Hey gang back for chapter 21 I hate to admit it but my writing muse has taken a vacation and didn't leave a forwarding address so let's just hope this works out, cause I just don't have a lot of motivation. There is a lot of smut though.

CHAPTER 21

Jack looked at Kate stunned, "What?" he stammered.

"Jack the picture came from Claire. She's had it all this time, she grew up in Australia and all she knows is her father left to be with his family back in the states." Kate said gently touching his arm. Jack just stopped and stared at the ground trying to wrap his mind around this. He knew his dad cheated on his mom, but to have another child and do nothing about it?

"He didn't take care of her?" Jack asked Kate quizzically.

"I'm sorry what?" Kate asked him slightly thrown by his question.

"My father, you said she didn't know him but did he take care of her, did he support her? Did he keep in contact with her family at all?" Jack asked and Kate was slightly thrown by the cold tone his voice took.

"I, I don't know" Kate said looking at him concerned. "I only know what I told you."

Jack swore under his breath and paced back and forth rubbing the back of his head. Kate was slightly stumped by his reaction but she recognized the tension and darkness growing in him. He was acting the way he did the first time they made love in the caves, and she wasn't sure why.

"Jack, baby talk to me" Kate said moving behind him.

Jack chuckled bitterly and Kate bit her lip in concern.

"You know growing up I did everything I could to please that bastard. I wanted to be just like him. Of course according to him I couldn't come close. Funny how when I got older and more screwed up I started acting more and more like him. I drank like a fish and screwed anything with a pulse." Jack said staring off into the distance. Kate flinched slightly when he said the last part. "At least to my knowledge, I don't have any kids out there, and if I did I sure as hell would take care of them. Wouldn't I?" Jack turned to Kate and she saw a pained glint in his eyes. Kate felt her heart clench as he looked at her with a pleading expression.

"Of course you would, I have no doubt in my mind" Kate said grabbing his arm. "Jack, look at me. You have become closer to me than anyone has ever in just a short amount of time. The day after we made love I pleaded with you to make a baby with me if one hadn't been made yet. You didn't even flinch when I brought up the idea of possibly being pregnant and since that day you have been nothing but loving and supportive." Kate said squeezing his arm trying to get through to him.

"I'm not a good man Kate, I have no right having a child" Jack said staring at her stomach. Kate felt her stomach flip and she grabbed him and pulled him tight.

"Shut up Jack, don't you ever talk like that. You and I are going to have a baby and it's going to be perfect, half me and half you. You held me and told me we could do this and I know it wasn't a lie." Kate said her voice breaking slightly.

Jack pulled away and Kate whimpered at his blank expression. "I lie all the time Kate" he said coldly. "I've told people I care about them and then I've turned around and killed them. It's all part of the game."

Kate felt the bile rise in her throat. "No Jack not about this and not about us. You didn't lie to me. I understand you're hurt and you're pissed at your father, but don't you dare cheapen what we have." Kate said her voice full of force.

Jack sighed and his shoulders slumped. "I'm sorry" he said looking at the ground. "I'm sorry I hurt you I just I can't think." Jack said.

Kate pressed against him and wrapped her arms around him and was relieved to feel him hug her back. "It's ok Jack I know you're hurting just don't push me away. I want to help you; we can get through this together."

Jack sat down on the sand and pulled Kate with him so she was straddling him. "I love you Kate, I love you so much." He said burying his face in her hair. "I don't mean to be such an asshole to you. I'm sorry I hurt you."

Kate kissed his cheek. "It's ok Jack. I think we need to talk though, you still have a sister. Claire is your sister."

Jack sighed and rested his chin on her shoulder. "I don't even know what to make of that. What if she hates me?"

"Jack why would she hate you?" Kate asked stroking his back.

"I don't know, he abandoned her and came home to my mom and me. I couldn't blame her if she resented me." Jack said.

