Chapter 10 (This chapter is going to be pretty Rain centered.)

Rain's POV

I left the hospital, but not before giving Dean a gift. Why the hell would he want me gone? I didn't know and at this point I didn't care. I had no where to go, no family, no money, and well I had nothing at all. I wandered down some back street trying to figure out what the hell got into Dean. 'It wasn't me! I didn't kill Rebecca! Why would he think that I would try and kill him and Sam? This is so screwed up!' I thought as I walked. I was blocking Dean so he wouldn't hear it. I figured out that I could go visit an old friend. I took out my phone and diled her number.

"Hello Rain."

"How did...never mind. I need to talk to you."

"I know. There is a bus ticket waiting for you in the next town. Your not to far away. I'll see you in a little while ok."

"Thanks Missouri. Bye." I closed my phone and continued walking. So sad that the only one I can count on isn't even blood related. I got into the next town just before dawn and got my ticket. Off to Kansas I go. I got there three days later and knocked on Missouri's door. She opened it and greeted me with a smile and a hug.

"Come on in honey. How was your trip?" She asked as we made our way into the kitchen. "Do you want something to eat or drink?"

"I can eat thanks. Three hours on a bus, not fun in my book." I said with a smile. It was fake and she knew it. I was still hurting at the fact that Dean didn't want me anywhere near him or Sam.

"It'll all work out child. He's just scared that's all." Missouri took my hand into hers, but quickly let go. "You had such a hard life." She said with pain in her voice.

"I just don't get why he doesn't want me around? I'm not going to do anything to him or Sam, why would he tell me to leave?" I was looking in her eyes, pleading for an answer, any answer.

"I don't really know honey, but things will get better." Missouri got up and went to the stove to cook.

"Here let me do it." I said as I stood next to her. My speed didn't freak her out at all. "You've done enough for me and I never did anything in return."

"No. You sit. You've had a rough week." I looked at her. "Sit." I went back to the table and sat down with no arguement. I may have demon powers, but this women scared me. She made ham and corn. I LOVE HAM AND CORN! I ate three plates full and then cleaned up. I figured she cooked, I clean. "Do you want to talk about it?"

"I'm not evil." We were sitting in the living room, drinking coffee and talking about my beautiful life. "Why can't they see that?"

"Honey they will. I don't believe Dean thinks your evil. Sam neither."

"Then what is it?"

"Dean's just scared. Not so much of you, but what you can do and what you have done. You haven't told them all of your past yet have you?"

"No. I missed so much. I just want to be a family again. I just want them to love me and all of us to be together. Is that really to much to ask out of them?" I looked over at the old women, who at this moment was the only person in my life that I could turn to.

"No it's not too much to ask." Ok now either she turned into a man or... I turned around. "Hello Raindrop."

"Dad!" I jumped up and hugged him. First instinct. He hugged me back even tighter than Dean did when we reunited. "What not afraid I might try and kill you again?"

"No Raindrop. I think we need to talk." I looked at him and nodded.

"I'll leave you two alone. If you need anything."

"Thanks Missouri." Dad said and she left.

"Must be bingo night." I said with a smile.

"I heard that Rain! And bingo is on Wednesday. Tonight is poker night." Dad and I laughed as we heard the door close. He looked at me and kept smileing.

"You look so much like your mother. So beautiful."

"That's odd."

"What?"

"Most people say I look like Dean." I looked at him and we both smiled.

"I wonder why? I know what he said to you. How he asked you to leave."

"Yea I figured that. Wouldn't happen to know why would ya?"

"No Rain I don't." I sat next to him with my head down. "How have you been?"

"I've had better days. Not much better, but hey."

"And the demon?"

"Wondering when you would ask that. I don't know where he is dad. He's alive though."

"And your powers?"

"All buisness aren't you? I can control them. That's why I don't get why Dean is so afraid of me."

"He just want's to keep Sam safe you know that. You did try to kill him once already, not to mention trying to kill me."

"But I never tried to kill him yet." He knew that was a joke and he laughed. "Besides I wasn't myself then."

"I know. Like Missouri said, just give them time. It'll all be ok."

"If it doesn't turn out ok, can I kill them?" I looked at him.

