Chapter 3: The Secret Love
Squall didn't answer. He wasn't in the mood to do any talking, especially not to Selphie. He blamed her for his ruined relationship. She was the one who made Rinoa confess she was cheating on him. She was also the one who came up with the idea to buy her a gift and have that stupid romantic picnic. Squall knew he should have turned to someone else. He should have just gone to Zell directly. He could handle the wrath of Zell way better then he could handle the wrath of losing Rinoa.
"I'll tell you anyways," Selphie stated as she stared out the passenger window. She knew what he was thinking, he blamed her. It was always easy to just blame someone else when things don't go according to plan. She didn't know how to tell him that he was a stupid dumbass jerk for wanting to be with Rinoa. She wanted to tell him that he has all the love he needs sitting in the car next to him. Selphie just sighed. There was no way she could really tell him how she felt. What was Quistis thinking when she told Selphie to give him her love?
"Why do you still love her," Selphie asked trying to change the subject rolling through her head. She'd say anything to try and get the commander out of her head. She loved him but she knew she could never have him. He was her best friend's man, and she would die trying to get them back together if that is what it took.
Squall just kept driving. His heart skipped a beat by the thought of someone speaking about his love. He hated Selphie even more for speaking about her in vain. He couldn't believe the little brunette could put down her best friend. He felt so much anger that he couldn't even think straight.
She looked at him waiting for an answer only to find a burning look on his face. She wanted to cry. She had lost of her chance of ever having him love her before she even tried. She knew she should have never asked him that stupid question. She wanted to run into the training center and throw herself at a t-rex, because right now her life was going nowhere.
Squall parked his car and opened his door ending the silence. He just ignored his passenger and started walking toward the door to the garden. He had no intentions of ever talking to Selphie again unless he was forced to by death.
Selphie jumped out of Squall's car and ran to keep up with him. If he was going to hate her, she should at least set him straight. She kept running till she practically ran into the door. She turned around and blocked the doorway. If he wanted to get in, he'd have to go through her.
"Move!"
"You could at least ask politely."
"Move or I'll move you myself!"
"I'll move when you answer my question."
"Selphie…"
"Answer the question Squall."
"I don't know why, happy?"
"Maybe you don't love her. Maybe you're just angry and hurt. You were betrayed Squall and Betrayal always causes pain. But you're wrong to just forgive her and try to get her back. Stuff like that isn't real, it only happens in fairy tales. She doesn't love you anymore you have to move on!"
"I don't want to move on! I love Rinoa and I would do anything for her."
"How can you love someone who doesn't love you back?"
"She does love me back!"
"If she loves you, why is she with Zell?"
"She's just a little confused right now, she'll come back to her senses and realize she loves me soon enough."
"What if she doesn't?"
"Then I will get her back by fighting for her!"
"Squall…"
"I answered your question now move!"
"I have to tell you something,' Selphie whispered as she stepped out of his way. She wanted to tell him the truth. She loved him, but she knew he would never love her. She just looked at him trying to fight back the tears as he waited for her to say whatever she had to say.
Squall just looked at Selphie for a moment. He almost felt something for the green eyed beauty in front of him. He almost wanted to hear what she had to say. It was all gone when she didn't finish her sentence. All his pain and anger over Rinoa came back. He stormed away without saying a thing.
"I think love you,' Selphie whispered after him.
"I love you too Selph," Quistis said walking up to the broken hearted girl. She set down the bag she was carrying and wiped away the tear that had made it self known. She smiled at Selphie. She had overheard everything. She was only supposed to be emptying out the garden car, but eavesdropping was so much more fun.
"He hates me."
"He doesn't hate you; he just doesn't like you very much right now."
"Did I mess up his relationship with Rinoa?"
"Yeah you paid Zell to sleep with her didn't you?"
"No!"
"Rinoa just didn't love him as much he loved her, and there is and was nothing you could do about it."
"Then why do I feel so horrible?"
"Because two men broke your heart in less then one week. You're on a roll."
"Well at least you're happy."
"Speaking of happy, Seifer is waiting in my classroom right now to help me finish grading. If you need to talk, you know where to find me."
"Why Seifer?"
"I'll tell you when I figure out my relationship," Quistis said as she picked up the last bag of food the two had bought earlier. She hugged her friend and quickly exited the parking lot.
Zell was lying on his bed trying to study. He had this big exam with his martial arts instructor the next day. He couldn't concentrate though. He knew Rinoa had run off to meet Squall somewhere. He didn't know what he was getting himself into. Squall was his friend, but he actually loved Rinoa. He didn't know if he should give up his love to keep his friendship or give up his love to keep his friendship.