"I doubt she is going to be too angry with you Jack. Claire doesn't seem the type to hold a grudge. You want to head back to the beach and see her?" Kate asked.

"I probably should, I'd rather stay here and make up for being such an ass to you." Jack said with a small smile.

Kate leaned in and kissed him gently, "Oh well you'll have plenty of time later to make up for everything. And by the way" she said nibbling at his lip, "The whole comment on screwing anything with a pulse is going to cost you big time."

Jack flinched, "Would you believe I hit my head and had no idea what I was saying?"

Kate thought for a second "No" she said shaking her head.

"Great" Jack said with a sarcastic tone.

"You ready to go?" She asked him softly.

"Yeah" he suddenly held Kate around her waist with one arm and moved his hand to her tummy. "I didn't mean what I said. I'm beyond thrilled that we're going to have a baby." Jack said stroking her stomach.

"I know" she said with a smile. "I know you well enough to know that when you get in one of your moods you like to pick fights. Lucky for you I'm better at winning those fights"

Jack snorted "You win the fights?" he asked with a small smile.

"Of course" Kate said "Every time we fight we end up having mind blowing sex, usually at my suggestion."

"That's true, you win" Jack said kissing her neck. He groaned, "We better go"

"I think we can go in a little bit." Kate said stroking his hair.

"Uh what are you suggesting?" Jack asked.

"I'm thinking you can put a dent in your apologizing to me and we can have some of that mind blowing sex." Kate said leaning in for a kiss.

Jack gave her a rueful smile, "My whole world was just turned upside down and all you can think about is sex?" he asked teasing.

"Sex with you" Kate corrected.

"Good answer, and as much as I would love to have you right here and now, I think I need to figure this whole Claire thing out first. Then I'll boff your brains out." Jack said standing up slowly pulling Kate up with him and settling her on her feet.

"Promises Promises" Kate muttered. She was kidding though trying to lighten Jack up. She knew he needed to talk to Claire and that it would be a somewhat emotional experience. She just wanted to be with him and help him through it. They walked hand in hand back to the beach and Kate felt Jack come to a sudden stop. She looked up and saw him staring down the beach. She followed his gaze and she saw Claire holding Aaron talking to Charlie.

"What if she doesn't want to have anything with me?" Jack asked keeping his eyes on Claire. "I mean my own parents didn't want much to do with me what if she feels the same way."

Kate leaned up and kissed his cheek gently. "It'll be ok."

Jack nodded and they headed across the beach and Kate felt Jack squeeze her hand a little tighter. They approached the group and Claire looked up and saw them.

"Hi" she said shyly looking at Jack.

"Hey" he said rubbing the back of his head. He wasn't sure what to do or what to say.

"Can we talk for a second?" Claire asked.

"Sure" Jack said. Claire handed Aaron to Charlie and she and Jack walked down the beach a bit. Kate and Charlie watched them each feeling nervous for the person they loved.

Jack and Claire settled in the sand and looked out at the water.

"So" Claire said.

Jack chuckled "Yeah, that about sums it up."

"Did you look at the picture?" Claire asked hesitantly.

"Uh yeah" he got the picture out of his pocket. He looked at it one more time and then handed it to her.

"Judging by the look on your face it's a sure thing huh? That man in my picture is your father." Claire said more as a statement.

"Yeah that's him." Jack said staring at the ocean. "Claire did you ever meet him, did he ever contact you?"

"No, I never knew much about him, my mom didn't talk about him. All I knew was that he had another family and left to be with them." Claire said.

"I'm sorry" Jack said looking at her.

Claire shook her head, "Jack why would you be sorry?"

"He left you to be with my mom, I'm sorry about that." Jack said regretfully.

"Jack that's not your fault, and I don't blame you. Sure I was curious about my father growing up, but I had a wonderful family I had my mom and my step dad and I was happy. He was the person who created me but he wasn't my father, at least not where it counted." Claire said.

Jack nodded his head in understanding.

