The fallen
Sitting in class I see the teacher staring,
Staring at the ugly mark that covers my face,
I see his questioning look as I struggle to keep my mask in place
The bell for the end of school rings as I hide the limp from the piercing gazes of my classmates
My tormentor
My love
My fallen angel
I quietly open the door to the place I used to call home
I feel my hopes rise as I see it empty
Only to feel his warm breath on my neck
My tormentor
My love
My fallen angel
I feel your fist connect with my stomach as you whisper in my ear
Welcome home hikari
As I fall to the ground you hit harder calling me worthless, pathetic
A weakling unworthy of any notice
These words hurt me more than your fists ever could
My tormentor
My love
My fallen angel
You leave me broken and bleeding on the floor
But I know that in time these wounds will heal
As I clean up my bloodied body I curse myself for ever falling in love
With you of all people
My tormentor
My love
My fallen angel
Yet whenever you beat me I cannot stop myself from forgiving you
In my mind I tell myself you are just misunderstood
That this is your way of dealing
My tormentor
My love
My fallen angel
I scream, shouting at myself mentally
Why? Why do you despise and torture me
I slump to the ground defeated, when I see something
A razor! I pick it up as if it's the most precious thing in the world
My tormentor
My love
My fallen angel
I stare at it until I carefully bring it down to my wrist
Softly pressing it against my pale skin
I gasp as I slowly bring it across the skin
The biting metal slicing through as blood pours down my arm
My tormentor
My love
My fallen angel
I laugh bitterly as I tell him
Look what you've brought me to
As I slice through my other arm but I know this won't kill me
Why should I kill myself when I'm already dead inside
I gaze down thinking this is the only thing that will know my true feelings
My pain
My sorrow
My inner torment
My salvation
A/N I typed this at about 1am so sorry if this is just rubbish and this is the first poem I've ever written. Thanks for reading and all reviews would be accepted even if you just tell me that my writing is crap.
