Hey everyone thanks again for reviewing. Also I don't know if it's just me but it seems like has been really slow at updating these last few days. So I did put up chapter five last night and as of now it was still not updated so if you get this chapter make sure you read five as well or you could be slightly confused. Also I've gotten good feedback about the whole Jack and military thing which is good cause I was a little wary about doing it because I'm afraid it can become very cheesy very quick. So that's why I need your reviews because I need you all to let me know if I'm going in the right direction. Ok now I'm done rambling so here's the next chapter.

Chapter 6

Kate was pretty sure she had just misheard Jack when he said the word assassin. How could this wonderful caring doctor take lives purposefully? Kate realized that it changed nothing though She still loved him and she wasn't about to lose the only good thing she's ever had. So she just listened as Jack continued on with his story.

"Can you imagine?" his voice almost bitter. "Here I am working my ass off so I can become a doctor and save lives and the government wants me to take them. At first when they brought it up to me I thought I misunderstood, I figured they wanted me on sniper detail. You know up on the roofs guarding people, killing if only necessary, but no they wanted me to intentionally kill people. I couldn't wrap my mind around it at first but they told me about this man. He was a monster Kate, a true monster he murdered and raped his way to the top to become very powerful. He ordered the genocide of his own people he was responsible for the deaths of thousands of men, women and children. He was a modern day Hitler. The US government had been working with the United Nations trying to bring him down, and they couldn't, so orders came from the top officials that this man needed to be put down permanently. I still didn't think I could do it but then they showed me the pictures of the destruction he did and it made me sick. It made me hate this man so much that I was willing to do the job. I went through months of intense training and undercover work. Then one day I was sent to his estate where he lived and I stood on the balcony of a hotel across the way. It was night out and he was outside on his porch smoking his cigarette. I probably wouldn't have been able to see him as well even with the night vision tools I had if it wasn't for the glowing red tip of that cigarette. I pointed my rifle, aimed and shot. I killed him with one shot right between the eyes." Jack's voice became colder as he spoke.

Kate felt a shiver run down her spine as she listened to Jack talk. He was reverting to the attitude he had earlier and that scared Kate more than the story he just told. She snuggled closer and gently kissed the spot under his ear, giving him her reassurance that she was still here and not going anywhere.

"I killed a man, Kate. I pointed a gun and killed a man. He didn't even know what hit him it almost didn't seem fair that a monster like him could go so peacefully. I thought that by doing this, that by taking a life it would break me I figured I wouldn't be able to handle it. I always believed I was as weak and worthless as my parents had taken every chance to remind me of. It didn't break me though in fact I felt nothing. No fear, regret or guilt. In fact I almost felt proud I had accomplished something good. After his assassination the country re-built themselves they have a leader who is a truly good man and the horror that monster brought upon them was slowly dissipating. I took more jobs Kate, I killed more people and it wasn't always across the way with a rifle. There were times that I had to befriend a target, get close to them, I've had to kill with knives, guns and even my bare hands. At first I felt accomplished these people were horrible but it changed, soon targets became people who weren't that bad they just stood in the way of political agendas. By this time I had worked my way through the military and had gained a strong reputation. Need someone killed, call Jack Shephard. Can you believe my name actually caused fear to people? I would love to tell you that I quit, that I couldn't take the killing, but I didn't. I left the military with full honors. I took time off and then eventually I became a surgeon and ended up at the same hospital as my father. He would call me a failure and a disgrace and I wanted to shout at him that I've made powerful people cry and beg for mercy, but I couldn't. I couldn't talk about my dealings in the military. They even forged documents to make it look like I was off being a doctor in some far off land when I was actually taking out a target." Jack sighed loudly.

He cringed realizing he had just told Kate some of his darker secrets. She was very still and quiet. In fact she hadn't spoken once since he told his story. He felt the small fear creep into his chest. Had he lost her? Was she scared and disgusted? Was she trying to figure out a way to escape the caves and him?

Kate sensed Jack tense and she realized that perhaps her silence wasn't the best thing. She pushed herself up and leaned on her elbows looking at him. She stared straight in his eyes while she tried to figure out what exactly to say. Before she could think words tumbled from her mouth.

"You jerk, that's how you managed to shoot us out of the net with one shot. This whole time I thought you were just lucky." Her voice was affectionate with a teasing tone. Jack glanced at her confused, she wasn't mad or sickened by him? As if reading his mind Kate bent and brushed her lips across his in a sweet kiss.

"What did I tell you? I love you and nothing is going to change that. You told me that we all get a new life here, that we get a chance to start over. That goes for you too." Kate said running her fingers lightly across his cheek.

"Michael knows about things I did, if it got out people could be scared of me, I can't help them medically if they are too scared to come to me." Jack said regretfully.

"Hey, that's their problem then, hell Jack they've forgiven me and they don't even know what I did. If they can't accept you then to hell with them." Kate said sternly. "Can I ask you something?" Kate asked.

"Sure," Jack replied.

"When Michael mentioned Asia and South America were those military missions you were on?" Kate asked curiously.

"No" Jack said quietly "Maybe one day I could tell you about that but not now. I'm not ready."

Kate smiled at him, "It's ok I didn't mean to pry, you can tell me when you want." Kate paused for a second and then spoke again, "I murdered my stepfather. He beat my mom and I wanted him to stop so I let the gas leak in our house and it blew up when he was passed out drunk. My mother couldn't forgive me and I went on the run. I came back once and my best friend Tom was killed because I was trying to flee and he wouldn't leave the car, he was shot by a police officer. The airplane belonged to him. I was eventually caught in Australia and on my way back here and well you know that went." Kate felt a small tear drip down her face as she confessed her sins and she felt him softly brush the tear away.

"Guess what?" he asked. "I love you and nothing you say could change my mind." Jack said echoing her words from earlier. Kate leaned down and pressed her lips hard against his in a crushing kiss that he met just as strongly. Jack flipped Kate on her back and moved atop her. He unzipped his jeans and kicked them off and entered her slowly.

"Would you look at the two of us? I guess we're both screwed up" Jack said slightly out of breath as he moved in and out of her.

"Perfect fit" Kate moaned, he had been in her numerous times throughout the night but each time felt like it was the first. "Bonnie and Clyde" she murmured against his lips. The two fell into a beautiful rhythm and they made love knowing some of each others secrets and their hearts felt lighter because of it.

Ok so I know this chapter was kind of slow because it had a lot of background info to catch up on but I promise the plot will pick up starting with next chapter when the couple heads back to the beach and the other survivors.