"That doesn't mean that I don't want anything to do with my family though" Claire said nervously. Jack looked at her slightly confused and Claire smiled. "I might not consider him as my father but that doesn't mean that I don't want to know my brother."

Jack looked at her and returned her smile. "I'd like to know my sister too."

Charlie and Kate sat near the shelter watching Jack and Claire talk.

"So uh how do you think its going?" Charlie asked.

"Looks like it's going well." Kate said. "Jack was so scared she'd hate him"

"Why would Claire hate him?" Charlie asked confused.

"Well he feels guilty that Christian left Claire to come back to his family. Though in my opinion Claire lucked out." Kate said.

"What, Christian was a bad guy, I mean besides the whole abandoning his daughter thing?" Charlie asked.

Kate sighed, "It's not my place but Jack's family life wasn't exactly ideal."

"Well heads, up because here they come." Charlie said. Kate looked up and saw Jack and Charlie heading towards them. They were walking side by side and smiling. Kate felt a rush of happiness, maybe things were going to be ok.

"Hey" she said when they met up. She looked at Jack with inquiring eyes. He smiled back at her and kissed her gently. Claire went over to Charlie and scooped up Aaron. She walked over to Jack and Kate.

"Jack, I'd like you to meet someone." Claire said gesturing to Aaron. "I'd like to introduce you to your nephew." Claire said beaming.

Jack smiled and gently took the infant in his arms. Even though he had held the boy many times this time was different and special. Jack looked at the baby who was looking back at him with wide eyes. Jack rocked him gently and the baby giggled making Jack smile even wider.

"Hi, Aaron, I'm your Uncle Jack" he said looking at the little boy.

Kate couldn't help the tears that welled in her eyes as she watched the man she loved cradle his new found nephew. She couldn't wait to see him hold their baby. They stayed with Claire and Charlie most of the evening Jack and Claire exchanging stories of their past. When it got late they said their goodbyes and Kate led Jack to their shelter. They entered their shelter and Jack gave Kate a dazzling smile.

"That went well didn't it? I mean Claire seems happy right?" Jack asked. Kate smiled at Jack's boyish enthusiasm. After having almost no parents at all Jack had finally found a family. He looked absolutely happy and that made Kate happy.

"Yeah baby it went real well" she said slipping her arms around his neck. She lifted her face and Jack met her lips in a sweet kiss. He rubbed his hands up and down her back and when they broke away Kate nuzzled him.

"If my memory serves me correct I believe you mentioned boffing my brains out earlier." Kate said with a naughty smile. "And I also remember you promising me atonement for your bad behavior."

Jack scooped her up in his arms and they kissed hungrily. He brought her to the bed and laid her down. She looked up at him and her breath caught in her throat as he began to take her clothes off. First he removed her sandals then her jeans. Kate whimpered as he dragged his fingers down the inner side of her thigh as he pulled the denims off. She yanked her tank top off and quickly stripped off her bra and reached to pull him down, she let out a frustrated groan when he pulled from her.

"Jack" she whined. "No teasing you're in enough trouble as it is."

Jack smiled and pulled his shirt off and then slowly unbuttoned his pants. Kate lay on her back propped on her elbows watching him hungrily. It didn't matter how many times they made love Kate craved him with an insatiable hunger. He pulled his pants off and threw them to the side. He pulled his underwear off and eased himself on top of her. Kate quickly grappled with her panties trying to get them off as quick as possible. The sooner the barrier was removed the sooner he would be in her. Jack dragged his lips across her collarbone and moved up her neck. Kate wrapped her arms around his neck and pulled him close wrapping her legs around is waist.

"In me" she mumbled as she kissed at his chin and and lips.

"I'm sorry what was that?" he asked stroking her thigh sending shivers up her spine.

"I want you in me" she whimpered.

"Like this?" Jack asked as he slipped two fingers inside of her gently moving in and out and causing Kate to cry out in pleasure. "Or how about like this?" he asked adding another finger within her.

