

Flashback

Haley is in the bathroom having a shower.

NATHAN: (Walking into the bathroom and up to the mirror.) Haley, come on already, we're gonna be late for our own wedding reception.

HALEY: OK, just give me two more minutes. The shower massager has three speeds.

NATHAN: Yeah, and you have one: slow.

HALEY: (Laughs) Would you quit complaining. I need the extra time. Besides, people expect the bride to look beautiful.


(Nathan stands in front of the mirror and messes with his hair.)

NATHAN: Yeah? What about me?

(Haley slides open the shower door.)

HALEY: (Smiling) Don't be silly, no one would ever expect that of you. (Slides the door closed again.)

NATHAN: (Laughing) Oh, OK. That does it.


(He pulls his t-shirt off, sheds the rest of his clothes, and steps into the shower.)

HALEY: (Giggling) Nathan(!)

NATHAN: We're gonna be late, we're gonna have to do it together.

(Haley laughs and kisses him.)

Nathan continued to think about them both, and still having all those dirty thoughts, well memories, she was everything he needed, but still he couldn't reach her, he felt her hands in his face when he touched him, he knew it was her, he felt electricity running down his spine every time she kissed his forehead, he knew how much she was crying, and he knew that she was always there in the same room, he could smell her sweet scent of vanilla, but not this time, in that moment he heard a different voice, sweet, but not the one he wanted, he wanted her to sing, to continue leading him back, he was lost, in a deep dark place, but when she was there, he saw a little light, and always tried to follow it, knowing that it was her, his sun, and his everything. Instead he heard his mom, or Karen? He didn't know, still he felt a little safer, that in those minutes when no one was with him, Lucas was also there, he wanted to see his brother's face again, he always had a kind word, even when he was a total jerk, he even missed Brooke, he missed her jokes, and the way that Haley blushed with her commentaries, always making the most innocent moment in something perverted, yeah, he definitely missed his family, his now amazing and cool family.

Nathan is propped up on an elbow, watching Haley sleep. She opens her eyes.

NATHAN: Hey you.

(Haley covers her face with a pillow and laughs.)

HALEY: Hi. I had the strangest dream; I dreamt we actually got married yesterday.

NATHAN: That's weird…I had the same dream.

HALEY: No.

NATHAN: Hmm.

(He leans over and kisses her.)

NATHAN: Oh, that's right, we actually did get married.

(They interlock their fingers; showing Nathan's wedding ring.)

HALEY: We did get married. (Laughs)

NATHAN: It's pretty wild huh?

HALEY: Yeah. How do you feel?

NATHAN: I was just watching you sleep, thinking; let's always be like this.

HALEY: Yeah.

About ten minutes later, Brooke and Peyton were standing outside the bathroom "tutor girl?" she knocked "are you ok?" the blonde opened the door, to reveal her friend sitting on the floor hugging her legs, shaking her head "no, I'm not"

"Here put this on" Haley stepped out of the shower, put some random clothes on, and grabbed the bag that her friend made for her "there you have some clothing for a couple of days, we are also taking your pillow with you" Haley smiled "you can't continue sleeping the way you have" Peyton unlocked the car "and we know that you are not going to leave that hospital without your husband, so we are making everything as comfortable as possible" Brooke was driving, and now it was Peyton's turn to be next to Haley "so, are you guys talking again?" the girl asked her friends trying to feel better "well sorta'" answered Brooke "'cause I see you driving her car, and trying to kill each other" Peyton laughed "let's say that we love you too much, and put our differences a side, and we've been thinking about what you screamed to us the other day" Brooke looked at Haley through the mirror "and you were right" they all smiled "puss over studs" Haley laughed "ho over bro's"

She wasn't lonely, she knew it, but still the object of her adoration wasn't with her, she walked to the now perfectly known hospital guard "you look lot better" Lucas said grinning "well thanks" Deb and Karen where there, Haley asked herself if they never leaved, and made a mental note to thank them for their support after that nightmare ending

I could never leave you

Even if you asked me to

I could never say goodbye

Make you cry, Oh

Haley walked again to that door, the one that was holding everything important inside, the one that felt like a prison that had all her hopes and dreams behind, opening it really slowly she looked at her handsome husband "you are gorgeous" she said sitting by his side

I could never stumble

With you walking by my side

I could never love you

more than I already do

He felt her next to him again, and felt warmth, near to the light again, with the strength of doing anything, the problem was that the only thing he wanted to do, was something that his body didn't allowed, an effort, he had to do one more effort, it was all that mattered.

