Speechless

Chapter Four- Suicide Attempt

My eyes were closed. I could feel the blood under my head. I was dying. Or perhaps I was dead, I couldn't tell, but lord, it was finally quiet. The smile never left my lips as I thought of death. It was quiet, the screaming was gone, his voice was no longer inside of my head. I was finally free. I felt bad for the girls who were not with me. The ones I left behind could not be saved. They were already lost in the eternal darkness, and yet I lay here on the cold white tiled floor, drifting into an eternal sleep. If only they could feel what I was feeling right now. If only they could know what it was like to be free, but they never will.

The screaming is returning. Though his voice is louder this time, he wants me to come home, but I have no home. He's near, people are dying, some are going crazy. They're going to get hurt, the people working on this case, I have to get up but I seem to be frozen to the floor. My legs are unable to move as if I have been paralyzed, and that's when I remember, I just cut my wrist, so deep that I am in a blissful sleep, or so I thought I was. Its turning out to be a nightmare.

My master will be coming for me. I can see his face, I can feel his hands lifting my body. The air outside is cold. Its snowing and I can feel the wetness of the ice-y water on my skin. I am too weak to fight him as he takes me back to his home, where I become nothing more than a toy, a thing that he can use as he pleases. I'm sorry Mrs. Benson, I know you wanted to help, and I know you will be disappointed in me because I did not even bother to fight. I know you will feel the pain of losing a friend, but it will fade away quickly as you realize that I was no friend, and that I was never an innocent. I know you only wanted to help, and I know you want me to stay, but I'm afraid that I can't, because my master wants me. And master always gets what he wants.

I drift into a dreamless sleep now. The blood is still flowing, and I am not sure if this is just a dream, or rather nightmare, but I know all hope is lost, and I know that neither you detective Olivia Benson, nor your partner will be able to help me, because once you see what I have seen throughout my entire life, you will wish, that you never met me.

A/N: Yes I know this is short, and no this is not the end. It just seems like it. I know its all a bit confusing, the story, but it will come together in later chapters, I do intend to finish this story as well as "Silent Death" and I am sorry to have made you guys wait so long. Here is the fourth chapter of "Speechless" I hope you enjoy it and are not too confused, if you are it will come later, so please keep reading! Oh and those of you who dont get the whole "Suicide" thing, she jsut slit her wrist really deep, its almost a straight line but its actaully diagonal so it will not kill her, just weaken her.