Kate arched and fidgeted on their make shift bed as her body adjusted to the erotic invasion his fingers were giving her. Jack smiled and kissed her stealing her breath away as his tongue entered her mouth the way his fingers entered her body. Kate rocked against his hand and moaned in pleasure.

Jack pulled his mouth away, "You turn me on so bad when you moan like that. God baby the noises you make and the sounds that come from you, god they make me want to take you so bad."

"Take me" stuttered Kate as she felt her release coming. "I want you to take me Jack please." She cried out as she came squeezing his fingers tight within her. She whimpered as she shook and collapsed on her back. Jack pulled his fingers gently out of her and keeping his eyes locked with hers licked his fingers clean. Kate moaned and pressed her mouth against him tasting herself on his lips.

Jack pressed her back down and smiled at her, "I believe I have some making up to you, so dealer's choice." He gave her a wicked smile.

"Dealer's choice?" asked Kate breathless.

"Yup, that means any way you want it sweetheart." Jack said brushing a curl out of her face.

Kate blushed realizing what he meant, "I don't know, I love everyway you love me."

Jack smiled, "Anyway you want it baby and I will oblige like the servant I am"

Kate smiled and wrapped her arms around his neck, "On your back" she whispered.

Jack quickly rolled to his back and kept her on top of him. Kate straddled him on her knees and placed her hands on each side of his head leaning close to him. "Anyway I want?" she asked.

"Absolutely" Jack said settling his hands on her hips.

"I want you deep in side me" Kate whispered biting his lip gently.

"Your wish is my command" Jack said. With that he lifted her up and maneuvered her impaling herself on his hardenss. Kate's head fell back as she let out a groan of complete pleasure. Jack rubbed his hands up and down her sides tickling her slightly. "Ride me baby" he said with a groan.

Kate rocked back on him as he thrust up inside her. It felt to Kate with each push he was going deeper and deeper. She whimpered as she felt him so hard within her and she rocked harder looking for her sweet release. She whimpered and groaned as his hands roamed her body and she was rewarded to hear her name on his lips every time she tightened around him. Kat leaned her hands back and propped them on his legs and let his lovemaking overtake her. Soon she felt the heat rising up within her and she knew she was going to come soon.

"Jack, I'm so close, oh I'm so close." She moaned speeding up her movements.

Jack sat up and held her close to his chest as he thrust up hard and fast. "Come on baby, come on" Jack groaned.

"Harder Jack harder" Kate pleaded. Jack pulled her from her knees and wrapped her legs around him. She leaned back in his lap and Jack pushed harder. Kate pressed her mouth against his kissing him senseless. She felt the tingle turn into a full blown explosion a she came hard and fast. Her whole body arched and she screamed his name against his mouth as her body shook and jerked with ecstasy in his embrace. Suddenly she felt Jack thrust hard into her and she felt his warm release flood her as he moaned her name. Kate clutched him tight coming down from her own high and still feeling the tremors of his. After a few minutes the two caught their breaths and Kate lifted her head from his shoulder and kissed him bumping her nose against his.

"I love you" she whispered her voice full of emotion.

"I love you too Kate more than life." Jack said stroking her back and looking her in the eyes. "So how was that for a dent in my apology to you" he asked with a twinkle in his eye.

"It's a good start but you have your work cut out for you. Want your next hoop to jump through?" she asked with a smirk and Jack chuckled and nodded.

"I'm tired and I want to sleep" she said yawning and Jack kissed her nose. "Lie back" she said pushing him back on the bed. Kate straightened her legs out keeping him inside her and settled to lie on top of him. "I want to sleep with you inside me" she whispered her eyed drooping as she rested her head against his chest.

"Whatever you want sweetheart." Jack said kissing the top of her head and with that the two fell asleep.

Ok so like I said my muse left me and I've had no motivation to write so I apologize if this is crap.