Nessa woke up the next morning to find that she was alone in the bed so she got up then went to search the house for Joe and found him sitting in the living room looking out the big picture window. "Joe?" He was so deep in thought that he didn't hear her so Nessa stepped closer to him and laid her hand on his shoulder. "Joe?" When he finally turned to look at her what she saw broke her heart in two and she gasped.

He sat there looking up at her with tears in his eyes and the saddest look she had ever seen on any man. "What is it?" Joe whispered, his voice cracking a little.

"Baby what's wrong?"

"Nothing." He replied, turning away from her.

"Joe don't do that, please...just tell me what's wrong."

He turned to look at her again as she sat down beside him and took his hand in hers. "I feel like I'm losing you and I hate the feeling that I can't do a damn thing about it." Joe admitted, hanging his head.

"Baby look at me." Nessa stated, her voice stern and he raised his head to look at her. "You're not losing me, not now...not ever. What makes you think you're losing me?" She asked then suddenly her eyes went wide as she figured out the answer before he had a chance to give it. "This is about last night isn't it?"

"Yeah."

"Joe Seannoa you listen to me and you listen good! You are the only man I want...not Terry, not Sabin, not Nicky, not Kelly or anyone else for that matter. I'm with you because you are the one I want to be with and not them. I married you because I love you more than anything or anyone else in this world. I have never been as happy as I am when I'm with you and you'll never understand how much that means to me."

"Babe..." Joe started but stopped when she raised her hand to silence him.

"I'm not finished yet. You have been with me through hell and back...my god Joe, we've been through hell and back together but we somehow managed to tough it out and stay together. I know when we first got together things weren't what we wanted them to be but we changed all that and we grew stronger from our mistakes. But Joe please do me one favor?"

"What?"

"Don't ever doubt my love for you because that's the one thing I can sit here and tell you straight from my heart that will always be with you and will always be something that I have." Nessa said, tears falling from her eyes.

"Ness I have never doubted your love for me...not even once but you don't understand how much it killed me inside to find out last night that you had lied to me and yes, before you even say anything I know I have lied to you before about some things but I have never lied to you about somewhere I was going or who I was going to be with."

"I know you haven't and I can't even begin to describe how horrible I feel about lying to you but I knew if I told you that I was going to see Terry you would've tried to stop me and maybe even done worse. I had to find out why he told you what he did because it was driving me insane and you know how I get about that shit."

"Yeah babe I do know but..." Joe trailed off, sighing as he ran his free hand through his hair. "Dammit I just wish you wouldn't have went there without me."

"Baby I know that and I don't know how many times I have to apologize to you for it or tell you how much I truly regret it but I do. You mean the world to me and I love you with all my heart and soul."

"I love you the same Ness, you know I do...I'm just afraid of losing you."

"And like I told you Joe, you're not going to lose me. What can I do to make you believe that?"

"Never lying to me again would be a good start." He replied, smiling a little.

"I promise you that I won't. Anything else?"

"Stay away from Gerrin unless I'm around too and follow me upstairs so we can get to the best part of fighting."

"Oh yeah? What's that?" Nessa asked, standing up and hugging him when he stood up.

"The make-up sex of course."

"Why am I not surprised that you said that?" She giggled, following him upstairs.

"Probably cause you know how damn horny I am." Joe said, laughing.

"Yeah, that's probably it." When they got to the top of the stairs Joe turned around and swept her up in his arms causing her to squeal in surprise as he carried her into the bedroom. "I love you Joe Seannoa."

"And I love you Vanessa Seannoa." He whispered, kissing her passionately.