A/N: Ah yes. Chapter four! I'm moving right along here… (But not really. Of course this is all put up at once and this is my fifth day...now going on sixth day writing this!) Well here we go. I'm bringing back the POV's. This time they are sharing. Awe, how nice.

Warning: Oh lordy a warning! Hahah. Yes. Sexual content. Oh my:O this is new for me so… Yeah. I usually don't write things like this. Oh lemon lime tooty fruity? Okay so it's not HARD sex. / Okay just read. But if you're not into all the lovely fondeling and whatever, then go down to the author's note at the bottom and then you may move onto the next chapter. Or if you want sexual content gets turned off by the 4th "-x-."

Chapter Five : I Need You

I can't stop thinking about it. I'm trying to sleep, but all that keeps poping up in my head is her. I glance over to my side to see Alphonse 'sleeping' in the corner. Even a soul needs some rest I guess. But why did I do that? Why did I kiss her? My best friend. I kissed my best friend. I'm sure that's not weird right? It was a thank you… Right? But why do I want to do it again so badly? The way she tasted. It was so sweet. Her lips were so soft. God, what am I saying? Snap out of it Edward! I just lay there, my hands behind my head as I count each small dot on the ceiling. Damn she's in my head again. I have to see her. No I can't. She's sleeping. What if I made up something saying that my new automail was pulling at my flesh…? Or rubbing up against it? No she wouldn't believe that. Her automail is flawless. Its worth a try right? Oh I don't know. I have to leave tomorrow too. I have to get back. It's now or never right?

I slowly and ever so quietly get up out of my bed. I try my hardest to make sure Al doesn't notice me leaving. I finally make it to the door, reaching out to grasp onto the handle tightly. Almost clear. I turn the knob slowly, tiptoeing my way out of the room. Softly I shut the door behind me. I quietly walk down the long narrow hallway, her room being on the very end. There is a small light shining out from the crack under the door. Could she still be up? I stand at the door for a few moments contemplatig weither or not to knock. Dammit. I really wish this were a lot easier. I mean, what am I so nervous about? I clench my hand into a fist raising it twords the door. Here it goes. Two small knocks at the door. If she doesn't answer then I guess she's sleeping. I wouldn't want to wake her. I shrug sighing softly. Guess not. I slowly turn around until I hear the knob turn. "Ed… Is that you?" She says softly. Oh crap, for some reason I was really hoping that she wouldn't have answered the door. I nodded and made my way back over to the door. "Are you okay?" She asks me tilting her head to the side. I just happened to look her up and down. She wasn't in her mechanic jumpsuit. Oh no, this seemed much more… provacative. She stood there, leaning against the doorframe, just staring at me. She was only wearing a very short white nightgown. Dammit, she's your friend! I look back up at her and just smile softly. "I need to talk to you." That's all I said. She nodded and moved out from standing in the doorway. I slowly walked my way into her room. Come to think of it, I've never been in her room.

I stared around, looking at the walls and posters carefully. It was like any normal teenage girls' room I guess you could say. You'd figure that if you walked into a machine junkie's room, there would be plenty of car posters, tools laying everywhere instead of stuffed animals or dolls or whatever, and it would smell of oil! Oh no, this room had bare walls. I searched around. Nothing on the floors either. And that wasn't the smell of oil either. It was the sent of vanilla. It seemed so plain and yet so clean at the same time. My eyes caught the picture frame on the small vanity table next to her bed. It was a portrait of us as kids. I smiled gently walking a bit more into her room. "Well? What is it?" She closed the door behind her, crossing her arms and staring at me. She closed the door? My eyes widen as I stared at her completely dumbfounded. What the hell was I going to tell her again? Oh yeah! "My flesh… I think your damn automail is cutting into my skin." I quirked a brow slowly pointing to the spot where it 'hurt'. She sighed heavily replying in a squeeky tone, which I found to be very cute. "My damn automail, huh? Sheesh you're such a cry baby! Sit down." She shoke her head slowly walking tword me. I ploped down onto the bed behind me, finding it somewhat comfortable. She made her way over to sit down beside me. She just stared at me. "Well?" What does she mean 'well'? Ugh, I guess… Damn this is akward. I guess I should remove my damn tank top. I clutched at the bottom of my shirt as I pulled it up and over my head. It's not like is the first time I have been shirtless in front of her, but still. This time it was different. I felt my face get a little warmer as I looked over to her, my heart seeming to race. All I can do is grin. I could see a small pinkish color show up acorss her cheeks. Was she blushing? Does she always do this? I never notice these things. Why do I notice all of this now? I watch her as she leans in more twords my socket.

