Oh my gosh was it me or was the finale crazy? That was a great look that Jack and Kate shared at the end, they are so in love. Damon Lindelhoff said that next season is going to be stocked full of Jate so let's hope its true. Ok here's Chapter 10 yikes this story started out as a one-shot and here I am ten chapters later. Let's hope I don't kill the plot.

Chapter 10

Kate sighed to herself as she walked back to the beach. She was worried about Jack and to be honest she was worried about what he might have to do. She hated leaving him but in a way it was almost a relief. She listened to him tell her about the things he did, killing people with his bare hands, it was one thing to hear about it but it was entirely different to witness it firsthand. She understood why he asked her to go. It didn't change things she still loved him and she was pretty much convinced that even if she did witness something like that it still wouldn't make her turn from him. That thought almost scared her she had never felt this way about anyone before, this type of love was foreign to her. Was she really willing to sit by and let Michael be tortured if needed? At the hands of Jack? She remembered how angry she felt at Sayid and Jack when they went after Sawyer. She stopped and looked back at the hatch. She had always wanted to be good, from the time she was a child she hated being yelled at and craved her parent's affection when she did something right. There were times on the run that she seriously couldn't figure out how screwed up things had become, she sometimes would pray that somehow time could go back and she would wake up a child safe in her bed and she could re-do her life and choose a different path. Kate couldn't do that now though, she didn't want to because no matter how bad it was it led her to Jack, and perhaps his own screwed up life led him to her. Fate, redemption for them both found within each other.

She knew Jack was kind and good, she knew it because she saw it with her own two eyes. The way he held and cradled Aaron during the baby's check-ups the way he would comfort a concerned Claire, how he joked with Hurley and Charlie and how he would get bashful when Rose complimented him or fussed over him when she noticed he hadn't been eating. She saw it in the way he made love to her, he would love her and give his soul to her in those intimate moments. He wanted to believe it was an act and that the killer inside him was his true nature. It wasn't true she saw how he didn't want to hurt Michael and how he seemed to hope that Michael would just talk to him and not force him to take it a step further. He wanted to get Walt back even though Michael betrayed them. She knew that had to have hurt Jack, he and Michael were friends before the Others took Walt. They would golf and hang out and Jack was relaxed around Michael, if they had a television Kate could envision Jack and Michael sitting around watching a football game and slapping five when their team won the game.

Kate turned back to the hatch; he wanted her to leave because he didn't want her to see him as a monster and by leaving it was if it was reinforcing that thinking. Sure Jack had taken lives, for a purpose for a job. By doing what he did he was probably saving lives of other people who never had a clue. It was a job to do that but with Michael it would be personal and that scared the hell out of her. She was afraid for Jack and how it would affect him and she knew she had to be there for him when he was done. She had to be the one to reassure him that he wasn't a monster. She had to take care of him the way he broke his back trying to care for everyone else on the island. She rushed through the door and ran into the living room quarters and she came to a sudden halt when she saw Jack sitting on the couch staring at his hands. He looked exhausted.

"Jack?" she whispered. His head shot up and his eyes met hers, his eyes became concerned as he took in her appearance sweaty and out of breath.

"What? What is it? What happened?" he asked jumping up, immediately going into leader mode.

Kate paused for a second just taking him in looking for any sign of what might have been going on in the hatch, she was pulled from her thoughts by the feel of Jack's hands grasping her shoulders. "Kate?" he asked once again.

"Where's Michael, what did you do to him?" Kate realized the minute the words came out that they sounded all wrong but before she could go on she watched as Jack went pale and he stepped away from her.

"So this is it?" he asked softly refusing to meet her glance.

"Jack" she tried to interrupt him.

"No, no it's fine, I knew this would happen, you'd see the real me and would want to get away. I don't blame you" he sat on the couch resting his face in his hands looking absolutely beaten.

Kate launched herself to her knees in front of him trying to take his hands from his face. "No, no Jack oh god that isn't what I meant it wasn't how I meant to say it at all. Oh god please let me start over, I was afraid for you, I was afraid that Michael wouldn't talk and you would be forced to do what you had to do. That scared me because I know Michael was your friend and I wanted to be here for you when it was done. I was expecting you to be in the room not out here, you just startled me that's all, and I was out of breath my words came out completely wrong. Please baby just look at me, I love you please." Kate pleaded with him her eyes filling with tears.

Jack stood up and pulled away once again still refusing to look at her. His shoulders had sagged and he stumbled slightly trying to get away from her.

"It's ok Kate, you don't need to make excuses, I understand I really do" his voice was broken as he held his back to her. "I'm not mad I'm not, so you don't have to be afraid of me or anything I would never hurt you. I get that you want out it's ok, I'll step away you can go it's ok" Jack said.

