Chapter 7

Rains POV

I was hooked up to different machines and wires. The doctors easily figured out what kind of poison was used and gave me the antidote. I was sitting up in bed by the next afternoon. Dean and Sam came in as soon as they were allowed. Well Dean had to drag Sam in, but he was there none the less. I looked at Dean and smile. He noticed something in that smile that wasn't in the smiles he had seen when they first found me. He saw kindness and compassion. He more importantly saw love. All those thing weren't present when we first met. I looked at Sam, who was sitting in a chair facing the wall. Dean sat down next to me.

"How are you feeling?"

"I've been better. He still hates me doesn't he?" I whispered pointing to Sam.

"He'll come around don't worry. Right now focus on getting better."

"I'm fine really. Must we keep forgetting that I was raised by a demon. I heal faster than others."

"Must we keep bringing up that you were raised by a demon." I figured that this is still a sore spot with Dean. I couldn't help but look at Sam. He hasn't said a word since he came in the room. So I thought I would be the bigger person and speak first. Nope not happening. Dean was to speak first. 'Damn him being the oldest.' I thought.

'Oh shut up.' Dean thought back. I looked at him and smiled. I missed that. "Well I'm going to get something to eat. You guys wany anything?"

"Pizza." I said. Sam shook his head and continued to look at the wall. I couldn't blame him. It was a nice wall. A real pretty blue.

"Ok then. Pizza it is. I'll be back in a little while. Take this time to work out your issues a little will ya." And Dean was gone. The room fell silent. At first I was going to speak first, but Sam intimated me. Sure I was older than him, but he was like the jolly green giant without the jolly part.

"If you think I'm going to forgive or trust you as quick as him, your dead wrong." I looked over at Sam and he was glareing at me. I could feel his hate twords me and that freaked me out. "After all you did. I don't even want to look at you."

I swallowed hard 'Here we go.' "Then why are you here?"

"Because. I'm here for Dean. He seems to think you changed. I trust him, but not you." He got up and started pacing the room. I knew he was angry at me and I couldn't blame him. When I told him to kill me in the woods, I ment it. I felt like dying for all I had done. He was scareing me with the way he was moving around. I had my eyes locked on his every movement.

"Can you please sit. Your freaking me out." I mumbled not even sure if he heard me. He looked right at me. 'Yup he heard me.' To my surprise he sat down in the chair Dean had pulled up. He placed his hands in his lap and waited. As is he was waiting for me to say something. I looked at him, "What?"

"Care to explain?" He asked in a more calming voice. "I mean why you came back? Why you haven't tried to kill me yet? I already know why you tried to kill me the first time. Where you have been these past three months?"

"Asking alot aren't you. I came back to try and patch things up. I missed you guys. We're still family ya know. I haven't tried to kill you because I have no intent to kill you. What happened before was...that was something that I don't want to get into. The past three months I was getting help."

"Getting help?"

"Trying to get control of this demon power. I don't know exactly what he did to me so that I have it, but it takes over sometimes and I was trying to control it."

"Is that what happened when you attempted to kill me?" I nodded and continued.

"Something like that. I know what happened all those years ago was my fault. I mean I did offer to take your place so I don't know why I was so angry with you."

"What about Jessica?" I looked at him and he looked so hurt. How was I going to explain this one. I mean I killed his girlfriend. What kind of person does that make me? "Rain?"

"Sorry. I honestly don't have an answer for you Sam. I mean I DID kill her. No matter how much I might want to deny that or no matter how much you hate me for it, I still did it." I couldn't look at him. I knew he was crying based on the sound.

"Rain look at me." I looked over at him. "It's true that I hate you for what you did, but I don't blame you."

"Um Sam. How can you hate me but not blame me at the same time?" Yes I was lost.

"Did the demon tell you to do it?" Sam asked holding my head in his hands. I nodded.

"I had to Sam. I had to follow his orders or else he would of.." I couldn't hold my tears in any longer. Flood gates are open captain. I placed my head in my hands and just cried. I heard Sam get up, but didn't bother looking at him. I just figured that he was leaving or something. Having him sit on the bed next to me and hold me. That I wasn't expecting. "He would have killed you. All of you. Dean, dad, you, and anyone you all knew. I'm so sorry Sam. If I could take it back I would, but I can't. I can't undo what I did as much as I want to and that kills me. I hate having you hate me and distrust me. I don't blame you, but I hate it. I hate knowing that I took away the love of your life. I hate knowing that I cause you all that pain. I went with him to spare you that and then I go and cause more." I was crying more than I thought humanly possible. "Sam I know that you'll never forgive me, but I'm just so sorry! Really I..." Sam pulled me into a hug and it felt like he never wanted to let go.