So don't walk away

Don't walk away

Don't lie, tell me that you're gonna stay

Please don't walk away

If I made a promise,

I would stay by your side

It's only the beginning

I love you

I'm outside his room looking through the window, she is there, staring at him with those adoring eyes, god, she is beautiful, Haley has always been there for me, and it kills me not being able to help her, trying to fight the tears back again, she squeezes his hand and whisper something at his ear, I can only imagine their typical and meaningful phrase ´always and forever´ she kisses his forehead, his nose and then his lips, she stays there for a couple of seconds waiting for his response, but it doesn't come.

I think and I wish something like that for me, I love Brooke, and I know she loves me, but I don't know for how long are we going to be a couple, we are after all just 17, finding true love at this age is practically impossible, I know I have a prove in front of me, but it's hard to believe it, they are so happy, I hear her laugh right at my side, and I turn to look at her, she is just everything I want, I love her for this details, she is laughing at this moment, trying to lighten up the mood a bit, Brooke comes and hugs me, her warmth just gives me strength, and I just can't believe anything of what's happening, my family is tearing apart, but at the same time I feel good, I don't feel alone like I thought I would, she kisses me, a sweet little kiss, that is enough to make me feel safe "come on Broody" she says and pull me by the hand to sit next to my mom, and aunt? I don't know how to call her, but she's been acting incredible with Haley, and she is cool, she has been there when we need her, so I guess I could call her ´aunt Deb´ because in my mind, my dad is looking after me, and that damn bastard that I once tried to call dad, he is dead, long gone, but he is not important, and here I realize that I have a great big tight family, like I always wished for, I always wanted a little brother and I have two, I look down at my mother's stomach and feel proud, proud of having this last name, proud of what it means, a couple of loving mothers, a great brother and a rocking sister in law. I have everything, but then I turn to see his room and I'd love to trade places, he has a lot more than me, he has his life planned, everything is meant for him to be great, successful.

Don't it get lonely out there, little darling

Well come on home

I'll be here with open arms

To hold you

When you arrive

I'll be here with open arms

To show you

Where you belong

If you're missing come on home

I walk to the room again, and look at the couple, he starts to move, she doesn't notice it, she is again trying not to cry, but she is singing, that voice I know he love. He tucks an errant hair behind her ear, she smiles and suddenly everything is right again, even if he can't sit by himself, at least not now, everything seems worth now, all the tears, the pain, just to show the world this amazingly beautiful and big love, she stares at him, now her eyes are glowing again, she recovers all of her youth and health whit just a stroke of his hand, they kiss softly, enjoying the moment, and then harder, like never wanting it to finish, denying to letting go, there are just them , no one else in the world, I guess I should call all the people, but no I decide that is a better idea to give them some privacy.

(Haley and Nathan are standing on a beach with a priest and Haley's parents.

Nathan slips a ring onto Haley's finger.)

NATHAN: Someday, this beach might wash away…the oceans may dry…the sun could dim

but on that day, I'll still be loving you. Always and forever. I promise you Haley.

PRIEST: And now, Haley, please repeat after me; I Haley, take you Nathan.

HALEY: (Smiles at her parents.) I Haley, take you Nathan.

PRIEST: To have and to hold, from this day forward.

HALEY: To have and to hold, from this day forward… In sickness and in health… For richer or poorer… For better or worse. I promise that I will love and cherish you- And will deny all those that would come between us. I make this promise for eternity. I promise that I will keep forever… Until the end of time. Till death do us part.

Honestly again… and some other songs, Don't walk away, come on home, Breathing (lifehouse) About Dan, well, just imagine that Lucas talked with him, and told him to disappear, saying that he had proves of the murder, asking (no, demanding) him to never be around his family again, to go to exile, after all Dan in tree hill was kinda' star, so, outside the town he was just another looser…(just remember this was NALEY! So Dan wasn't too important) but off course he is suffering, let's say that he abandoned his mayor position without no apparent reason, so he found himself with tons of lawsuits and no money.. bla bla, suffering!

This was a hard chapter to write, lot of ideas, but no place to put them… so I wrote, turned the computer off, and again, and again quite a few times to put everything in order

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