There was a quiet knock on the door. Assuming it was Rinoa, Zell squirted some breath freshener into his mouth. He had to taste good to impress the ladies. He strutted over to his door ready for some love.
"Hiya Squall," Zell said nervously. He hadn't seen Squall since Rinoa dumped him. He wasn't sure how this encounter was going to turn out. Zell knew he was either going to be crushed into a million pieces or his friend would be understanding. He was positive it was going to be the first of the two.
Squall didn't say anything his just pushed the blonde to the floor. Before Zell could even attempt to get up, Squall was on top of him. Squall aimed the first punch for the chin. He just kept hitting his friend. He couldn't stop himself. He was so angry that Zell would go behind his back. If no one stopped him, he just might kill Zell.
Zell tried to defend him self only to get hit harder. He finally worked up enough strength in his legs to throw Squall off of him. He didn't want to fight his friend, especially over a girl. He was sure there was some other way to work things out. He breathed in time to see Squall lunging at him. This time Zell readied himself for the blow and kicked Squall before Squall hurt him. The force of the kick sent Squall flying into the wall.
Zell felt horrible for hurting Squall so he ran over to his friend. He helped Squall up, which was a huge mistake. The second Squall was steady on his feet again, he kicked Zell. The bed caught Zell, so Squall ran to the opposite side of the bed and picked it up. His anger had given him full strength; so he threw the bed through the wall. The bed crashed threw the wall creating a crowd of onlookers.
The hall was full of men chanting fight when Rinoa walked up. She wasn't sure what was going on, but she knew it needed to be stopped. She thought it would probably be a couple juniors fighting over something stupid. She was surprised at what she saw instead. She ran to get the doctor before Squall could do any more damage to her boyfriend.
"Squall," quivered the blonde. Zell didn't want to die. He didn't want to have to fight Squall either. He was just hoping Squall would talk to him. He would surly die if Squall didn't want to talk or no one came to help him. He could barely move. He couldn't work up to strength to lift the bed off of his battered body.
Squall threw the bed off of Zell. Nothing would be able to stop him from killing the blonde. If he was out of the picture, Rinoa would have to love him. Then out of nowhere he heard a soft voice in his head. You have to get over her and move on. Unable to drop his love for Rinoa, he picked up Zell by the collar of his shirt. She doesn't love you anymore. Squall reached his arm back to punch the blonde one more time. Then he took out all his aggression out on Zell, including his new found hate for Selphie. Squall suddenly snapped back to reality. He looked at Zell and lifted him in his arms. He couldn't believe what he did to his friend. It was Rinoa that betrayed his love, he shouldn't punish Zell.
He ran to the end on the hallway only to run into Dr. Kadowaki. He quickly apologized and kept running to the infirmary with Dr. Kadowaki right behind him. He kept saying, "I'm so sorry Zell." Squall laid Zell down on the open bed and paced the room as the doctor ran in.
"Well at least you didn't kill him like Rinoa said you did," Dr. Kadowaki said as she examined the extent of the injuries. "I am highly disappointed with you commander. I expected better from you." She looked at Zell and bandaged up his broken arm and put a neck brace on the blonde. Zell was practically a bobble head SeeD doll.
"How bad is it doctor?" Squall asked. He couldn't believe what he did. He was angry at Rinoa, not Zell. Selphie was right; he needed to get over Rinoa, before he does kill Zell because of his anger for the raven haired girl he was dating. He looked at Zell apologetically. He was amazed at how Zell understood.
"I would of done the same thing if I was in your shoes," Zell tried to say. Instead he screamed out at the pain it took to move his head. He didn't really try to defend himself from the force of strength that was called Squall. He tried to reach out to Rinoa to know she was there only to find she wasn't.
"Doctor Kadowaki? Would it be completely out of question for me to try and use my powers to heal Zell?" Rinoa asked for across the room. She knew he had a big day tomorrow and she couldn't stand seeing him in so much pain. She was a sorceress; she was more than sure she could heal him.
"I suppose you would be able to if you had a good enough reason. I prefer my patients heal naturally," Kadowaki replied as she finished cleaning the blood off of Zell. She turned to look at Rinoa as she threw away the bloody towel she was using.
"It's just he has an exam with one of his instructor's tomorrow that requires him to be physical. I am sure you are aware that the instructors rarely reschedule exams. Plus with Zell being a SeeD member, he could be called out for a mission anytime. He will need to be in tiptop shape."