I am completely frozen.

What… is she doing? Her index finger slowly traces along my scars. "I… eh…" Dammit I can't talk! What am I going to do? I just want to pin her down to the bed and… oh god what am I thinking! She's just my friend. Why am I feeling this way? "W…in…ry?" I can't help it. I'm so sensative right there. I don't know if she's screwing around with me or is she checking to see if I riped the skin or something? Her blue eyes lock with mine. Her look just makes me melt. "What is it? I really don't see any—." I cut her off with my lips. Again. She doesn't pull away, which is a very good thing. I cross my flesh hand over to her, my fingertips slowly dusting up the warm, soft skin of her leg. As soon as my fingertips get a taste of her skin, I run my palms a bit up her nightgown and up her thighs. What am I doing? She's probably not comfortable. Hell. I pull away quickly. "God. I'm sorry. Dammit I don't know what the hell came over me…" I watched her carefully, my eyes appologizing more than my words.

-x-

Why did he stop? Did I do something wrong? I watch him closely, staring directly into his mezmorizing, golden eyes. God his look makes my heart race. I can't help it but as much as I want to stare, I glance away. I'm shaking. I'm so nervous I don't know what to do. He's obviously been thinking about me as much as I've been thinking about him. But again, he's my friend. I don't understand… "Winry, really… I'm so sorry I didn't mean—." I cut him off this time. My way of paying him back I guess. God his lips. I love the taste. I press my lips a bit more forcefully against his. I feel his hand trail up the inside of my thighs this time. Again I'm completely frozen. My hand finds its way to his chest. I run my palm lightly along his muscles. His skin is surprisingly soft. I love his warmth and so does my hand. I continue to explore the new areas of his body that I never have before. His automail arm winds around my waist, pulling me in closer to him so that I'm practically sitting on him. I feel my face heat up even more. God I must be blushing like mad. My heart is throbing against my chest as I feel his hand slide up to my stomach. God this is killing me.

I want him.

-x-

It seems that she's getting a little ancy now as I feel her wiggle beneath my palm. I slide my hand a bit higher. My target is her chest. Her skin is so soft and smells so sweet. I break away from kissing her. God I needed to breathe. As wonderful as it is… I hate it that you can barely breathe. I place small soft kisses down her jaw line making my way to her neck. I sigh softly against her skin. I can feel the heat from her body hit my face. God she smells so good. I begin to suck and nip at her hot skin and she squirms a bit more. Heh, I always enjoyed making her crazy. But now I found a new way. She gasped lightly as my hand brushed up in between her breasts. I stopped sucking at her skin for a moment. I couldn't help but grin. I nose my way up her neck and into her ear. My breath seems to be picking up speed. My fingers slowly traced around her breast. She gasped lightly. I cupped my hand around one and gave it a light squeeze and for her reaction, she arched her back a bit. As much as I love studying alchemy I think I love studying what makes her tick more. I sigh slowly into her ear as my hands make their way back down her chest.

I want her.