"It's ok. We'll get through this I promise. It's going to take a while, but it'll happen." Sam held me out so that I was facing him again. "I'll get past this whole thing soon enough, but right now I'm just glad your back." The hug lasted until Dean came back.

"Work everything out?" He asked handing me my pizza.

"Some what?" Sam answered as he stole some of MY pizza.

"Hey! You said you didn't want anything. Don't steal mine!" I yelled. Sam shrugged as he ate his stolen slice. I was able to leave two days later. We went back to the motel they were staying at.

"Soooo?" None of us knew what to say. I mean I tried to kill Sam, Dean still trusted me, and Sam...well not sure on that just yet.

"There's a job we can work in Fitchburg." Sam and I just looked at Dean. "I was just saying. Just incase you wanted to kill something other than Sam." Dean said looking at me.

"Well I wouldn't mind killing you now." I smiled at him. He knew I was joking, Sam wasn't so sure.

"Like you could."

"You know I could and I would, but it would be too damn easy."

"Bring it on sister." Dean said getting to his feet.

"You sure you want to go there?" I asked mimicing him.

"I'm already there Rain." Dean stepped to me.

"No your not. Your there." I said pointing to where he was standing.

"Smartass."

"Point being?" Sam just looked from me to Dean and back to me. Then he stood up in between us.

"What's in Fitchburg?" Dean and I looked at him.

"Your killing the fun Sammy." Dean said as he sat down at the table.

"I would have just kicked your ass so you should be thanking him for saving you." I said pushing him over and sitting next to him. He looked over at me and gave me a -you wish- look. 'Don't worry. We'll finish what you started.'

'What I started! You started it dip shit!'

'Nope you did.'

"Guys!" Sam yelled. Dean and I looked at him.

"What?" We said in unison.

"Your doing the twin thing again." I looked over at Dean who shrugged.

"Sorry." I said. I just wanted to stay on his good side. I really didn't want another me and Sam fight right now.

"It's ok. So Fitchburg?"

"I don't know. Dad sent us the coordinates but I don't see anything out of the ordinary." Dean said as he searched for ANYTHING about Fitchburg.

"So then let's just go. I mean it's not to far from here right?" I said getting up. Sam and Dean looked at me like I was crazy. "What is it guys?" I asked not even stopping what I was doing. (Packing.)

"Why are you in such a hurry? Shouldn't we take it a little slower getting into hunting and whatever?" Sam asked me. I threw one of my shirts at him.

"No we should go." I knew why dad wanted us to go there. I knew what they had been up to. The demon made sure of that. I knew all the hunts they went on, everything. "Well are you going to pack or am I going by myself?" They looked at each other and started packing their stuff. We were on the road by eight. It was going to take us only seven hours to get to Fitchburg. Once there, we'll figure out the problem, but for now we get seven hours of AC/DC. 'This maked me wish I was back with the demon.'

"It's not that bad." Dean said glancing back at me.

"What?" Sam asked.

"Nothing. Go back to sleep Sammy." Dean said with a smile.

"Whatever and it's Sam." He corrected as he fell asleep.

'Why does he hate Sammy so much?' I thought.

"Don't know. He hasn't liked it since I got him from Stanford.' Dean thought back. Yes we were doing the twin thing as Sam calls it. It's either this or we wake him up as we talk. This way is quieter.

'Oh. Dean I know why dad is sending us to Fitchburg.'

'Why?'

'You know why.'

'You lost me Rain.'

'Nevermind. You'll see when we get there. I'm going to get some sleep now ok. Wake me up instead of Sam if you get tired.'

'Ok.' With that I fell asleep. Sleeping was alot easier now. Before it was full of horrible dreams and visions. I still see the faces of the people I killed every time I close my eyes, but now it's bareable. Jessica is the one that blares out the most. I'll let my brother in on what I did over the past three months sooner or later. I'll let them know how much I had changed.

A/N I know some might find it weird that I'm having Rain going back and forth from good to evil, but for a while she will be good. I will explain what happened in the three months she was gone. I just like her being good and it's easier to write stuff. REVIEW! Again-good, bad, whatever. THANKS FOR READING!