CHAPTER 9: NEVER IN MY LIFE

"Don't tell me…" Lily shakily said, pointing at James, "That I have to marry that arrogant, bigheaded, trouble-making, trailed-by-girls, prat!" Lily shouted with all the voice that she needed to muster.

Sirius returned to his pranking state and told Lily, "Yet you want him for what he is," he remarked.

"I don't remember telling him that," Lily reasoned out.

"Oh God, Lily Evans, that's because you cannot remember anything," Remus calmly explained. "You loved Prongs. You won't plan to get married if you didn't love him," he said.

"For the voice of reason, Lupin," Lily said. "I'm not in love with him!" she shouted, tactless to the person in front of her, pointing and shaking. "Why would I fall in love with such an arrogant pighead?"

James twitched and he looked at the side, not wanting to hear her words but it pierced right through his heart as she spoke of those words. He was empty…

"Don't talk to him like that," Kristanna said. James opened his eyes and saw a red mark on Lily's face. "Don't you realize how tactless you're going?"

Lily stopped. It was only Kristanna who can stop her hot temper more than anyone else. She stopped and she stared at James. "Apologize!" shrieked the now livid Healer.

Lily was about to open her mouth to talk when James opened the door and said, "I see. I think that's a change of plans." With no other word and before Sirius could stop him, he strode out of the room and slammed the door, though the others didn't noticed that it was slammed shut.

Lily gaped at the closed door and opened and closed her mouth several times like a fish out of water.

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"Prongs?" Sirius called out as he found his friend by the spring. "Well, you… you… I think you should… um…"

The guy glared at him. "Are you gonna talk or I'll hex you?" he threatened. He was clearly in an irate state.

"Forget about that, James. But tell me, what is happening to you?" Sirius asked, worried. "Hell, you won't commit suicide or anything!"

James stood up and looked at the eyes of his best friend. "Padfoot, if one day, Kristanna wakes up and she cannot remember you, what would that feel?"

Sirius could tell that James was serious about this matter. He knew James; serious questions need serious answers. "I would think that my whole world will fall down. But James, I'll have hope because if she really is Kristanna, she would eventually remember me."

"This is different, Padfoot. Lily knows me as the James who teased and pranked her!" James shouted that the owls at the nearby trees flew out. "That's worse than having a zero memory!" he grabbed Sirius' collar.

Sirius pushed James away. "James, you're not James anymore. The James I knew was an optimist. If you really are the old James, you won't lose hope on some ordinary amnesia. You will never give up on her."

"But, you cannot understand!" James bellowed.

"Neither can you!" Sirius answered, spit flying all over the place.

James sighed as he transformed to a stag and ran away. Sirius was about to run after his friend when he saw an eagle flying down to perch on his shoulder. Then he found Kristanna holding his shoulder.

"Better register that power of yours, Mr. Sirius Black."

"Kris, I need to follow James," he insisted but Kristanna clung to his shoulder like the claws of an eagle.

She forced him to turn to her. "He needs some time… alone," she added, before finally taming the wild dog and accompanying him back to the manor.

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"What does it taste?" Kristanna asked her excitedly.

"It's not the usual taste anymore, it tastes like…" she mused for a while, "…like peas!"

"Peas, did you say? Then my theories are true," Kristanna concluded. Before Lily could say another word, she apparated.

"Now, what is happening to that girl? What's the matter with peas?" Lily asked herself, gulping the remaining liquid in the glass.

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