(A/N: This was an idea I had last night right before I went to sleep... It was kinda crazy, but I decided, what the hell... I don't know how, but this song was stuck in my head all day... Of course, I was reading Maximum Ride yet again! So yeah, read and review please...)
Disclaimer: I don't own Maximum Ride, the ingenious James Patterson does... And last time I checked, I was not Mr. Patterson... Although I wish I was sometimes because then I'd be a genius. The song is by U2 and is called "Sometimes You Can't Make it on Your Own." I wish I owned the song too... But I own nothing...
I never felt alone with the Flock before… And suddenly we were flying one day, and it hit me. I was all alone. In a crowded room I felt alone. I needed to feel like I belonged. I always thought as long as I had my family and a clear blue sky, that I'd be all set… I never realized how wrong I was.
Tough, you think you've got the stuff
you're telling me and anyone
you're hard enough
The Flock, well, they had me. And, of course, I had them. But they had me for support. I can't do this all by myself; everyone needs to let someone take care of them.
You don't have to put up a fight
you don't have to always be right
let me take some of the punches
for you tonight
People need other people to talk to, not just talk, but talk. No matter how much I tell the others I can take care of myself- I need to have someone sometimes. Like, and this is a crazy thought, that someone could be Fang… Yeah, I know; crazy. How could Mr. Stiff and Show No Emotion ever like me that way? Sure, there was that one time on the beach with The Kiss. But that had been a stupid spur of the moment thing, a onetime thing.
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
you don't have to go it alone
And, you'll think I'm truly crazy now- not that you probably aren't thinking that already- but now that thought won't leave me alone. You know; the weird, out-of-character one about me and Fang being a possibility.
God, if I ever told him that he'd send me to the loony bin in a second, no hesitation at all… This is crazy. And, to tell you the truth, I don't mind it really… The thinking of him and me and us all the time part is what I really like.
For once there's something I can hope for that might be a little realistic. It's totally unlike thinking of how to save the world. But that empty feeling won't go away no matter how hard I try. I have tried convincing myself I don't need anyone, but I like the thought of having someone so much better. I just want it to go away and I don't care how it does now.
And it's you when I look in the mirror
and it's you when I don't pick up the phone
sometimes you can't make it on your own
It'd make sense, the two of us. I mean, sure we don't talk very much, and when we do, we sometimes fight. But everyone fights. We're alike in so many ways and so different at the same time. The School made us this way, and I keep having this weird idea. What if they planned this? What if the white-coats wanted me to feel empty and for everyone to hate me? What if- oh God, this is an insane thought- what if they wanted for me and Fang to have each other?
Sure, the Flock- Angel, Nudge, and Gazzy mostly- say they love me; but do they really? It's so hard; we argue and disagree, so they can't love me. If they did love me, wouldn't we get alone peachy? Well, there'd always be arguments, but we still got alone and loved each other, right?
We fight all the time
You and I…that's alright
We're the same soul
I don't need…I don't need to hear you say
That if we weren't so alike
You'd like me a whole lot more
I had a startling message from the Voice before. Yes, it was a lovely surprise; one that almost knocked me right out of the sky. Luckily Fang caught me… again.
Max, you aren't alone; you have the Flock. Remember about saving the world? You don't need to be alone when you do it. They will be right by your side, it repeated when we were safely on the ground. The resulting pain the Voice caused was noticeably worse than it had been lately. No one can get by on their own Maximum; not even you can.
"Yeah Voice," I said in a hushed Voice. Luckily the others weren't paying attention to me at the moment. "But I already have the Flock. I'm not alone."
You know what I mean Max. Stop acting like a child and listen to me seriously for once. Everyone needs someone at one point in their life; even you, even Fang, even Iggy, even the Gasman, even Nudge, even Angel. You'll all need someone one day. T's just how it works out, how everything is.
"Well," I said through clenched teeth, "it's not like we're normal! We can't go up to someone and say 'Hey, I'm lonely, wanna date me? By the way, I'm a mutant freak with wings.' We're freaks!"
Everyone in the world has someone; you just have to search for that person sometimes. Not everything can be laid out right in front of you all the time. If you want it bad enough, you have to work for it.
Listen to me now
I need to let you know
you don't have to go it alone
"Voice," I said quietly, my voice shook. "Do I already know this person?" There was silence. I suddenly remembered why I hated the Voice so much. "Is it someone I'm always thinking about?"
Maybe, the Voice responded. Instantly, I was furious. I picked up a rock and threw it wildly into the woods. It hit someone, and that someone definitely wasn't happy about it.
"I just want a clear answer for once," I cried softly. Fang appeared rubbing his head and holding a rock. Oops, I thought.
"Did you throw this?" he asked calmly. I nodded. He disappeared again after throwing the rock back to me.
And it's you when I look in the mirror
and it's you when I don't pick up the phone
sometimes you can't make it on your own
See, that's why I can't ever be with Fang. We're too different in some ways. If he'd thrown the rock and it had hit me, I'd have blown up- literally. He's calm and quiet, and I react quickly to things, always nervous. We can't even talk because we're always on different pages of different books entirely. It makes me angry with myself that I even thought for a second we'd be okay together. If we can't even talk together or get along for more than two minutes, well then how can we be happy with each other? This is just so complicated! As if I didn't have any problems already.
I know that we don't talk
I'm sick of it all
Can - you - hear - me - when - I -
Sing, you're the reason I sing
You're the reason why the opera is in me…
Another night of feeling alone, of that empty feeling in the pit of my stomach; I want out from it. I don't want to feel so lost and alone anymore. I want to talk to Fang really bad, to let him know what I'm thinking, how I feel. But how can I do that? I'm a chicken… and I have to save the world.
Where are we now?
I've still got to let you know
A house still doesn't make a home
don't leave me here alone…
More flying, more thinking, more wondering awaited me as the sun rose the next day. I know that I'm crazy now. I mean, I'm sitting here saying I have to save the whole world from ITEX; what's more insane than that! I've gotta push all these feelings away now though, for the good of everyone. I've gotta do this myself, not literally, but… yeah, by myself.
Sometimes I wish I wasn't so alone… That I didn't have to pretend I was okay.
One glance at my Flock and I know I'll be able to tough it out for a while. But the question is; how long can I do this myself?
And it's you when I look in the mirror
And it's you that makes it hard to let go
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
Sometimes you can't make it
The best you can do is to fake it
Sometimes you can't make it on your own
