Ch 3 facing destiny

Summary: Hotaru's first battle. Seems more to deal with Hotaru and Haruka then anyone else, and it's fluffy. Sorry for any errors.

I awake with a shake of my shoulder as Haruka-papa tried to get my attention. "Hotaru? Are you mad at me?" she asked with another guilty look. I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes, "Why would I be mad?" "Cause I lied to you." I looked into her eyes; they shone with guilt and love.

"I love you papa" I reached up and embraced her. "I love you and I love Michiru-mama and of course Setsuna-mama." I kiss her. She smiled and embraced me tighter. "I love you himme-chan." I smiled at my old nickname, I thought for sure I out grew it, I'm glad I didn't though.

Michiru-mama came barging into my room. "Haruka." She said quiet seriously. Haruka-papa nodded and looked at me very seriously. I all ready knew what that face meant, and I nodded seriously too. Apparently there was some monster destroying part of the city.

Setsuna-mama handed me a henshin pen. I watched as my parents took out there's and transform. Again I saw papa in a skirt, for me that more shocking then finding out she was a female. Papa hated dresses let alone skirts. She only liked to see them on Michiru-mama.

I yelled out the incantation I was told and I transform as well. My long black dress was replaced with a purple skirt. I looked at myself in awe. Would papa allow me to wear such a thing?

Papa picked me up and placed me on her back, She didn't want me to fall behind I guess. As they jumped from rooftop to rooftop, we arrive with in minutes.

"Aratana jidai ni sasowarete, Sailor Uranus, Kareini Katsuyaku! (Invited by a new era, Sailor Uranus, Acting Magnificently)"

"Shinkai no Hoshi, Kaiousei wo Shugonimotsu, Hoyou No Senshi, (Protected by the Planet of the Deep Sea, Neptune, The Soldier of Embrace)

"Jikuu no Hoshi, Meiousei wo Shugonimotsu, Henkaku no Senshi, (Protected by the Planet of Time, Pluto, the Soldier of Revolution)

Papa says that the line show the enemies that where nothing to mess with. I just think she likes the attention. I shrugged and say mine.

"Chinmoku no Hoshi, Dosei wo Shugonimotsu, Hametsu to Tanjou no Senshi, (Protected by the planet of Silence, Saturn, The Soldier of Destruction and Rebirth)

The worlds come out of my mouth quietly. The monster turned to us; I stared to shake in fear again. I wasn't ready for this yet.

"I will protect you himme-chan." I heard my papa's voice and it stopped the shaking in my knees. With out any hesitation they all attack leaving me still on the rooftop. Though there attacks hit the monster with a powerful blow it wasn't enough to keep it down. It turned to me and attack suddenly. I closed my eyes and braced myself for impact. A couple of seconds passed and nothing happened but Michiru-mama screaming. I opened my eyes for a shocking sight. Haruka-papa falling to the ground near my feet.

Tears welled up in my eyes as I felt anger and rage flow threw my body. A new emotion pumped through my veins, was it hate? Rage of adrenalin? The power of death, the power of sailor Saturn?

I can't hold in my anger. With pure hate in my eyes I attack the creature without mercy. How dear it attack my loved one! With one blow of my mighty weapon the monster was destroyed.

The attack drained my power and with a thud I hit the ground. I hear them all shout my name in concern. "Papa," I said weakly. "I'm here himme-chan." The sound of my papa's voice makes me relax in whoever is holding me in there arms. I am happy that papa is alright and that the monster is gone, but I hate myself.

I hate myself for letting Saturn's power control me. That I killed, even thought it was a monster killing others I'm still mad. Hot tears gathered in my eyelids before someone wiped them away.

Haruka-papa picks me up, "let's go home," I cry in her shoulder the whole way home. She keeps rubbing my back and telling me it's not my fault it's the way of a senshi. I wish she was kidding but I know she is not. I just hope that one day we can all live in peace.

Love,

Hotaru

P.S ask Michiru-mama for a new dairy.

P.SS one with a lock.

P.SSS I know you're reading this papa.

P.SSSS I love you

Haruka closed the book and looked up at her lover and her friend. Wind blew there hair to the side as the sunrise brought on a beautiful day with the hope of a beautiful future.

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