"No Raindrop you can't."

"We faught a shifter."

"I know."

"It killed one of Sam's friends." Dad looked at me with shock.

"Really?" I nodded.

"It tried to kill Sam too. Dean killed it before it could. When it was threating to kill Rebecca, Sam's friend, Dean had a chance to kill it then, but he froze."

"Dean froze during a hunt!"

"He is human dad. I think it's because the shifter looked like me. He didn't want to risk it really being me and in doing that. Becky died. I think he blames me."

"Why would he blame you Rain?"

"I don't know. I went to help him move Sam to the car and he told me that he could do it. The hate in his voice dad. It scared me. At the hospital is when he told me to leave. That he wanted me as far from him and Sam as I could get." I was crying again. Why not I was hurting. Luckly my dad was there and he held me.

"Raindrop listen to me will you." I nodded, "Dean is pretty, well he's not too sharp, but he means well in everything he does. He loves you and as much as I hate to say this, he loves you more than Sam. I don't know if it's because your his twin or because after twenty years your finally together...er um were together. He'll always be there if you need him. I think it just scared him on how close he came to looseing Sam and that he had to shoot you."

"But it wasn't me!"

"I know that and so does he, but it looked like you and to him it ment something. Answer me something, If you had to could you kill Dean?"

"What kind of question is that?"

"Just answer Rain. Could you kill Dean if you had to? Or Sam or me for that matter?"

"I..um I...no dad I couldn't. What does that have to do with anything?"

"It has to do with everything. Dean, to him killed you. Not the shifter that looked like you , but you Rain. To him that was you."

"So then why is he mad at me?"

"He's not mad at you. He's afraid for you."

"Dad you lost me. I thought he was pissed and blameing me for killing Becky and hurting Sam."

"No. He's just scared that if it comes to it, if somehow you go evil again, he would have to kill you."

"Oh I think I get what you mean now."

"You see then. He wouldn't be able to kill you. Not even to protect Sam or me. You and Dean have something that no one else has. You have this bizzar connection that no other person has and I don't mean you being twins. What I mean is there is something there that no one see's."

"Well I don't see it either."

"Maybe not, but Dean does. The strong sence to protect you was present even at an early age. Why he always waited for you before he went upstairs, the reason it seemed like you two were joined at the hip when you were younger. He know what you did to protect Sam and that drove him over the edge."

"Lost over here!" I said pointing to myself. I wasn't lying. Anyone else get what's going on? Help me out then.

"As the oldest twin, it was already placed in Dean to always look after you and keep you safe no matter what. When you gave yourself up for Sam, Dean felt like he failed you. He wasn't there for you and that killed him. It killed him that it was you and not him. He wondered for years why you were the one awake and not him. That thought ate at him all his life."

"So if that's true. Why push me away now? Why not want me with him?"

"Think of it this was Raindrop...If the demon was to come back and threaten Dean, Sam, or me what would you do?"

"What?"

"What would you do? Would you give up your life to save us?"

"In a heartbeat and you know that."

"Dean knows that too and that's why he pushed you away."

"I think I really get it now. He pushed me away to protect me. He knows this was if the demon attackes him that I won't be put in the possition to give my life up again, this way he knows that I'm alive somewhere."

"Yes. Something like that."

"Hey dad."

"What is it Rain?"

"When did you get all smart?" I asked holding back a laugh. He looked at me and pulled me into a hug.

"I was always this smart."

"This isn't the only reason why your here is it?"

"No Rain it's not."

"Before we get into that, I have another question."

"Ask away."

"What happened to mom?"

"You don't know?"

"I know that she died and that the demon killed her the night I left with him, but she never moved on. So what happened to her?"

"She never moved on?" I shook my head no.

"So that's what it might be."

"What might be what?"

"The other reason why I'm here. There something in our old house." I looked at him and I was scared.

"What is it?" I asked, fear present in my voice.

"I'm not sure, but I have to look into it." He said as he stood. I stood next to him.

"I'm comming with you." He looked down and smiled.

"Let's go."

A/N I get that this chapter might be a tiny bit confuseing (and my spelling sucks) So if you have any questions, please ask. REVIEW!