Mixed Feelings

by, Sid

Disclaimer: I do not own Gundam Seed nor its characters.

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Also, this chapter has slight lemon in it, aka adult situations; if you can't handle it then don't read it. For everyone else, enjoy!

Kira stood next to the bed staring at the woman lying in his arms and refusing to let him go. Her eyes, without a doubt, shone her jealousy. "Cagalli?"

As Cagalli stared at Kira's confused expression and her jealousy slowly faded leaving only pain. "Don't bring Lacus…" she whispered softly burying her face in his chest.

"Cagalli… some one has to check your injuries… the hospital won't be open this time of night…"

She bit her lip and her eyes shut tightly as she whispered softly, "I don't want Lacus… I want you…"

"I'll be right here waiting when she's through taking a look at you," he said not quite understanding the situation.

"If it's her then I don't want to be examined… I'll wait until the doctor's office opens in the morning…"

"Cagalli…" Kira sighed, "I don't know what you want me to do… we need to look at your injuries and make sure you're okay…"

"So make sure I'm okay…" she whispered softly looking up into his eyes.

"Cagalli, are you sure? I'm a guy after all… wouldn't it be better if it was-"

"I would be better if it was you," she looked at the still hesitant Kira again and clenched her fists tightly as she spoke the words she did not want to speak, "and after all, if you consider us family… then it's okay right?"

Kira looked down at Cagalli surprised but they both knew the decision was made. He gently set her down on the bed and sat down next to her. Cagalli raised her arms and Kira not breaking eye contact with her he slowly lifted her shirt off her. He looked at her and a slight blush tinted his cheeks. It was not as if he had never need a woman without a shirt on. He had been as intimate as one could be with Flay and yet…

Shaking off the thoughts he looked at the deep purple bruise on her stomach that seemed to disappear slightly beneath her white cotton bra.

He brushed his fingers over Cagalli's stomach softly causing her to shiver and wince at the same time. He looked back up at her before speaking, "Cagalli… I really should get Lacus now, because it isn't enough to just see…" his words trailed off as he watched the stubborn Cagalli shake her head, no. She moved forward slightly, blushing and he understood what she wanted him to do. He moved his arms around her to unhook her bra at the back at slowly pulled it off her. His blush deepened as he looked at Cagalli's round breasts and pink nipples. The bruise was lighter there and didn't show as much. He ran his fingers over her stomach once more before his attention returned to her breasts again.

He looked up reluctantly into Cagalli's eyes and what he saw there penetrated his whole being. Her eyes were narrowed and she shivered slightly and the blush had deepened on her cheeks. But it was her eyes that called out to him it was the desire and even love showing in her eyes.

His mind went blank then as all logic left him. His gaze returned to her breasts and he brought his hands up to cup her breasts. Slowly he ran his fingers over her nipples causing them to harden. When her hand lifted touching his cheek gently he returned his gaze to her and when their eyes locked again the passion within them clashed. They came together kissing, their tongues caressing and almost battling. When he pulled away from her they were both panting and he slid down to her collarbone and neck nipping softly.

He kissed his way down to her breasts and kissed them. His tongue lapped at her nipple bringing forth a moan from her. He bit at it gently and then sucked moving to the other breast then.

Cagalli gasped at the pleasure she was feeling then until Kira laid his palm on her stomach and caused her to cry out in pain.

He pulled away from her then snapping out of his trance. He glanced at the shivering Cagalli and took in the bruises clearly for perhaps the first time that night. "Oh, God…" he whispered to himself shaken. He pulled the blanket over her bust to cover her up and stood hurriedly prepared to leave to room.

"Kira! Don't go…" whispered Cagalli.

"Kira closed his eyes tightly, gritting his teeth. "You know this is wrong… you're my sister… this… this can't happen."

"I wanted it to!"

"You're wrong! I took advantage of you… You didn't realize what you were doing… I'm sorry, this won't happen again."

He walked towards the door pausing when he heard Cagalli's trembling voice, "What if I want this to happen again?"

He shut his eyes against the pain that assaulted him then, "It can't… it just can't."

And with that he left the room leaving a tearful Cagalli in his wake.

Kira returned to his room and shut the door quietly before collapsing onto his bed. His emotions whirled as he tried to calm himself. He remembered when he had first met Cagalli. When he had first seen her in a dress. When he had returned to Orb from fighting to be welcomed by the tearful woman embracing him tightly. He knew then his feelings for her. And he knew at that point as well why Cagalli had refused to acknowledge their relationship as brother and sister.

He tried to find some hope for himself at that point that maybe there was a mistake and yet… he knew it was impossible… the words had come straight from Cagalli's father before he died. The evidence sat before him on a picture frame next to his bed. Two babies sleeping side by side. They were family.

Sadness hit him and he lay there staring at the ceiling for a long time before slowly exhaustion began to claim him. His last coherent thoughts that night were, "If only…"

That's it folks! (For the chapter I mean) I've been working on another one of my fanfics so I didn't write this chapter until now. So I hoped you liked it. Thank you once again to all those who reviewed and please continue to do so. I'll get he next chapter out when I can.

P.S. For Saiyuki fans check out my other fanfic "A Home Unseen."

Ciao people!