Kate let out a sob and yelled at him, "Dammit Jack, listen to me!" her tone caught him off guard and he turned to see her. She was standing there looking at him tears streaming down her face, her fists were clenched at her sides and Jack saw a fire in her eyes that was pure fury. "I love you, you bastard! I love you more than anything in this whole fucking world. I told you I did, and I told you nothing could ever change the way I felt for you. When I came in I just meant to ask you what happened I wasn't accusing you of anything. I wanted to make sure you were ok because I knew that if Michael forced you to hurt him it would be his own damn fault but that you would blame yourself! I couldn't stand it, you take on so much Jack and I watch as it weighs you down I was afraid that this could break you, he wasn't some target that you read up on, he was your friend god dammit and I was worried about you! I know I've lied to you before Jack but not about loving you! How dare you try to walk away from me, from us! How dare you have so little faith in me and what we've shared these last couple days! I could be carrying your baby right now; does that mean nothing to you, so little that you could just walk away, let me go?" Kate was becoming hysterical as she shouted at Jack. Sayid had heard the yelling and came out of the computer room to see what the problem was, seeing the situation he thought it wise to go right back and stay out of the way.

Jack was across the room in seconds as he pulled her to him she fought with him but he refused to yield, "I'm sorry baby I'm so sorry. It's not that I don't have faith in you, I do, it's just I don't have faith in me. Since you told me you loved me Kate I've been waiting for the other shoe to drop. I screw up and the people who love me they leave and it's my fault, it's my fault no one ever sticks around. I was never good enough for my parents, they couldn't love me and they were my parents! My ex-wife wanted my money and that was it, when she got it all she walked away without a second glance. I didn't mean to hurt you I swear I just, I keep waiting to do something that drives you away and it wouldn't be your fault, I'm not easy to love. I could never blame you for wanting to get far away, I've done horrible things. As for a baby Kate, the baby means so much to me because it would be something that was a part of us both. It scares me though because you could stop loving me and you could walk away with our child and I would have nothing. I'm sorry I'm so screwed up it isn't you I just I'm not used to having something to look forward to and that's what it's like when I'm with you. I start seeing a future and it feels so good but then I hear my father's voice in the back of my head telling me that I'm a disappointment and a mistake and I start to believe that you would be better off without me." Jack said his own tears running down his cheeks.

Kate felt her heart break, listening to him she wrapped her arms around his neck and hugged him tight, "I hate your parents, I hate them for what they did and for what they missed out on. I love you Jack and it isn't hard, loving you is the easiest thing I've ever done. I'm not going anywhere and the imaginary shoe isn't going to drop. This is our shot at happiness, we've been through so much and now it's our time to forgive ourselves and move on. I look at you and I see a brave, courageous, caring man and my heart leaps because I know that you're mine. Those people in your life they were the screw ups and the mistakes not you. You and I are right. We are what is supposed to be and if there is a baby in me then it just make it more perfect. Someone would have to take me kicking, screaming and biting to get me away from you. There is no way in hell I could be better off without you, you're my soul Jack and I can't live without my soul." Kate said hugging him tighter. She felt relief rush through her body when he tightened his grip on her. She pulled away slightly and their lips crashed together in a hungry desperate kiss. Their tongues intertwined and Kate couldn't get enough of his taste. The love she felt for him bubbled up through her and she kissed him harder. After a few minutes she let out a whimper when Jack tore his mouth from hers. She leaned in to recapture his lips but he pulled back.

"Not here baby, not here. Sayid is in the other room and Michael is down here" he said out of breath leaning his forehead on his.

"I need you Jack" Kate begged rubbing her hands through his hair and across his neck. "I need you so bad" she said with a lust filled sob.

Jack took her mouth again and kissed her hard. He backed her out of the room and into the bedroom closing the door behind him and flipping the lock without breaking contact from her lips. "Oh god Kate, I have to take you I want you so bad."

"Now" Kate breathlessly exclaimed, "Now, don't wait, love me Jack please just love me."

Jack pressed her against the door and the two tore at each others clothes while kissing frantically. Kate gave up trying to unbutton his shirt and just ripped it open sending buttons everywhere. Jack was unbuttoning her jeans and pushing them down her legs as well as her underwear. As soon as Kate had his shirt off of him she attacked his jeans. She pushed them down to his thighs and felt herself being lifted off the floor and out of the garments that rested at her feet. Within seconds Kate's back was pressed against the door her legs wrapped around Jack's waist and he was thrusting inside her. Kate let out a loud moan as she felt him push inside. She felt so good when they made love to be able to be connected to him in the most intimate way made her feel more loved than she had ever known. He grasped her legs and held them up and he moved in and out of her.

"Kate" he gasped, "Look at me Kate, baby look at me."