"Just this once, next time he heals in here."
Rinoa nodded as Kadowaki left the room to attend to another patient. She walked over and kissed Zell o the cheek, which made him scream out in pain. She whispered sorry and put her hands over his chest. She closed her eyes and a white light filled the room emitting from Rinoa's hands. The cuts and bruises on Zell face started to fade away as the light dimmed. When the light was completely gone, Zell felt like new. Rinoa smiled to see him looking so much better. She didn't want her baby to be in pain.
"Can I have a hot dog now?" Zell asked as he sat up in his bed.
"Sure," Rinoa said as she kissed him lightly on the lips. "I'm so sorry about Squall. I should have never come to you when I was depressed. I screwed everything all up. I just wish there was a way to prove to Squall that we don't belong together."
"Selphie," Zell said quickly. For as long as he knew the little SeeD, she had had a crush on Squall. She was always telling Zell about how she wished that he would look at her. He also knew that her fling with Irvine was finally over. Irvine was with Serena and Selphie was on her own.
"Huh?"
"Nothing, I'm sure he'll get it together on his own time."
"Right."
Selphie sat down on her bed looking through her CD book. She had to figure out a song to sing for the talent show. She didn't actually want to sing, but she promised Quistis. She never wanted to show her face in the garden ever again. Everyone was talking about her recent breakup with the garden flirt and she was sick of every talking about her right behind her back.
She looked at all her CD's and the only song that stood out in her mind, she refused to sing. She laughed at herself. She was back to having the song beautiful disaster stuck in her head. She sang the song to herself.
Why do I keep thinking about him? Selphie asked herself as she looked at her sketch sitting on her desk. It wasn't finished yet. She looked through her CD collection one more time with no luck, so she decided to finish her sketch. She colored it and everything. She couldn't help but admire her work. It looked so real and exactly like Squall.
Rinoa just walked into the room. She was frantic. "I don't know what I'm going to do!"
Selphie quickly shoved her sketch under desk and ran to comfort her friend. She had no idea what she was all hysterical about, but she would try her best the calm her down. She walked her friend over to her bed and hugged her as they sat down.
"He tried to kill him!"
"Huh?"
"Squall, he tried to kill Zell."
"I don't mean to be a bitch, but I love Zell now. He needs to realize that."
"I know sweetie. Is there anything I can do?"
"Well maybe you could talk to him for me. I mean I can't get it through his head, maybe you can."
"I've tried already and I have failed miserably."
"I know you like him."
"Squall? Ewe."
"Selphie…"
"I'm serious. Sure, he may be a little cute, but he is so not my type. I don't date jerks."
"Selphie you don't have to lie to me, I won't get mad."
"I'm not lying. I used to have a crush on him but I'm over it now."
"Who are you trying to convince me or you?"
"He hates me Rinoa! There is no way even if I did like him that he would even talk to me again. I'm not in the mood for heartbreak, okay?"
"Okay, but there is something outside your door I think you should see."
"Please nothing you say is going to change my mind."
Rinoa walked over to the door and grabbed a rose with a letter that was tied to the door knob. She smiled as she handed Selphie the note and put the rose in a glass of water. She knew how much Selphie loved secret admirers and roses. She knew that it would make Selphie happy. Rinoa also could tell whose hand writing it was, but she wasn't about to tell her friend who it was.
"Well, what does it say?" Rinoa asked as she sat back down next to her friend.
Selphie read the note out loud, "It says… Selphie I have been watching you from a far. I see your beauty inside and out. I feel your pain and love. You are one of the most beautiful creatures I have ever seen walk this earth. Please bless me with your presence at the stroke of midnight in the balcony."
"That's your favorite place to think isn't it?"
"I just love to watch the sun set. A person gets the best view there."
"Who do you think it is?"
"I dunno, not who I want it to be."
"Told you, you like him."
"Rinny…"
"Selph go for it, I mean you can't deny love. It just doesn't work that way. It always comes out."
"Yeah, is Zell okay? You said Squall tried to kill him."
"He's fine. I healed him."
"You're going to get in trouble if you use your powers too much."
"Why because of the whole Ultimecia thing. It's done and gone. She dead and the good sorceress is still here to work her magic for the good of people."
"Just be careful."
"I am careful. It's not like there was anyone in the room."
"But if people find out about you being a sorceress they might try to hurt you.'
"I only used my powers once since the battle with Ultimecia. You think that I don't understand how much everyone hates sorceresses right now. Selph I know exactly what the people think. He was in pain and I wasn't going to stand by and watch."
