CHAPTER 12: AT THAT TIME

(Na Shi Huo – At that Time)

Sitting on the bed, I slowly take a glance
And listen to the innermost part of my heart
Thinking of you and me holding each other's hand
Looking at the sky above while leaning on your shoulder
Do you remember the day
When we first met each other
But it looks like now I can't see you before me
And everything seems blurry...
Because of the tears I won't shed

Chorus:
I don't want to let you go
Let you go like this
But I am still me, not your plaything
That moment you kissed me
What did that represent?
I don't want to let you go
Gently let you go like this
But I am still me, but not like the original me
And that time your warmth transformed to a monster
Although I was still in your heart
Now I'm lonesome-
Now I'm lonesome...

Sitting on the bed, I slowly look at you

And try to feel if you're really there

'Cause I see you smile but that smile's not mine (not for me)

Do you remember the day?

When we first looked at each other's eyes

But it looks like you cannot remember

And everything's so dark

For the sadness I cannot release

The two (Sirius and Kristanna) slowly descended from the top of the stairs, slow as ever, and when they reached the two kissing figures, they broke apart, Lily pushing James away. James, however, didn't let go of Lily.

"Lily, do you remember how much you loved me?" James cried, holding her by the elbows.

"Let go of me, Potter. Let go of me, please!" Lily pleaded, feeling that bruises will form on the parts where he was holding her. She tried to be strong, she tried to block her tears but it just blurred her vision.

"Why did you kiss me, then?" James asked her. "You remembered, you just don't want to admit it!" he shouted.

Lily's head suddenly burst with memories that she cannot handle. She held both sides of her head, trying to block the sounds. "Stop! No! I don't remember anything, Potter! Stop it!"

"Why can't you remember? Why?" James asked her hopelessly, his roars slowly fading.

Lily grabbed her chance and slapped James. "Potter, stop pestering me! I don't want to see you anymore!" She walked away a few steps. "Why do I have to fall for a bigheaded, arrogant prat like you?" she thought, wiping her tears before apparating.

"I think we should really go," Kristanna said in a small voice. She steered out of the hall, and apparated.

"At least you're not hopeless," Sirius said, looking at the spot where the two ladies disappeared.

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Lily touched her lips as she stared at the sky. She went to the washroom to wash her face and suddenly, as though something ordered her to do, she placed her palm on the cold mirror. She suddenly removed it.

She washed her face and looked at the mirror, looking at herself. "Is this really me after the day I remember? Why can't I remember?" She touched the cold surface of the mirror, on her reflection. She touched the side, feeling that behind the glass, there was someone holding her hand.

"What is happening to me?" she asked herself. She hit the mirror several times. "What is happening to me?" she cried, hitting the glass once again. She slumped down to the floor and wept, water still pouring to the sink. She was weeping hard that she didn't realize that the water was overflowing.

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"Are you sure it's a good idea for me to move to your room?" James asked his friend, who nodded.

Sirius was levitating his baggage. "Of course, Prongs. This was is better. I think moving in this room at this time is better so that the princess won't hear the bangings."

James sighed and entered the room. "Sorry for the room, James," Sirius said. "But I think it's the same as yours. It's just colored black and blue."

James heard the door close. He decided to go to the washroom because it was almost sunrise. However, he unconsciously placed his hand on the cold mirror, at the exact time when Lily placed hers. He removed it, as though he was electrified.

"I must be crazy," he sighed as he continued to wash his face and do his thing. Then he heard some weeping from the other room. He placed his ears near the wall and he really heard it. It was Lily weeping.

NCSP:

The fairy light stood up, with all grace that she can endure, and her robes of green came trailing after her, leaving glitters on her former sitting place. She coughed, hiding the embarrassment. "Of course, my dear Lady. You caught me, after that," she said in a short sentence. "you were thinking that I am just a firefly" – Lily saw an image of herself catching a green dot of light falling from the destroyed rose – "Imagine that?" she laughed with a mixture of her immodest coughing. "A human thinking that the Lady of the Water was a firefly? It's embarrassing! It's…" she stopped as she met her mistress' glare.

a/n: oh, this is nothing, please review!