CHAPTER FOUR
(A few weeks later) July 1995
1:30 PM, FBI, headquarters, cafeteria
Scully returned from the distributor with 2 cups of hot coffee.
"Here you are" she said and handed one to Monica.
"You know Dana… now that you're pregnant you should really stop drinking so much coffee" said Monica "I've heard it's bad for the baby".
"I know" replied Scully and put her cup back on the table "But caffeine's good for the concentration". She leaned back against the chair and closed her eyes.
"You look troubled, what's wrong?" asked Monica.
"I've been reflecting a lot these past days… you know… about my relationship with Mulder, the pregnancy and all that…"
"And you've come to what conclusion?"
"That I want to know" said Dana.
"Dana-"
"Do you know why I love him so much?" interrupted Scully.
"Because he's a geek?" asked Monica smiling.
"I love him because our relationship has always been based on friendship and trust. When I was at his side I felt safe and cared for… It's just… Did you ever feel so close to someone that you thought you knew him better than you know yourself?"
"I wish I had…"
"Well I felt that way with Mulder. I thought I could trust him with everything…and know I feel betrayed."
"Maybe it's not as bad as you think it is. Maybe he's just seeing some friends or doing some extra work"
"Mulder doesn't have many friends" replied Scully "And I don't think that it's possible to do more work than he's already doing…"
"Hey… I'm just a friend who's desperately trying to cheer you up" said Monica and smiled warmly.
"I know. Thank you" Dana paused for a moment. She had been thinking a lot about Mulder's mysterious disappearances on weekends and feared the possibilities. "What if he's cheating on me?"
"I don't know what to say… I have no clue as to what he might be doing, but I don't think he's unfaithful."
"I love him so much… You know, my greatest fear is not the revelation of the truth itself, but the uncertainty of not knowing if I will be able to endure this truth… I've read that most women feel stronger and more confident while they're pregnant; I can't pretend that from me, I've never been so weak and fearful in my whole life…"
"If you really want to follow him and see where he's going, I'd be more than glad to come with you"
"Thank you. But I'd prefer to do it alone" said Scully.
"You can call me at anytime" replied Monica calmly.
Scully smiled softly, she knew that she could always count on Monica.
8:30 PM, FBI headquarters, parking-lot
Mulder and Scully got out of the elevator. There was no one in the parking-lot, he reached for her hand, and she let him take it. They were alone, finally.
She had been very quiet during the afternoon, and he couldn't help but worry about her, he always did.
Even now she wouldn't say a word; she just continued walking next to him and sometimes gently squeezed his hand.
He stopped and turned round to face her, she knew what was coming, and answered before he could even ask what was wrong with her.
"I'm fine Mulder. I'm just a bit tired, this week had been quite trying…, but I'll have the whole weekend to relax. Really you don't have to be concerned."
"Well then I wouldn't dare to disagree with you"
He smiled and held her closer, one hand caressing her cheek, the other one placed on her waist. Then he leaned towards her and they kissed.