-x-

Geez, the way he is touching me… is making me crazy. His hand decends lower and lower down my body. His pace also seems to be slowing down as well. It's making me crazy how I can't see his expression. It's bad enough I barely know what he's thinking any other part of the day. I feel him breathe into my ear again. "Winry…" God just the way he whispers my name into my ear. A violent shiver shoots throughout my body. His hand is getting lower. Slowly, he slips his fingers into my panties. One, two, three… he lets his fingers dust my skin. I slowly begin to spread my legs. My heart in stuck in my throat. My stomach is tossing violently. His lets his hand go further in. I take in a sharp breath. He was going to do it. I feel his index finger slide inside me and I gasp lightly. Dammit. Again I know he's grinning. "We're going to try something a little different…" He whispers into my ear as I feel him insert another finger inside. I wiggle around a bit, now feeling the beads of sweat that have started to form on my forehead. I let out a soft mewling sound as I feel him move his fingers around very slowly. God, I want him to go faster. "…Ed…?" I can barely talk. He nods and kisses along my neck again making his way down to my collarbone. I guess he understood why I said his name. He moves around a bit more inside of me. God this is killing me. I moan his name softly. He stops.

-x-

What was that? Dammit. I don't want to stop I was only getting started. I take my left hand out of her panties and bring my hands back over to myself. I wipe my hand off on my boxers, slightly embarrassed. She's looking at me. Dammit, I screwed up again. I slowly look over to her, frowning deeply. This is not why I came… Well I mean I was thinking about this. It's just that this wasn't supposed to end up this way. Her sad blue eyes gaze into mine. I get the feeling of dissapointment and want. "Winry. I have to tell you something. I didn't come in your room to play around, but I couldn't help myself. I just… I can never stop thinking about you, but I have to tell you something that you're not going to like." I now look away. I can't look at her when I tell her these words that I know she hates so much. I don't want to see her when the words that are about to come out of my mouth basically stab her in the heart. I hate causing her pain. She watches me carefully. I already know her heart is sinking to the pit of her stomach. "Winry, I have to leave tomorrow. I didn't plan this it's just… I have things that I need to do in Central. So… I…" Dammit. I made her cry. Again. I can't… I don't want to look at her. It kills me. She's shaking. God. Why the hell does it have to be this way? I shouldn't have played around so foolishly tonight. I scoot closer to her and wrap my arms around her, holding her tightly. I sigh heavily.

This isn't how I wanted all of this to end.

-x-

All I ever do is cry when he leaves. Why? Why does it have to end this way everytime? It's all so sudden. I'm probably getting him all wet now from my tears. You could probably fill up billions of bottle with all my stupid tears. I just want to stay like this. I just want to stay in his arms. This isn't right. I want him home. I just want him to be home. He's my home. I don't feel comfortable or safe without him. I… can't… He's moving. I slowly glance up to him. I probably look horrible. He reaches up to wipe away the tears from my eyes. He's smiling softly. "Winry… There's something I want to tell you. I… Just never wanted to come right out and say it." What was he going to say? His voice is so calm and soft. "I love you." …Those three words came out of his mouth. The ones I've wanted to say. I can't help but stare into his eyes. I'm not crying anymore. All I can do is tell him it back. I hiccup from my crying and smile softly. "I… love you too."

I'm so happy.

-x-

She loves me too? I… God it's going to kill me even more to leave her now. I smile a bit more giving her one last quick hug before slipping back into my tank top. I had to return to the room. The sun was almost up. That or Al could possibly be wondering where I am, or why I'm taking so long. I get up from the bed, frowning slightly as I make my way over to the door. I grab onto the doorknob and pause for a moment. I glance over my shoulder to look at her one last time. Her cheeks were still damp from the tears, but there was a smile.

For once I made her smile.

A/N: oo Okays so that probably wasn't that good. I loved the ending though. Uhm well if you skipped this chapter basically what happened was he told her that he was leaving again. Tears were shed. But of course it all ended in a smile, and we all love smiles. Next chapter will be short. It is the last chapter. Hell I stuck it out til the end and yuh! Next is the goodbye. I hate goodbyes.