"I just said be careful."
"Now you're sounding like Quistis! I don't need this lecture. I have to go check and make sure the monster didn't come back and try to kill my boyfriend. Thanks for nothing," Rinoa said as she raced out the door.
Selphie sighed as she looked at her note. The last time she had to meet someone there it was Squall. She knew it wasn't going to be him again. She could pray and wish all she wanted, but he would never love her and she had to come to terms about that. She grabbed a sweater and headed to the balcony.
Squall stood on the balcony trying to think. His whole world was falling apart. He just couldn't understand what was going on. He loved Rinoa and he thought she loved him, yet she was with Zell. Then there was Selphie, he didn't know why but he had these strange feelings for her that he didn't understand. He tried to kill his best friend. He loved Zell like his own brother. His life was a disaster. He heard footsteps coming so he hid in the shadows in the corner.
A figure wearing jean pants and a long brown trench coat appeared. He could figure out who it was. He thought it was Irvine though. It was definitely his type of style. The male looked around. He was waiting for someone to show up. The man looked at his watched and started pacing.
Selphie walked up to meet to figure and squall could almost feel his heart drop. Why did he care if she found love with another man? It wasn't like he loved her. He watched as she proceeded to walk up the man. He didn't understand why, but he was starting to feel jealous.
"I don't want to talk to you!"
"Selphie…"
"I love you Irvine Kinneas, but sometimes you have to let love go."
"I'm sorry."
"Sorry doesn't cut it. You cheated on me. I give you everything and you go fuck another woman in return! No, I can not forgive you."
"I will do anything you want me to. Just forgive me, please."
"It's over. I don't deserve to be lied to."
"I will never lie to you ever again."
"I can't trust you anymore."
"I'll do whatever it takes for you to come back to me."
"No."
"Please, I love you."
"If you really loved me, I wouldn't have walked in on you fucking that little whore."
"It won't happen again."
"I'm sorry Irvine. I don't love you like I used to. You were my first love and because of that I will always have a special place for you in my heart, but I don't want to be with you any more. I want more from a man. I want something you could never give me."
"What are you in love with someone else? I'm not afraid to fight someone for you."
"There isn't anyone as of yet, but I am sure my prince will come in time."
"Not if I can help it. I mean I'm your prince."
Selphie touched Irvine face tenderly. It would be the hardest thing she ever had to do, when she walked away from him. She started to cry as she turned and walked away. She would always be in love with him, but he broke her heart. Irvine followed her pleading her to forgive him.
Squall walked out of the shadows to follow them. He couldn't control his own body. All the anger he felt for Selphie was suddenly gone. He didn't hate the tiny brunette any more. He felt a new emotion towards her that couldn't be explained. He respected her for having the strength to walk away from the one she loved; it was what he needed to do. He wasn't that strong; he couldn't just walk away from Rinoa.
When Squall finally caught up to the fighting pair he never expected what he did. Squall pulled Irvine away from Selphie and punched him. He laughed as Irvine tried to frantically stop the blood from rolling out of his nose. It wasn't that he like seeing Irvine in pain; it was that Irvine deserved it. He couldn't stand how the prick couldn't take no for an answer. He hated the way Irvine was treating Selphie.
"You need to learn how to treat a lady Kinneas."
"You mother fucking jerk. Are you why she won't come back to me? Are you fucking my woman?"
"No."
"Then what the hell is your problem."
"I just have a problem with men that can't take no for an answer."
"Well, this isn't your problem."
"I'm making it my problem!"
"You're only going to get yourself hurt."
"Says the man with a bloody nose."
"I ain't afraid of you."
"Stay away from Selphie and you won't have to be. She doesn't want to talk to you."
"This isn't finished Squall. I just don't want to ruin my good jacket."
"Yeah, run away."
Irvine hopped into the open elevator pushing Selphie out of the way. He was so embarrassed he let a guy hit him. He thought Squall even broke his nose. He would never look the same again. He will get his revenge.
Squall walked over and helped Selphie up. He couldn't believe why she would ever love a jerk like that. Then he realized he was being a jerk like that to Rinoa. He smiled at Selphie as he pushed the button for the elevator.
"Thanks."
He couldn't help him self with what he did when she thanked him. She stood there like an angel. Her brown hair was naturally flipped up and her eyes sparkled. He was amazed at how he never noticed how beautiful she really was.
AN: Sorry it took me a while to write this chapter. I am over my brain freeze though. I actually know what I want to go with this for now. Thanks for all the positive feedback. I hope you like this chapter. Peace Out