Kate opened her eyes and stared directly into the rich brown eyes of her lover. They held the eye contact as he thrust into her. Kate leaned in and kissed him the whole time keeping her eyes open. The moment was almost vulnerable as she felt like she was truly giving him every little part of her, but he was giving the same as she felt like she was looking directly into his soul. The only noise in the room was the steady bump that their bodies made against the door and the occasional gasp and moan. To them, staring into each others eyes as they connected, words weren't needed. Kate couldn't help but love the irony that the most passionate and soulful moment she had ever had was being made love to against a door in the hatch with half her clothes still on. She could feel herself starting to unravel as her release was coming upon her.

"Jack, I'm gonna come, oh god I'm so close." She moaned.

"Keep your eyes open baby, please I want to see all of you when you come, keep them open, look at me sweetheart." Jack said speeding up his thrusts and slightly changing his position so he was hitting her directly in the right spot. Kate wanted nothing more than to close her eyes throw her head back and just let the passion overtake her but she fought the urge and looked Jack straight in the eye. Kate could feel tears forming in her eyes as she struggled to stay in control, when the waves of her release hit her she cried out his name but still looked into his eyes and could see her own reflection in the depth of his stare that was filled with love and lust just for her. The tears tumbled down her face as she writhed in ecstasy but never broke the gaze. The control to deny her instinct to close her eyes was adding to the stimulation coursing through her body. Kate completely unraveled screaming his name coming for a second time in just seconds this one harder than the first. Suddenly she felt Jack begin to thrust hard and fast inside of her. He was almost out of control as he pounded into her body refusing to look away from her; he suddenly moaned her name and came inside of her. Never breaking their gaze Kate looked into his eyes as she felt his release run through her. Moments later they were completely spent as Jack leaned on her pushing her back against the door, holding her up with his arms as her legs became loose around his waist. Jack buried his face against her neck, while she gently stroked his back while they both tried to come down to earth.

"Oh my god" was all she could say in a hoarse whisper.

Jack pulled away slightly "Is this what it's going to be like every time we make up after a fight?"

Kate let out a giggle "I don't know if I could survive this again. My god Jack that was incredible"

Jack leaned back and gently lowered her legs allowing her feet to touch the groaned, they both moaned softly as he eased out of her, disconnecting them. He leaned in and gave her soft and sweet kiss. "I don't think I can take all the credit Ms. Austin you were pretty spectacular yourself"

Kate watched as Jack pulled his jeans up and zipped and buttoned them, she felt like a noodle and had no will to even want to get dressed. Sensing her apathy Jack gave her a smile and bent over and grabbed her underwear. She almost felt like a child as he gently slipped the underwear back on her and pulled them up her legs. He continued and grabbed her jeans and did the same. When she was completely dressed he smiled at her.

"I'm not used to putting clothes on you, just taking them off" he said with a chuckle, he leaned over and grabbed his shirt and saw what remained of the torn fabric. He shot Kate a look. "In a hurry were you?" he asked raising an eyebrow.

"Yes I was," Kate said sleepily leaning against the door. Jack put the shirt on and Kate smiled as it hung open exposing his chest. She slipped her arms around his neck and pulled herself off the door.

"Jack?" she asked sweetly, hugging him and laying her head on his shoulder.

"Yes?" he answered.

"Don't get me wrong cause I'm not complaining believe me, but I do have a request." Kate said giving a small yawn.

"What's that?" Jack asked amused at how worn out she was.

"Next time do you think we can use the bed because my back is getting a little sore from tree trunks, caves and doors." She said nibbling at his shoulder.

Jack looked down at her concerned as he thought back to all the times he has made love to her and the number of times it consisted of him slamming her against a hard surface. "I'm sorry sweetheart" he said stroking her hair and gently rubbing her back. "I never meant to hurt you."

"Don't be sorry, you've never hurt me, ever" she said emphasizing the word ever. "In fact I love it when you get all manly on me and feel the need to nail me against the nearest surface, I'm just saying next time lets try the bed, and maybe take all of our clothes off too." She said smiling against him.

"You're so demanding" he whispered with a chuckle. The two sat there for a few minutes before Jack pulled away from her gently. "We should probably go back out there. You know that there is no way Sayid didn't hear what happened with all the screaming and bellowing you did."

Kate gave him an incredulous look, "My bellowing?" she asked pretending to be appalled, "I wouldn't have had to bellow if you hadn't have decided to give me the best orgasms I've ever had. Which by the way Dr. Shephard, I think we need to have a little discussion on where you picked up that keeping your eyes open trick. If we ever get out of here is there some tramp that I need to find and beat up?" she said raising an eyebrow at him.

Jack chuckled, "I swear on all that is holy I have never looked a woman in the eye like that when I made love to her."

"Hmm" Kate said teasing him "And how many women are we talking about?"

Jack rolled his eyes and turned her around and opened the door leading her out in front of him. The two looked up to see Sayid, Sawyer, Locke and Shannon looking back at them.

Ok so I thought that would be a funny way to end the story completely…….just kidding make sure you hit the little review button and you shall be rewarded with more updates.